mildly irrational

fuck! how do you spell mildly? mildley? midley, ,midly, fuck! i used to know all this rational shit and now my memory isnt worth a fuck! im living in the moment so much that i can spell a happy prayer in my mind but fuck can i spell a word, or a name, or remember them, fading fast, the past, the future, it's always now mutherfuckers! anyways back to laconic misery alone Smiley face
joking, actually really happy at the moment, for the first time ever, continually ish smiley face fucking have a great new year whatever you are doing i shall put a special present for you all on the wishing tree in the garden of need

allons-y doctor who? Well err um it's Me...

ripples on a pond, melodies, songs, rivers, flowing, growing, forwards, allons-y, alongs, love, loving love, loving lovers loving love fuck yeah!

or this version

ripples on a pond, melodies, songs, rivers, flowing, growing, forwards, alongs, allons-y, lovely, loving love, lovers loving love as below so above

!kcuf

fuck! how do you spell mildly? mildley? midley, ,midly, fuck! i used to know all this rational shit and now my memory isnt worth a fuck! im living in the moment so much that i can spell a happy prayer in my mind but fuck can i spell a word, or a name, or remember them, fading fast, the past, the future, it's always now mutherfuckers! anyways back to laconic misery alone smile emoticon + heart emoticon
joking actually really happy at the moment, for the first time ever, continually ish smile emoticon fucking have a great new year whatever you are doing i shall put a special present for you all on the wishing tree in the garden of need

smiling too

if you are sceptical of what energy is and that you could feel it too or what i do when i send healing, well brother, sister, I'm loving you to put it midly, simply in a way that you may feel too, I'm loving you and if you don't believe it try me, I can show you, let you feel it, but only if you have an open mind to let that openess reveal it so that you can enter into a state of grace or i'll just make a face to get you smiling too and then it's gonna be real for you

wars star

so today i went to watch starwars with my family as they were paying (wink) and I have to say it got better and better obv. ive watched it online since the first time but also by this point my cynicism was all but destroyed like so many death stars so that I felt light hearted and jolly even though people died but not to worry, most of them were storm troopers anyway and they're just clones and drones (wink) sarcasm:- upsetting apple carts ever since someone said does that wheel look straight to you? The obvious thing to come from watching a film meant for kids that adults seem to love too is how childish our society is for the most part, and how sad it is that many learn more about right and wrong from these films than they do from moral leaders (as we have so few) and role models (since we seem to think anyone famous is somehow in the position to be one) and the unsung heroes of life get so little airtime in a selfie, self obsessed setup like this world... However im not a doom and gloom merchant, things are going to shit but I have this undeniable need to feel positive about the future, so THERE!

sometimes

sometimes sometimes i get angry and miserable and feel like venting but then after a while I see that it's just grief because I know I'm leaving behind an old me, an old life, an old way to be, leaving old habits and opinions back on the burner where they can be destroyed this rhyme aint nothing like the one in my head which is a shame cos it was much better than this but back to bus-iness, we are humans and god is real, that's the deal, i communicate with the ancestors or whatever you would like to call goddess, love, godhead and my journey is to go back to there, where all love resides with as many folks besides beside me, in fact i've made a promise it will be everybody, yes everyone, leaving here, to go somewhere nicer still, or stay here but be in heaven while alive and just go there when you die, instead of all this angst and worrying about what happens then, i've decided to find out now and help others out, i'm going to heal some, using massage, touch and love and loving energy and that will be it for me, living, growing, teaching, learning, yearning to find the enlightenment, the being that i already am just forgot while I was rushing to fit in with what everyone else was doing here

hearing a lot on the wind and from friends about trouble sleeping, insomnia for instance, first things first, sort your waking life out! it's why you don't want to sleep, no matter how much you would like to sleep, for some reason you can't or don't so why not accept that? Move forward, imagine that it's for a good reason in the long run. Basically sleep will heal you, connect you, let you see in your dreams that you're not having at the moment what you need to do, tell yourself I will stay awake all night, try that + don't look at screens for at least two hours before bedtime, don't do anything in your bed but sleep, don't sit on it, don't lay on it until you are tired out. see yourself as someone who gets a good nights sleep even if that means sleeping in sometimes when you need more, sometimes you need less, right now though? I'm guessing one good nights sleep would do the trick so ask for it, ask for a good nights sleep, actually say out loud, i will sleep well tonight, it may not work great that first night but slowly you will sleep more, if you would like to talk about it let me know, message me for a consult

kings will fall and queens and leaders and all

you try to make me angry, frustrate me, belittle me, hurt me in so many old and outdated ways but they just don't hit the spot anymore spit it out let it go my friend, you will not turn me, into you anymore, be yourself, see yourself because I love you enough to let you fail, to fall, only to rise up in love with loving love like me it's enough, i'm happier than i;ve ever bin before and out with the old in the with the new i love you brother, sister, all that it is have it! live your life and learn to see each other as the thing to worship and you are your own saviour, your own best friend if you wish to be make it so number one, this has been me and i've said too much already or not enough yet

got to be

as a healer, as an awakened soul, one who knows more of the truth of this ere place, it's come to my attention that the majority of everyone else, not you my friends on here because most of you are connected to me in some way, so today I say this to everyone else who isn't listening, won't read this because like me you are a sinner not a saint, or at least a fake and not a winner, this world has many things that can easily distract you from what you were actually meant to be doing with your life, like realising that everything is a lesson, EVERYTHING, EVERYONE and for me as a reformed character, reformed meat on a previously shitty stick, this schtick i go through, these words I write they're magically true, imbued with wisdom for me and you and it's not been easy to come clean I can tell you, change my ways, but love has done that and the possibility that I could be loved one day meant I could start loving myself again and from there start loving each and every one of you, that's god to be, goddess to be, got to be the least that I can do

mustachios

in my healers hut is a rodent who i've just setup for winter with pistachios and in my healers hut there is a spider who lives in a drawer of my medicine cabinet and in my healers hut there are two comfy armchairs with two rocks sitting beneath them one white one all the colours of the rainbow and in my healers hut i make space for your words, your deeds, your feelings and your face so show it to me the one you only display when you are sleeping come and play and one day you will feel much better than you were today see it coming your healing coming see it feel it imagine it be it now feel it love +

pain

pain is is an impermanent sensation that means that pain is a message that you can get, release from within you a reservoir of pain inside your body held there are emotions you have never felt, feelings you have never dealt with and so if you are willing to go there, you can access all this pain and see that it never comes again, but you have to be willing to be honest with yourself and others, sisters and brothers all, we tell each other our truth, we share that pain, we share the joy that arrives in its name and the shame and guilt that we carried all these years can be healed and replaced and faced just like our fears to become dreams and wishes that can come true anyone everyone of you can do this thing, just meditate, breathe, eat well, sleep well, force yourself out of the rut that you've been in, let's do this thing,rambling now, not sure this says what i had hoped it would but cha! who knows if anything we do will really help others, it's helping me that will have to be enough for now, holy cow it's early i'd better spend some time writing my book and get it out this weekend, keep my promises to myself and others, see what we can do to make our lives have meaning just by loving others, being there for them, being good for others, help them release all spiritual, physical, emotional and psychological pain and thank your body for everything it does, carrying you around, like a vessel on a journey to love

help

the hardest part about experiencing something awful, whether a life event, disease, ill health of any kind, stressful situations whatever it is that feels as though it will go on forever and our fear is exactly that, mental illness for instance seems like a curse that will never go away and we hide from it by taking drugs the doctor says will help that are no better than placebo, so stay strong, have some hope, i'll send you a little if you like, ask me, see if there's anything different coming on the horizon, take a chance, ask for help within, literally shout to the universe, i've had enough and when you've had enough, you've had it, it will pass as with all things, and one day you will look back on this time with a wry smile knowing it was for a good reason, even if it doesn't seem like that now, put things into context, would you be the person you are now without those experiences? Are you somehow better for them? eat well sleep well i know some ways to help that are tried and trusted for this, treat yourself with some respect because you are beautiful beings every one

