My Gggg g g gg gg gg generation

People try to put us down

Talking about my generation... hehe I'm 38 now and I'll be forty by next December 11 2012.
If um nothing's happened by then in terms of upload into hyperspace or lottery win (Let's be realistic here ED ;-)

Ok maybe I'd be in a relationship. Or have been in one for twenty years as some have.

So have I suffered more because I've been single when I'd say there's less stresses involved
(but doesn't that just mean that our own ones become magnified to take up the space?)
Or would I have wilted, aged considerably and not be told often I look up to ten years younger.
(my friends were mostly a few if not several years younger than me because I was immature ;)

Actually for the record these ramblings are offending my typing fingers. I get on with all ages and all people except for the odd awkward sod that can get my back up but otherwise all gud

Or aren't we just like lab animals, zoo animals. The majority kept in nothing like the wide open spaces and habitats that they could range at home and naturally live a harder happier life and die young.

I won't do the death is a part of life nonsense, but it is so there (your eyes went there so you can't blame me for reading that).

We don't live in places or in a way that suits us as a species. We need a sustainable challenge because every problem solver knows, once you've completed the puzzle, what do you do now?

We've tried to fix the puzzle without even knowing what the consequences would be of our moves made and no care as to the solution. Which Is Revolution.

What we wear, how it's made
What we eat, Where it's grown
What we consume as in rubbish

Huh I must be on a ..... hangover to be ranting like this.... but when something occurs you don't say nah not writing that. Where do all the best songs come from, the best poetry, theatre, books....

Somebody else's tortured soul or twisted mind and that makes us think that we're different.

Everyone's got at least one book in them or so they say... I despise 'they'.

But it's as usual a quick fix, a generalisation cos we like soundbites folks. The truth is everyone has a story to tell, whether through the mediums above or the first medium.

Body Language / The Rhythm Of Dance

One an expression connected to a movement whether subtle or outrageous and the
other the expression of whatever hopefully that the music makes you feel like doing

It's tough to get to the place where you can be yourself without giving a shit, completely I mean.

When the atmosphere is there in droves and the likelihood is that anyone you talk to is a sound person, it's not something you think about. A girl is emailing me some photos, I talked to a dozen or so people for five minutes or longer and two or threee for twenty minutes, plus the couple I hung out with in the queue for the CLOAKROOM! Never seen them before, probably never will again, the guy with the angel wings, the artists from Planet Shroom and Toadstool united in one shitty little corner that sucked but my heart artist got a neck and shoulder rub like I promised. I used to think there was no value in anything that had no purpose. No obvious value, but that's where trust comes in. I trust that I'm doing all the right things and open and honest with myself about my limitations and giving them a stretch. Dancing doesnt go anywhere it's not a race with a finish. It starts it may never stop...

Your goal is the transcendence of your fears
Or in other words get over it ;)
Light & Love
Jon
x

That's life thats what all the people say...

it's nothing to be embarrassed about.

Once we're ok with ourselves and our bodies it's ok to be complimented on them as they are just the thing we get about in after all not really us, just our spirits' vessel for travel in this world... ;)

It's a very powerful thing to be so comfortable in your own skin but more than that it's freeing

Once you are, the good comments are accepted and welcomed because we know they're true and the bad ones ignored because we don't care unless they're true and we know the truth about us that no-one else does

You're a very very special person

I'd say very rare, we're talking unique

after all there's only one you and one me

so lets be the best we can and have fun with it

My boss was worried about the work drying up
and giving me plenty of notice they really are
the best place I've worked so far despite the
boredom occasionally but it's paying my way
until I can live more sustainably and freely
finding alternate forms of income so that I
no longer have to enter that old world of
arguments and problems and people
just out for themselves and yes I've
found that the more I believe and
try, the more things just keep on
coming true for me like dreams,
things I only feared would not
ever happen to me and much
love all around now that I'm
looking for it everywhere
in everyone that I see
I told him I said that
If the work dries up
I'll just take a few
weeks off hehe
You gotta Roll
with It this
Life eh? :)

Light &
Love
Jon
x

Fings I Fought - What's Coming Up? - High Vis Rev - More Than Meets The Eye

Fings I Were Finking...

you say anger but I hear afraid
fear leads to anger, make him watch all six star wars films and he'll enjoy them and get the same message

when we're scared we get angry fearful panic don't think act out lash out

make a decision quickly and it's easier to make but harder to live with
make a decision slowly and you won't spend your life regretting it all ;)

Act in haste, repent at leisure

It's an oldie but a goody

instincts work whether calm or stressed

but high emotion clouds our judgement

we must not just hear whilst waiting for our turn to speak we must listen...
then we know what the person is actually saying behind their words
we can read them like a book, feel their emotions because it is they that drive the behaviour
EVERY TIME!
we our emotional wrecks that need to be restored to our birthright
Serenity

To Get One's Comeuppance - What's Coming Up?
More accurately described as a colloquial phrase, it means "your deserved reward or just due" for an action taken or statement you have made. It always conveys that to be of a negative nature. It should be hyphenated as neither word, of it's own definition, conveys close to the meaning of the combination of the two; therefore the linkage of the hyphen is needed.

Hi Vis Rev
I've got several high visibility items of clothing, no not from raving ;) but having collected them up and seen how many random people wear the stuff out and about these days I started to wonder if there couldn't be a High Vis Revolution. High Vis clothing would be so photogenic if everyone gathered wearing it in Trafalgar or Parliament Square. Like a uniform for the masses, identifying everyone other than the Riot Police...

I've got a few spares ;)

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There's More To You Than Meets The Eye

Think about it...


Serenity

Light & Love
Jonny Walker
xoxoxoxoxox

Short & Sweet Like Me - Bonfire of the Vanities - Sooooooooooooooooo - "Luke I have felt your presents...."

Ok so it's gonna be short and sweet today. My muse is operating at full efficiency and within established parameters ;) but it's just not happening inside my own head at the moment. I put that down to being ill, the fact that inspiration often comes in fits and starts and that I haven't been doing much beyond dreading work and painfully trying to cough and breath at the same time and other things that have been difficult this week. However I