heaven

dwell dwell dwell three holes in the profound
dwelling literally living down the well of truth
dwelling is taken to mean getting stuck on
something dwelling on the past or future
successes that's easy to dream about
'fucking hell loving heaven' is the saying
these things oft get lost in translation
have been deliberately truncated
more than they ought and now
wrought and abroad in the
world new ideas can take form
it's time for the worm to turn
for the sheeps to growl
night night wise owl
good morning fox
yes for tomorrow is a new day
yippee yahoo hoorah hooray
nonsense makes sense of
your life when it's pence
for your thoughts and
they come from a
source of great
peace and serenity
angling down and
up and out and
around then
back once
more to
love
+

more or listen

hear less listen more
touch less feel more
eat less taste more
look less see more
smell and breathe
from your bellies,
and sense more
for sure we can
be more loving
by giving away
everything we
have for free
to see what
comes on
back to
us all

pissing

so it's pissing down and i was going to go for a nice walk, if it dries up long enough to make little brown mushrooms turn into a lovely golden fawn colour then im off out to meet them and prepare for tonights whatever but hey if not ill have to go with a mate to yate and get halo 5 guardians and blat each other with guns in the warm and dry but next week i get a fire for my caravan and then well ill be like the pig i am only in shit and hot and toasty stoved otherwise things are great, golden in fact, wisdom comes where knowledge is denied its place in truth, when you know you know nothing you can come to know anything from a place of emptiness and lack of beliefs or dogma or habitual thought processes or ear worms damn you everybodies changing and i dont feel the same but now im smiling because i dont feel the same as you in fact you feel grouchy at times rough round the edges not clearly defined with so many more pixels within my virtual projected light bee holographic kaladaiescopic reality and the colour pink in the clouds since someone happened to mention it was there to me now i can see and i wonder how much more is out there in here capable possible beautiful wonderful amazing pleasing and true? Let's find out when i say these words to all of you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, you +

sat

i sat and saw my energy body and my energy field around me so then i refined it into a thread running through me first as a rope then becoming tighter and tighter spun as it got lighter and lighter like a sun and tighter still and more refined and more divine and strike a light it became tiny like silk or cotton on a reel losing itself within me as it shrank it was in the very heart of me from head to toe and i sat there in a pose, hands upright on my knees, legs crossed upright stance, head facing forward not down or up, eyes closed, relaxed, seeing this happening, loving the connection as it swarmed within and became alive inside every cell and particle as it connected me to everything and everyone and i saw it shooting up in to the sky and down into the earth, saw my death and my rebirth and saw me shining like a beacon firing love out into the world and that is what i will do from now on apart from individual healings i will be thinking of you while i sense the energy of every moment that was, is, or will be  ++++++++

she

she whispers to me in her own voice and it's mine too because our thoughts are one, hers are mine and mine are hers and as our minds combine we love each other all the time and i thank her for each and every new day and experience trying to like the ones that are not pleasant even more, love the people who deserve it the least but need it the most and start over again knowing she's guiding me to the truth and loving this personality trains me shapes me makes we wish for everyone to feel this love see the world that becomes a very real possibility within our mutual imaginations, visions of a better life for you and me and all of us in the future just wait and see so i wondered wandered lonely for a while and finally feel like some company and i told my goddess that and my god did they understand taking my hand making me realise that to love everyone i meet is the way to open my heart to lead me home to where the real journey can start and that's begun the victory, the winning feeling that whatever the destination my yearning is leaving because im being loving and that's leading me to feeling loved for the first time that i can remember and this december is going to be a party time for me as i turn 43 + the answer to the question of life the universe and everything was 42 and it's true i found out this year that i could love you without needing you to love me, that i could love you set you free, i could love you unconditionally i could love you and not hold back, i could love you all and that's not just because you're lovely it's because when it comes to love there is no lack no shortage of it, it's everywhere in everything we're just blinded by our fear our genetic history our heritage having been taking from us, from me and since i was able to see it from a very young age i hid from the truth that i am a plant in this reality, a kind of sage, a guide, a teacher, a student always yes, but it's my role to dare to be different in a world desperate to be normal and not care if that makes it hard to find someone similar enough to me to understand my mental menagerie but i can't let my transformation into who i always was inside, who i really am, for everyone else to see, prevent me from being whatever it is i need to be to fulfill my destiny and i love you now that i'm feeling so much more like the one you knew mother, father, sister, brother, i'm coming home to you one day soon  +

man

so ive felt as though im ready and thats as ready as youll ever be and asked the universe to give to me the opportunity to see and build something and see it grow and learn and sow some seeds for the future deep in the earth and make a place for others to heal have freshwater there and ponds and fields and cottages for the guests who needs a space to be without all the trappings of modernity and then it can also be a herb garden and medicine patch and vegetable supplier and food and energy converter where the plants are grown and sown and harvested in cooperation, relationship and honour and respect so they do their best to be individual and unique we help each other out so to speak cross pollination information going back and forth between them and you and me and us unconforming to the common need for electricity and wireless fog so
this is my hope my dream to build it so they can come and heal +
thankyou universe ill get on my side of the thingy by writing and
asking someone who may say here ya go, here's a field get a
building next summer dream big i say, and be disappointed
a little more but overwhelmed with the way that things like
like minded people are drawn to you when you get out
there and try and try and do and do some more who
knows this time next year i could be settled in a
new built eco home and setting out gardens
trees avenues and lawns and places for
nude sunbathing and such and all
sorts of other lush stuffs to be
included in this sort of plan
wow i never thought to
get here but it feels
fucking amazing
woman and
man
+

believe it - naruto

if you can see it
then it can see you
whatever it is be it sky
sea, sun, sand, sexy lady
sexy man, earth, wind and fire
it's all alive, it's all got eyes to see
so where does that leave you and me
it leaves us where we always were right
here in the middle of a great observing now
a massive tiny moment of nowness being done
each and every single one of us living our own life
slap bang in the centre of a big bang creating worlds
each time we blink this one comes into existence and us
with it, here we are again, here we go again, on the merry go
round again, finally the love that lasts is coming to take us away
this poem came to be more or less what i hoped, a dr zeusy soap
a tale to make others pale a tune for the phat lady to sing to as it ends
i feel as though this is what we have to accept and face this time friends
this world is just a shadow of the one we really live in and we're going home
back to where we all belong in the long run back to instant wo-man-ifestation +

afinity

self taught massage from the root of a natural affinity and ability and yearning which became pressure point healing revealing more and more possibilities so that it soon turned into the lightest touch my visualisations are of you completely well, physically resolved evolved and as my hand lays on you i see it all golden energy and light where shadows and emptiness prevailed before whether old or new damage or unease which doctors call disease or injury whatever it is it's all the same to me so as i was going to write this nicely it seems as though everything has to be a riddle otherwise it would be too easy for you to work it out and there would be no sense of achievement, i would be ruining a surprise of cosmic significance which we all want to enjoy discovering at our own pace so i try not to trace the tracks of my tears or yours and just see you as i wish it all to be, lovely, loving, loved, perfectly resonating joyful expressions of pure love and this sounds like nonsense it doesn't come out in the right order like yoda words go the way around they feel right not how they are meant to be said and yes ive held back because i must ive pushed ahead because i must ive set myself apart because i must ive finally felt my heart fixed and bust and bursting at last apart so that it can connect with every bit of energy around i felt my crotch become a whirlpool as i fell into the love that exudes from every pore of the skin of this reality when you finally connect to the good in you and others and love

and how

so as friday comes around again my energy comes back as i can relax and not work hard and lose all my strength trying to earn money and i can be creative connect eat well sleep well wake up naturally stretch find a position that is uncomfortable and stay there until the reservoir of pain is released and then i can sit still and quiet notice the space between thoughts, see that grow and become a void from where all the solutions to my problems flow and on it goes as i repeat myself and wish i didnt have to but accepting this pain and strain upon my system and the tiredness and the stress less these days feeling healing rays and confidence returning that i am who i am meant to be if only i could see the ways in which this world is being transformed for the better and yet it's going on without my knowledge everywhere whatever the current so called news situation in this nation im thinking of making my own country where we live free, no really, free to be, to love, to grow things and people and push comes to shove this has to happen for me for us for everyone and it is if you look at the trends where the ends don't justify the means and folk are grateful for a few little magic beans or pulses rather than a hulking hanging carcass of a cow those fairy tales and magical myths say more than we allow ourselves to see and gradually as i plateau and reveal the layers that mean i am more than i could imagine if i set myself the course to be the best me i can be and see where that takes me and i have a vivid imagination always have done but that world never overlapped with this one leaving me fraught and distraught at why my dreams never came true, thats because i never got to know even one of you much, in touch, connected, affected, i barely felt emotions i was so numb but thats not a story or a tale to tell anyone lets focus on the good news now that the bad is out of the way, mostly, hey it's been a wild ride and i have some regrets but mostly those i cannot say, for today though i am hopeful, i send love to the four corners of the global village and it's inhabitants inhibited or un, everyone, one day maybe if im lucky i will meet someone, maybe someone new, or old, or young, or someone i knew before that i would treasure knowing now, maybe it wont happen and my life will still be Whoosh! Kaboosh! Kapoww! whatever its better than it ever was and im very grateful for this state of play and how!

nothing and

nothing and no-one to lose and in the past it was my decision to choose to be alone to have no trust and just myself to worry about but there's a whole world out there that feels like it needs to scream and shout and finally go about the tasks that are waiting for us to get creating solutions to our global problems and i'm just one bloke who no longer wants to choke and actually wants to join in get on work hard make friends maybe even have a special connection show affection realise that it might be in my best interest to be loving and grow and i know that what i say seems like it's been spoken before but im a little bit of a whore for the attention of something you dont even believe in necessarily airy fairy scary i try not to be but its going to take each and every one of you to learn the truth before a planet wide transformation can be taken for granted and made true so that's my choice to be one of those saying things that seem mad but it isn't a fad or a trend, some strength i need to lend so that I can highlight where i've been a terrible friend and get better each day, learn to pray and be thankful, give blessings, love, ignore the peer pressure to conform, wear a uniform, buy things i dont need just want, ruin the rest of the planet as it sits on the brink of the sixth great exstinction underway but hey let's go get a takeaway, sit in front of the t.v. that'll do for me, im ok jack, this place is whack and going to the dogs, im just a little frog with big eyes, seeing through the lies, to see more important things than living and dying, getting out there, trying, to do what's right, whether it makes me stand out, makes me see with a second sight, the truth of the world and see that come to fruition, thats my mission, thats why im here, no matter how much time ive wasted, how many times ive got things wrong, im singing a new song, letting go of my fear of trusting others, those who are sisters and brothers of other mothers i love you, let's get together, see what we can do, to make this world a better place and face up to the real reality that is just another aspect of what we think we do and see +

stupid is

stupid is as stupid does and there are a great number of those amongst us but most if not all just know that they would like to live in peace and ease and please dont think this is a rant just because my praise is scant and i say things like you fucking bastards all of you fatherless and motherless and rudderless without the faith that comes with experimentation with your connection to the true affection and love that comes from out of the heavens above and from the ground below as below and so above this aint some kind of shove in the right direction but if you could just see that intelligence is free just stop worrying that you know anything at all or going on about the fact that the sky is about to fall because it may or may not just decide to do that, terrorists, muslims, whoever you want to blame for our lame culture its all the same because it makes you feel less than you are cause you're no rising star and not famous or rich thats a son of a bitch like me thats free to say and do whatever it is i like and yes im a tyke a little rascal and from here i can see the kings and queens of the castle standing tall but the bigger they are, the surer and harder they fall because they must before the planet turns to dust and lust is just another way to say i want something i will take it rather than i need something i will give my time to create or make it or barter or work for it or give of myself so that i may get something in return, that the right way around to make the world go round and as this thingy comes to an end my friend i can say that the goddess, encompassing nature, the universe and beyond, is my muse and to amuse you more we talk daily about everything and everyone and some just maybe i could say mean more to me than i could pray to share with them +

loving you true is loving you even though we'll never be together we're never apart either neither fart ;)

surely Monica Belucci and Leah Seydoux are Bond WOMEN not girls?

When will this dinosaur grow up and get hitched to someone anyway?

These days whenever i think of something to ask someone i ask me.

I ask me first just in case i've already got the answer wasting time.

Trying not to see that i am asking myself the same thing today.

Why didn't I have three kids with different women say or play

around a bit more when all i ever did was look for love in the

wrong places or wrong people and hey it was fun to feel a

strength flowing through you of loving someone truly as

though they loved you and maybe they did but not in

the same way and so that energy is short lived and

turns to dismay as you set yourself up for and fall

over and over in love but not really in romantic

pedestal lust coveting someone not enough

seeing them as someone theyre just not

not even thinking or getting aroused by

them because theyre in your heart

not your head or pants because

its not real no connection so

no gypsy encampment set

up overnight otherwise

known as an inappro-

priate erection and

then finding after

one two and yes

three that this

old learning

curves is

fun when

love is

free

<3

writer

put into context, sorry for inability, praying for rain, hoping for time, to write again, to continue on, spitting it out, sending it out, typing it out, changing it to say what i mean not what it sounds like, making sure to offend where necessary, go on get angry at me, i deserve it probably, always shying away from the things that would make me the man i wished to be, marriage, mortgage, best man duties, not for me, surely, no, god no, goddess yes, help me find the courage to grow and learn, to do what my heart yearns for me to do, to help me out and then you, to heal to be a healer, to be an energy dealer, an arms dealer, hugging it out, sending it out, energising, realising between the two of us that this is magic, magical, amazing, going on without fazing in and out, raising my voice to a whisper maybe one day it'll be a shout, let it out, express, impressing upon myself the need to let go, to say goodbye to the past, to the things i wish had never made me who i am but i cannot wish for that anymore only that i can, that i will, that we may, work rest play see another day, wish it well, thank it for its chance to be another way yay +

anxious

all the anxiety in the world may be the knowledge of what is to come bleeding into today into now because we can feel it already here so i know that for me lately ive become calmer about the mysterious soon only because i can do nothing about it but choose my reaction to it as it unfolds and let the best version come into being by letting go of my need to imagine how it will be or trying work out what will i say when that conversation may never take place and today im in the space of a very great calm about the soon to be now because it's going to be great not worrying about fate but letting destiny say hello mate +

sppirit

the more ilearn the less iknow it seems and so it goes and flows and streams and then i thought to say something normal like oh what was it about now? some thing mundane and ordinary and nonmagical and how can i keep on going betwixt two worlds be there and here all at the same time well the truth is i was always a little or a lot over there when i ought to have been here doing things, not not trying and taking part more but my art was to smile constantly as though i was feeling comfortable but inside i was a bag of nerves, like all the time and so this cover became a cloak, my drawing or self introspection a self defence mechanism reeling from love at first sight. That faked confidence became real after pride came before a fall a few times or more and those lonely parts in a room full of friends just turned into a friend to everyone, everything, everywhere and aching with release and gaining bliss as a concretion disk gathered like moss over years of rolling down hills and climbing back up again or laying there in the valley of tears and waning and fading fast then at last gasp an eclipse an approaching millenium, that feeling inside when you were a kid, the energy between your hands, the life the massage you gave the skills you imagined and thrilled to discover to become yours if you earn them and learn them through play and lay the foundation for today and yay this thingy is coming to an end and i can send myself off into a dreamless ish sleep until the morning to meditate and enervate and energise and sigilise myself as an image of the body inside and out the one that throbs and hums softly and hovers, no doubt youve seen it and called it a ghost but we're all spirits, just the ones who can eat drink and be merry for now winter is coming, Winter is coming, WINTER IS COMING! sorry John Snow for a mo there, um yeah it's going to be a harsh one from the middle of november ish so batten down the hatches and get ready for some sledging and shizzle peace +

nom om nom

there's a beating intelligent heartbeat in the heart of my gut brain explains the fainting and the feinting away from serious play and hard work no grounding from that deepest of deeply felt earth shattering drum beats in the deep of the belly rumbling grumbling feed me the right energy let go of the old style hard solid food baby crying dying taking in new life boom boom shaking feeling the vibe of the room swooning crooning again singing dancing flying around laughing till the muscles at the back of the head say hey its been too long since you cried till you laughed and laughed till you cried and held your stomach and said spread a little happiness as you go by please try we sigh and hear a little lie on the air to be fair we all do that to ourselves first and then pass it off as the truth struth forsooth my tooth my tooth i think i broke my tooth the future is now the past is gone shone a light on on on on on on on on anon om om om om om nom nom nom brekkie +

5 star All Fall Down All Get Up

potential energy between two distant objects is greater than those close together
or in other words my dearest ones absence makes the heart grow fonder +++++

Holding out my hands out ;)

Allow myself to introduce myself

Hold your hands out.  Palms facing me as though you were doing jazz hands, only hold em still and pay attention to the centre of your palms and to the tops of your fingers ant then wait for a little while see.

For me it's only growing stronger, pulsing out from my heart into my hands, reaching my extremities and then starting back for home again, feeding back to my heart where it began, as the result of two streams of energy having met there, engaged, become entwined like strands of dna and carried on their way, down from the sky and up from the earth, through us all as though we are written like a vertical line in a living poem. 

We're the energy that moves, everything else stays still, holographic reality check.  So I'm doing it now, awwing at the energy, seeing the energy, feeling the energy, sensing the energy, sending the energy off.  All around me and filling me up, feeling calm although my mind is screaming bloody murder, ego consta-moaning trying to put me off, my game, my train, of thought, off the right track.  See it filling my entire being from the inside out, from the outside in, see it, feel it, sense it, energy coming in through the navel and out through the heart, a binary system giving us two pulmonary pumps, one in, one out, surrounding a void inbetween them, a singularity, a black hole of infinite possibility, a space, into which anything could come into existence in this old reality.  So why not me?  Ask yourself that question. Every question you ask someone, ask you first.

Ozorian Moon

a kid was unconcious under that tree, on the lighting platform used in some of the gigs, the stewards / security were getting someone to take him away as there had already been a death, although i suspect heat exhaustion which is slightly understandable, anyway this kid was struggling with his trip, to come around again, so i did energy work with him, at the base of the mighty trance tree, and slowly, as i mimed to his friend, wait one minute, stop trying to rouse him awake, stop shaking him from his sleep, let me, so i did and he did wake up almost naturally at the slightly gentler behest of his friend and so i kissed my finger tips and blessed the sky before blowing it to him and wandering by that was the magic of ozora to be a medicine man for forty thousand people and how, raise the energy of the dance floor, see a guy in a wheelchair, someone on crutches, an ankle in bandages that was a guy dancing within an hour and healed to dare to try to climb the hill his friends were camped on, it went on and got crazier than that and the gifts kept coming back i was loved for what i did when i stood alone and was not generally approached, as if in polite reverence of my role, as that sane looking guy doing crazy looking things, what are you seeing? one of them said... its not that, its what im feeling, was my reply, i pictured the entire festy in my third eye, as id seen it from the sky, in a little plane, circling, gazing idly by, so i died a little there, the me that would have been scared at all to do my job, work my arse off, leave others in our little family and go and do what is required,, go where im needed, where im guided to go, it was easy and felt so right that i could understand how come i met the female healer on the last night, the fourth such person that ive accidentally on purpose run into as my destiny unfolds, but yeah, and yay, and yah way it was a hoot, a full moon extravaganza from the night we left to the day we returned, hungary was beautiful and humbling and their hospitality out of this world and into the next and coming from a place of such open heartedness, such real love, such a people, thanks it was fun and stuff, i danced my ass off too, and got broken and fixed, and opened my heart up and got it shattered into enough pieces to send energy to everyone there in the glittering ozorian sun

now its all coming back to me

i make mistakes so you dont have to
that's why i share places ive been to
spaces ive explored people seen to
be so much more than they knew
at first they were only just a few
now more than ever who do
who are living the dream
literally becoming lucid
in this one and awake
in the other states of
reality called eternal
life and thats why
it's all coming
back to us
now ;)
<3
+

2nd bit of chat

2nd excerpt from "conversations with goddess". So this was written today, but if you are reading this tomorrow, I wrote it yesterday. That time stuff is a funny thing. Seems to have a mind of its own. Some times are fast, some times are slow, some times are hard times, some good, some party times for the living or the dead, old times, new times, cider o'clock, time for a cigarette, or a brew. A long time can feel no time at all when we're not marking it, when we're focussed on what we're doing, lost in it, lost in time, falling through space, showing every one in the world a different face. The many faced goddess has so much variety, I see the men, the women, the young and the elderly. So many individual souls, no doubt intimately connected, the lucky sods, to one another, through love, empathy which is love, patience which is love, honesty which is love, charity which is love, to give to one is to give to all... Ask Kevin Bacon he knows there are only a few degrees of separation between us and right now it feels like it's boiling over.
It seems more chaotic, but it's just more of the same, and more of the original idea too. More healers and lovers of all sorts, those who love to make art, music, ceramics, clothes. Jewellery in particular, where naturally beautiful materials are used to fuse the earth and divine inspiration, tie those two up in celtic knots made of handwoven string, handmade means so much more than any other thing, that was once the thought that counts. Afterall it is, the thought that counts... Check em out. See what you think and challenge that, see who thinks those thoughts, see what they really are about everything, everyone, be the one you, who, says, "ok guys and girls, I'm in charge now, it's my bad if i do something now but ya know what? It's my good too, every little thing I do, it's in the details, the goddess is you know. I fancy feeling good, like all of the time, so I'm going to take the credit for my wins and losses, i'm getting rid of the horrible bosses within and without. Doing good things make me feel gooder than anything else does that i do so that's what i'm going to do for all the me's and at least every single one of you, that i meet, that i greet, that i know.
Nice ideas turned into nice things i can make or do for people. And by association the world, hey kev? We can make a difference, no matter how small, we have to try. keep on doing what we're doing, not get tempted to lower our selves to any one elses level. Let others reach rock bottom as we did only to find that it's the beginning of the most rewarding mountain to climb in this place! Too get there, to see the view, from your one and only face... Love love love love

kundalini tahini hawaii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

kundalini awakening part one two and three well that's my asshole er root chakra well and truly torn a new one and my crown tingles occasionally and so from the ground up i expect my heart to open even more and feel more connected and true so i can say that this is old and this is new and just and beautiful

old today

the mystics of old and the mystics today represent a true heritage not the lies of history, not the murder of our people all over the world in the name of civilisation. Civilisation, are we really civilised? Are we connected? Are we compassionate? As people, as nations, the world, is it a compassionate place to live for most? Why not? Because the money men and women have us in slavery to currency. Because we all have to accept their greed or the world would never be the same? We don't want it to be, we NEED it to change, drastically. You all need to accept the bitter truth that we've poisoned the world and ourselves with it and we are at fault for this. I have seen how mesmerising the television is since i gave it up so long ago, like so many things as they leave me, finding them unecessary for true happiness, true health and the wealth of knowing i have friends, am loved, feel love all around me, everywhere but in the hearts and minds of us humans

want you to know, I'm a rainbow too

i have no idea if your gay, lesbian or straight possibly because that is of no interest to me, it makes no difference how different you feel because of others reactions to who you really are, i treat people as i find them and am doing my best to leave ignorance and judgement and gossip behind and when i see two people together, well they're together to me, whatever that means really. I wonder with such a huge deficit in my skills socially whether i will ever understand your relationships enough to have one of my own again, in the meantime i'm just happy that you're happy and hopeful of the changes in my own life continuing. I'm grateful to anyone willing to befriend me as it takes a long time for me to see you in that role but only because i struggle not to be too open if that's possible and too closed at the same time, i don't know if you like me more than friends because to me that's the only thing there is, friendships that go beyond short term alliances, connections that span lifetimes, loving each other as friends do for now, forever +

bring me your wounded healers

sorry but i seek out pain and shame and all those energies you and i would rather

not talk about but have felt and dealt with in one way or another,they're an 

emotional clarity that was leaving me and you when we forgot who...

WE ARE! So be your own rising star and setting moon and,

remember that there is no spoon and jump for joy, girl,

boy because this life is only getting better and

better although im highlighting every bad

habit, every fail of mine and shining

a vicious loving flame of truth

into all the darkest little

places, losing the

second faces

to be as

one

+

all i said was that i thought one of those overnight gypsy villages was an innapropriate erection

I just walked home with a few pints onboard and a smoke too, wending my way merrily, actually slightly terrified, high anxiety, slightly nervous, then calm again as i check my breath and it's slow and steady again, making my way a little longer than i ought to have done by moving unsteadily across the road surface as it really gets dark. Someone's coming, I hear the strange sound of a vehicle being driven erratically, I get the feeling I should dart into the side, into this gateway that I know is there, hide for a second or two and then carry on towards home. Entering the woods, I've left the semi safe openess of the lane through fields and now I'm on the bad surfaced section where my feet have to be careful where they go, moving down the hill, into the bottom, where the beeches are old and have giant snakes wrapped around them towards the top of the trunks. Etchings in the back face of initials f.m. 4 p.d. god save the duke. I can't see a fucking thing in this bitter darkness, the overwhelming fear that was beginning at the start of the journey, when i saw a shadow behind me and looked round under the streetlights to see nothing and no-one, I'm only taking into this situation what i have on me, no car, no weapons, but my wits and my tendency to relax in a crisis, or freeze up.
But that was then and this is now and i worked on that panic reaction, where I would realise my stomach was out and not doing anything, then breathe in and go aha, so that's breathing, so self concious was i, of eating in public, of speaking in public, of being in public, cities made me ill the first time i went there, bristol and leaflets, I'm a country boy and this sort of thing is unreasonable and toxic and get me out of here, and then I'm back in the woods, but on the road, i keep on veering to the right and symbolically that means i still have a big bias towards the left brain, controlling the right side, i need to look left and right if im going to cross the crossroads safely every time, stop, look and fucking listen boy, the goddess said and so I did, every time she nagged me, erm reminded me lovingly i ought to say, I did so, I changed every bad habit, as much as a woman should have no designs to make something of a man beyond loving friendship so that you both do whatever it was that you were meant to do in this world, whether that's to be together or not, forever or just this moment, this day, what's that about? Make it count, make it feel like it's gonna last forever by seeing how many moments there are when you stop adding them up and start counting them down, how much longer have you left to do something with your life? Do it, whatever it is! Do iT!
SO I did it, i held my hands out, as though in a gesture of christ, i almost hate to say it, but that's what it looks like and i'm no j.b.h. i'm not him, he's me, or at least his energy, and it's yours, and it's theirs, and everyones really, not just me. So I walked on, hands held out, if someone wants to hurt me they can, the shamanic nature of this spiritual encounter is real, this is a spirit walk, a time to see how much is spirit, everything, yes, we know that, but i get to see the spirit of the road, my eyesight becoming slightly better, as though green screen on a night vision scope, some definition at least to the darkness, and i welcome the spirits around me, and use the mantra love, love, love, love, love, love, love, love, building a walk of love around me, in love bricks, section by section, in groups of eight, not infinity which is equal when drawn, an eight tends to have a smaller top half, then more and more seemingly swarm around me, realising i've blown the tension by interjecting at the wrong moment, my old curse is going, maybe but then i walk on still, seeing the indistinct shapes of hundreds of ghostly outlines, slipping back and forth around the extent of my vision but i know there's loads of them behind me too, they're everywhere and i am sending them love, that is it, whatever you bring me, it's love from me or nowt. You know that it's time to go to the love, be with the love that never dies. Go now.
SO I figured I should do it, keep my promises, the totally secret ones, not the ones i made when I was a kid that i broke, with the help of a shaman, who took someone in a terrible state and made it worse for a while, of course, much, much, much worse, but only because the final outcome, given freedom of will, would be this, I've met three shamans now, three healers, three wise people. Now I'm the wise one, the good one, the trying to,no, doing things differently one, the one who actually believes in heaven and hell and it's here and it's there, and it's every fucking where, and everything and we're it. holy shit, indeed mother goddess, holy shit, holy shizzle, give my love to brizzle and everyfink thanks heart emoticon + smile emoticon This is an excerpt from the book im writing called 'conversations with goddess'
if you're interested in this idea, liked this bit please let me know as i am going to publish and am looking for an editor, someone to help me get a good deal, not amazon / kindle, somewhere that grows by word of mouth not advertising and by allowing me to have printed copies to give away as i really think it's a gift to ask someone to read your shit, it's a challenge to put it out there, but it's only practise. So that's it really, thanks for listening all these years, you all rock

oh you can just go to heaven!

when i was alive before i was born i chose this suicide mission knowing the odds were stacked against me that i would realise who i was and what i was supposed to be doing before the whole thing was over, only this time it's forever because it's on its way out of favour, there is too much energy looking for reparation or redemption so in this hellish and heavenly place more like a holiday resort than a prison reform school as it ought to be thought of, so if we remember we can change things

doctor who?

take a seat or lay down whatever is most comfortable for you, so what is troubling you at the moment? So what if you could remember what you felt like before this, then feel how it would be to feel like that again in the future, from tomorrow even, let's go for gold, feeling golden together in that moment we are and then you take that feeling into your new tomorrow, it could be the best day you've had in years and then you see what the next day is like, given that any could be your last one, it makes sense to see how the next and the next play out, who knows but you?

but mother how could you forsake me?

only you can forsake goddess or god
it doesnt work the other way around
the divine is awaiting your call to
apologise and begin again
so make that call ask
and you shall
receive
love
+ 

dont make me stay cos im never far away

i love love
you are love
lovely so i love
you if that's love
you can take love
keep giving it away

goodbyeee

i want to say goodbye or really rather cheerio as im off to ozora and hungary for two weeks to visit with friends and their families and go up  in a tiny plane to do some acrobatics and shit my pants but in the meantime or rather the lovetime personally i've been coming into my own lately, ive used things to get places and some of those places are connected to other places that i want to go and see and using certain substances has helped me to break through the internal barriers, the opinions i learned from others, the choices i saw others making and taking and im free to be me finally, free to face my fears, look forward at the years ahead with relish and ketchup, catchup to where i ought to have been a long long time ago if only i had just done what my instincts told me to do in the past, ya know ive been living as a vegetarian and lately as a vegan or at least trying to anyways its hard, for every food or drink choice to have something to learn about it, dislike about it really makes your day revolve around shitting and pissing in a good way though, sooooo on to hungary, on to healing for free, or donations, on to working to be free, living in a new old way, loving every person, loving every day, rhyming less and less and feeling so much like the son of goddess that it doesnt hurt, my body is less painful, my energy is better, i smile often for good reason and  sleep better but shorter rising with the sun unless im exhausted by all my missions, listening more, listening more, loving people more, being more open, even more, being less selfish and giving more, giving everything away, all the time as though i wont need it, others will, so i pass it on and more comes back, more love ,more time, i have lots of time because ive dropped most of my tmewasting habits and that time seems to go quickly but contain a lot more ctivities and enjoyment so what can i say?  but i love you every day, thankyou so much, thankyou world, folks and stuff :) <3 +

maverick

if we were playing shamanic poker right now i would see your pain and raise you up

womanifestation and manifestation in the nation

was thrilled to hear professor David Nutt suggest there is a difference between the brain and the mind, given the neurons (brain cells) in the gut and the heart, well then what is the difference? All of you is your mind not just your brain and the imaging studies carried out on lsd and mushrooms show that they switch off, not turn on areas of the brain, they literally switch off the gatekeepers that keep us from connecting to more areas of ourselves and in turn more areas of conciousness which is what our mind is, our brain is just grey mush that sits between us and god, and that feeling when you're a kid of not seeing your parents as your parents? That's because your godparents are the goddess and the god, yes you have two sets of parents, the earthly ones and the ones from the source of all creations, yes folks, father sky and mother earth, the sun and the moon, i swoon to hear such things as the psychedelic society of bristol being created as we become free to leave this hellish reality and rise up into our heritage, the world of the spiritual, the world of true reality, the heavenly realms, the garden, eden, the garden of need, where all our needs are met, manifestation in the nation of love

heritage

the energy that is your heritage, your destiny, is hidden and masked by what you thought you see, is pain but is in reality a doubt, a fear, a level of uncertainty, that is dispelled when you clear away those enemies

destiny

it doesn't matter to me, because i am not matter and neither are thee, it's all just flowing energy, i'm merely a conduit, a can-do-it, someone with enough imagination to break free, of supposed limitations to our destiny

unity

my soul, my higher self said i am you and you are me, it's taken you so long to see, that there is a higher reality, another world and then another and another going on almost to infinity, reaching a point called perfect unity

two streams

two message that were hard to accept at first were that this is a giant energy recycling centre and that almost everything you love is a distraction from your mission which is self realisation, literally finding out who you are and why you are here, so ask then

heaven can come later

there's more to this world than just living and dying,
some aren't saying, some don't know, some are lying.
Today they all say that you only live once, so why not?
The truth is we might only be us once, that's not all of it.
Life goes on beyond what we think of as the end, there's
and intelligence at work that can be our enemy or a friend
some call it god, some goddess, in fact it's both and neither
that's getting closer to the truth which we will all find out later

song of ages

if you had been in hell all of your life would you recognise or trust or take the hand that reached out to you with love, could you see what lies above and not below, would you, could you, should you ever let all your sorrow go? Please do
We all have our crosses to bare i have so many it almost seems untrue but they are there, they mark my skin, they run deep, they're in my blood but they don't mean I can't, i won't, i haven't got a chance in hell of making good on all my promise and so on i go, listening intently, setting my intentions, rattling cages, singing the song of ages, making myself look silly, dancing like it's going out of fashion as though no-one is watching even though i know that every thing is staring and caring, every thing is alive, animals are people too, and people are animals that's why it's wrong to eat animals because it's a kind of carnivorous canibalism that's my opinion i know but when you start to see all life as your brother and sister what's one less murder worth to ya? Start to take the hand that guides and holds you close and dear

cancer scare

i may offend a few people but the truth hurts and all those wishing for a cure for cancer or fundraising for charities who pay their staff most of the money need to understand that cancer is a possibility, one that has become more and more likely, it's gone from 1 in 50 to 1 in 3 because of the environment we live in, the stress we live with, the food and drink we eat and sup so it's up to us, to live differently, not to let the chance of something become the certainty of it, that's how it sounds when they say things like, 1 in 3 of us will get cancer at some point in our lives... +
the genetic switches within us, our own predisposition is there but they are only switched on when we are unable to heal ourselves because we never get enough sleep, because we're hooked on and watching screens until late, desperate to see someone elses dramas, fictional or real unfold instead of facing our own, sorry and all that, by all means shoot the messenger here i can take it, can you though?

the existence of goodness

you cant disprove the existence of a great goodness, a goddess, a god, who has so many faces, that they are everywhere, in nature, on animals, on us because you are unwilling to prove it to yourself, or you deny or disbelieve your own experiences because they would culturally seem like madness, after all it's the first sign to talk to yourself, have a word with yourself! See what happens when you do, i love you

forgive and forget

if you want to forget you've got to forgive...
trust me whatever it is you thought about
whatever it is you did or had done to you
if you open yourself up to it all and learn
you can be forgiven you can forgive too
and soon your life will open up for you
so trust in yourself in me in whatever
you like to think is out there it so is
it's a state of bliss awaiting yours
awaiting your releasing of pain
loving you whether you like it
or not it's all the same to it
don't be afraid of it either
make the most of it too
send love out and it
will return to you
i love you life
i love you
love you
i love
you
+

nature aint mute and im listening

someone said nature is mute, someone else said nature is not mute, we just stopped listening, well im listening and nature is talking, right at me, to me, into me, like over the years i've spoken to fire, it said without words though that i ought to find it's rhythm and i did, it's constant, fast and then slow, slow, slow to the beat of the drum, to the seat of the fire, higher, higher, higher, and fire said ok thatll do + im lit are you? ;) these days are hazy less lazy and crazy but who wants to be sane, inane, boring and plain? not me thats for darned sure thankyou life i love you +

if you can keep your head but let it go

Don't blink. Don't even blink. Don't even think. Don't let that part of you have the first or final say, not tomorrow but especially today. Get out there, do what's morally right fuck the awfully unlawful way of seeing the world cos they're wrong and you've got the vision and the foresight to see what's best for you so don't blink, don't even blink, don't think just do whatever it is you feel like doing and then... well afterwards you can recriminate, ruminate and generally vegetate but you'll have lived +++ and what's more you'll be a woman or a man my daughter / son / everyone

loving you is easy cos you're beautiful

my relationship to the divine began in a similar way to how it is today, there was forgiveness and love, there was rhyming words, there was a literal male and female deity to talk to, to connect with and though they are not a man and a woman that is how i saw them at the time, since then a connection to nature makes so much more sense, i rise with the sun, i give thanks for each new day, i eat wild food and my instincts literally tell me what's good and what to try a little of, knowing what is poisonous helps so that i feel safe to do so, my confidence is sky high, my fear is enough to make me cautious but not to hold me back or be scared of taking risks, i've become the man i always wanted to be, my heart skips a beat when i think of the possibility of love as i am being loved, i am driven to go and do the things that would have left me terrified before, like a spoken word event, or going wherever the spirit moves me to go, i do what feels good and right and i can tell you it's the greatest feeling ever so i give thanks to the friends i've made, to the people who showed me the way and today i give love to everyone and everything as i move forward on an amazing ride, holding on for dear life but letting go at the same time of pain as i heal myself, they've taught me so much and are willing to accept me for who i am, strive to make me a better person every day, have my back and give me the support i need to make the changes i wish to make, they've given me the opportunity to have a relationship based on pure honesty, and prepared me for the scariest one of all, that of loving someone else aswell as me and i couldn't be happier with the bliss i am starting to feel

not all who henge are lost

so i arrived at stonehenge slightly nervous because of all the people, i could feel their nerves and my own, i could feel the anticipation and i could also feel myself getting closer to someone, to myself, always hearing the words, come and find me, so i walked around the stones and i heard a woman say "take off your shoes and socks, you'll thank me" or something like that and so i did, tying my laces and slinging my boots around my neck, wearing my red and black uniform of tantra, wandering around and it occurred to me i ought to do a lap, which became eight laps, walking around and around the stones, closer and closer then further and further away, setting and sending out my intention for everyone to have a lovely and safe time and as i walked i felt the earth beneath my feet, i sent a magical love out from me to everyone there and from there to the planet, i did my medicine walk and i loved myself, my friends, the world, the universe, the multiverse, everything that was, is and will be and when i was finished the thought kept coming to me, come and find me, i have lush food, i want to share a joint with you so i kept walking, following the flow, finding people out of it to send energy healing to, wandering but not lost and when i was done i did it some more, wandering

white light

close your eyes, see yourself as the outline of your body, only this one is not your physical body, see the outline clear and white, see the inside as an empty space, see a pure brilliant white light shining down on you, raining down on you, soaking your energy body, coating the outline with unconditional love, watch as it soaks into you and then starts to fill you up, let it fill your feet, they become white too, getting more and more of this energy, let it rise up and bring all other stuff to the surface like the skin on a rice pudding, see it fill you up from the soles of your feet, to the toes to the tip of your head, keep doing this every night, to let it build and rise, and see what happens +++++ let it shoot out from the crown of your head finally

prescribed

so as a natural healer, someone who massages away pain after first finding it, or who uses energy to do the same thing in a much simpler way, my prescription for you is to take off your shoes and socks and get your feet on the ground every day for at least thirty minutes, in the morning, midday and afternoon if you can, stop eating factory farmed and processed food, learn about wild food, meditate, which is easier than you think, it's about finding the space between thoughts and letting that grow into a space for you to be not think, get some sun for goodness sake, it's out there shining down on you, let your true self emerge when you do these things and the one who worries and fusses and fights go, be the lover of your self, be the one you have been waiting for, oh and make some raw chocolate for breakfast

they called for me

ive been called out, they knocked on my door, but to be honest i was knocking my whole life, asking questions like "why are we here?" looking for answers and so they came, in little and big ways, because of the things i've done, because like anyone i wished to know what this place is, who we are, what i can do to answer those questions and the truth is, eat well, sleep well, get exercise, meet amazing people, stop doing the wrong things and then i was given the gift of healing, learnt more about massage because it was something i had always done, so everyone, you too can learn the answers to the greatest questions, just ask them and wait

i love me and you lots and lots for us to do you and me me and you

all i need is what ive already got
a love for the cold and the hot
for winter and summer too
so to start i love you +

use the force

there is energy all around us, inside us, coming from everywhere, from every moment that was, is or will be and so that is what i imagine coming through me, focussed on whoever has asked to receive it, you don't even have to believe it for it to work its magic and when i do my work i like to see it going everywhere that it is needed, sometimes i visualise the world and everyone in and on it, my words often rhyme like a sonnet, more like a magic spell, a love poem, for all of us to learn and grow and leave our pain behind, this is what you find when you pretend that it is real, that it is waiting for you to pickup like a cosmic delivery, a lovely present for all of us to see, because it's got our name on it but we never knew it was waiting for us until someone said here i love you just because you're you not because you love me, unconditionally + Free Energy Healing is the way forward wherever it comes from maybe it's how you feel when you dance, or sing, when you flow in whatever you are doing, cooking, laughing, or just being with the people you love

i need a weirdo im holding out for a weirdo till the end of the night

so things ive learnt since being around lots and lots of people which is new for me, constantly anyway, as i usually spend time with lots of people fairly rarely and then go back to being a loner in the countryside to recover and well most people are weird there's only a few so called normal folks around and even they are just pretending to be normal, you know wearing smart clothes, looking business like like, putting on a mask, not wearing their heart on their sleeves, there are so many in pain, struggling along, limping or putting on a brave face that it makes me wish them all so much love, in fact i say to them under my breath, all of them, i love you +

back home

i took a short cut
down the middle
of the long road
all the way home
only to find there
all my lost family
all my lost friends
and finally myself

strong light

we have been here so long
that we're used to what's wrong
and forgotten all that is right
because it's hidden in plain sight
hardened to keep us safe not strong
needing to go deep inside to find the light

Some Different Perspectives On Dance pasted from the internet

Someone posted this to describe why we dance, why we are shamanic, why we are spiritual people dancing and finding our rythym only to find rhythm of the universe
This is why i go where i go, why i do what i do, what it's done to me and much more
" To The Spirit belongs the Dancer "
In addition, dance is a doorway to the soul or `spirit within', and to dance oneself into a state of trance is to connect completely to the healing powers of spirit. It is from these `shamanic' perspectives that some approach The Trance Dance Experience.
Electronic music is modern shamanism; it is the evolution of ritualized drum circles. The music is a key that digital shamans utilize to move, inspire, teach, and heal others
Dance is an art that goes back to the beginning of all people. Across cultures and times, dance has fulfilled a basic human need for creative self expression. Whether you are a professional dancer or a passionate social dancer, dance is likely to have a special place and meaning in your life. Dancing gives us a unique opportunity to tap into our most powerful emotions, to express creativity, and to feel truly alive.
So basically, a psychedelic trance party, is kind of a modern day shamanic ritual that is being held in order to communicate the values of spirituality and oneness in the language of today’s youth. The music is a tool for higher consciousness through which we can commune with the Spirit. Our spirit world reminds us of love, compassion, respect and peace and that is the very essence of psychedelic trance music. It is up to us to keep this Vibe high and protect its purity.
The central idea of psytrance is the union between our collective tribal past and the promise of an enlightened and conscientious technological future. Merging the rational with the romantic, psychedelic trance bridges the gap between different eras of human history. People have been coming together to dance and celebrate since the dawn of time; the psychedelic trance movement simply renews this ancient ritual for the 21st century. While the music can be enjoyed as high-tech ear candy, many adherents consider psychedelic trance to be a way of life—a fundamental element of their identity.
When thought and experience happen simultaneously, consciousness transforms.
Trance Dance is the perfect catalyst.'
As we journey through our own consciousness, we are able to release fixed ideas and open to inspiration. As we step out of the routine and pressures of our daily lives, we give our soul a chance to speak; often revealing life-changing insights. By surrendering to the dance, we allow our bodies the freedom to express unconditionally – without concern for ­­­the judgements or opinions of others. In trusting our own inner journey, we allow our spirit to lead us and to guide us through the deeper places of our psyche, bringing us to a depth of self awareness and understanding.
Dance is clearly one of the earliest forms of worship, as dance and ritual strengthens the ­­immune system of the Earth. we inherently know the joy that comes from moving our bodies and the release that comes. Movement connects us with the rhythm of the universe through breath and the core elements that make up who we are and why we are here (body and soul). Basic movements are the starting point of personal expression as the inner dance is transformed into our life experience. It is a process where we access a deeper wisdom and discover inner dimensions of ourselves. Dancing and movement gets us back in touch with our essence in a very simple, tangible way. It is through which we can attain calm, peace, spiritual upliftment, self-confidence and greater physical energy for ourselves and others. The people we dance and move with become our family and our community, people we can be our true selves around. In this safe accepting, non-judgmental environment we can express
Is psychedelic trance, a ‘tool’ for higher states of consciousness, comparable to other forms such as yoga and deep meditation? How do you look at it in this aspect? Gil: Well, I think that we lived in India so long and did so many practices that we started to see in another way…. We became so Tantric that we even made partying a valid spiritual path…. Although it really is nothing new, as every tribal group since the beginning of time has practiced this ancient ritual in order to go into Trance and commune with the Spirit. We have only redefined it for this age. OM Shri Guru Dattatraya Namah !!! With so many negative roll models all around… on the TV, in the movies, newspapers and magazines… everything glorifying Babylon… we needed to come to the world and speak to the youth in their own language… so that there can be a direct Transmission and another Vision and Vibration be known. Through the Trance Dance Experience hopefully people will become more aware of themselves, their surroundings, the crossroads of humanity, and the needs of the planet…. With that awareness comes understanding and compassion!!! That is the need of the hour and the true Goa Spirit.goa gill
A number of theories have been advanced to explain the importance of percussion in ritual music in general. One line of explanation is psychoacoustic, whereby the tempo of the drum enables the Shaman to enter the desired brain wave state, which corresponds to the number of beats per second of the drum.Did you catch that? “The tempo of the drum enables the Shaman to enter the desired brain wave state....)possess your selfs with the music,,,, this was some diffrent perspectives on the trance dance experience vir cut and paste..nice nice

sub concious super concious

so i woke up with you and me baby aint nothing but mammals in my head and i often know things without knowing how i know, like calling someone baby is a perjorative term but i don't know what perjorative means, my subconcious knows but what of the opposite of that? The superconcious, the bit of us that comes from who knows where, like intuition coming in, inspiration, coming in, where does that come from?  From our super concious, that would be a good way to describe flying high, doing what you're told, by you, the real you, if your subconcious is like a submarine, under the surface, then the super marine spitfire flew high and far and wide and was an awesome bit of kit, try to listen to it, your super self, your higher me, connect to the best of us and let us be who we really are inside and out

doctor who

you've given away your power, 9 times out of 10 you go to your gp so that they can confirm what you already know or suspect, because you don't trust yourself or even if you do, they are the ones who can give you what you want which is medicine, or healing, given that we don't use plant medicines anywhere near as much as we used to, or could, common plantain for instance, grows everywhere, is a great wound dressing and works on so many levels, there are two varieties, the fat one and the thin one, rats tail is the fat oval one, ribwort the thin long one, yeah i know makes no sense to me, but that's scientific rationalism for you, anywhooo im just a natural doc who knows there's answers we are ignoring in our nature, in nature + by the way, it's best lightly cooked like spinach and looks like nothing else try it it's always best to learn from someone who knows but once you know what will kill you or is toxic, virtually everything else can be taste tested to see if it's good +

boom shakalaka shakyamuni

sooooo diddly, didmartians (where i live) and out to all of you, yes im coming from a place that is hard to believe and if i start tallking about the matrix, as a real concept it might turn a few off, or turn heads, but basically einstein said that we are energy, information, and that can never be destroyed, only turned into something else, and, diddly doo, anything wrong with you is just an error in the code, a mistake in the blueprint that brings you into existence and infinite number of times a second, sooo, basically if the energy all around us, inside us, outside this universe was sent to you each one, and to all, the whole world... It rights those wrongs, if you believe it can, you can be healed, completely, having to let go of whatever created the error in the first place, whether that's a mistaken belief, or what you call a genetic disease, if you believe you can be healed or in most cases if you've completely given up hope and are open to anything, the energy of every thing, can help you out. I have been able to send it to invididuals for a while but also my mind is free to send it to the world, to towns, wherever it needs to go, that sounds like a big i am, or nonsense but it's true so there. Personally i spent my whole life with an open mind, and a sceptical one too about all of the stuff hippies have been going on about, and eastern and western, southern and northern traditions also, they speak of things like real magic, real miracles, real healing, and all you have to do is eat right, sleep right, exercise, and close your eyes from time to time and leave this world, by letting it slip away from your concious awareness only for the answer to all your ills to come to you, right there and then. It works! Now I can say that and you can believe it or believe it not, and i really don't want to make comparisons to that fella from two thousand years ago, or even my own personal favourite shakyamuni bhudda, prince siddharta, the guy with his eyes slightly open and a wry smile, in case someone tried to sneak up on him while he was meditating, BUTTTTT, and it's a big but, we are all capable of being our own saviour, we are all capable of creating a better world for ourselves and those we love, and in fact for everyone and everything, all the prophesies coming true, in some way, shape, or (ahem spiritual joke here) FORM! hehe wink emoticon we are merely a form, existing in space, and time, travelling at the speed of light, within a framework which appears to be a three dimensional reality, and whilst this all comes to me i have to write it down, i get nervous around women so there! I'm not gay but i don't mind them either, i prefer the company of men since i am less likely to get my heart broken because i don't want to be with them in that way, so hey ho here we go another stream of conciousness, that is what i am, moving through the air as though it was water, feeling energy around me as i swim eternally smile emoticon heart emoticon + all i had to do was accept my faults and my share of the pain in this world, to be open to certain experiences, do the ground work and the sky work too, have a fucking awful trip that turned out to be my saving grace and you don't need to go that far, or suffer like i did, but trust me i deserved to, and i've paid my dues, i'm still paying for some, like everyone but hey that's life folks

didmartians

sooooo diddly, didmartians (where i live) and out to all of you, yes im coming from a place that is hard to believe and if i start tallking about the matrix, as a real concept it might turn a few off, or turn heads, but basically einstein said that we are energy, information, and that can never be destroyed, only turned into something else, and, diddly doo, anything wrong with you is just an error in the code, a mistake in the blueprint that brings you into existence and infinite number of times a second, sooo, basically if the energy all around us, inside us, outside this universe was sent to you each one, and to all, the whole world, by the time it rights those wrongs, if you believe it can, you can be healed, completely, having to let go of whatever created the error in the first place, whether that's a mistaken belief, or what you call a genetic disease, if you believe you can be healed or in most cases if you've completely given up hope and are open to anything, anything can help you out.  Personally i spent my whole life with an open mind, and a sceptical one too about all of the stuff hippies have been going on about, and eastern and western, southern and northern traditions also, they speak of things like real magic, real miracles, real healing, and all you have to do is eat right, sleep right, exercise, and close your eyes from time to time and leave this world, by letting it slip away from your concious awareness only for the answer to all your ills to come to you, right there and then.  It works!  Now I can say that and you can believe it or believe it not, and i really don't want to make comparisons to that fella from two thousand years ago, or even my own personal favourite shakyamuni bhudda, prince siddharta, the guy with his eyes slightly open and a wry smile, in case someone tried to sneak up on him while he was meditating, BUTTTTT, and it's a big but, we are all capable of being our own saviour, we are all capable of creating a better world for ourselves and those we love, and in fact for everyone and everything, all the prophesies coming true, in some way, shape, or (ahem spiritual joke here) FORM! hehe ;) we are merely a form, existing in space, and time, travelling at the speed of light, within a framework which appears to be a three dimensional reality, and whilst this all comes to me i have to write it down, i get nervous around women so there! I'm not gay but i don't mind them either, i prefer the company of men since i am less likely to get my heart broken because i don't want to be with them in that way, so hey ho here we go another stream of conciousness, that is what i am, moving through the air as though it was water, feeling energy around me as a swim eternally :) <3 +

hi ho hi ho it's off to twerk i go

from a spiritual perspective it's kinda rude to check someone out when they're not able to give you permission, as in a smile, or checking you out back, sooooo i've been working in a job where for the first few weeks i spent most of my time erm following pretty girls around supermarkets, making sure they weren't up to no good oops so maybe i'm having to accept that there's a sexual being in here with the spiritual animal, that there is a time and place for people watching of a certain kind oh who am i kidding, beauty is intoxicating but remember that even if they can't conciously feel yours eyes all over them, they can feel it underneath all the mental chatter, we are spiritual, energy beings with feelings that go far beyond what most would consider as the reality of experience, how's my ass looking in my security guard uniform? i don't know im just stood here twerking all day yay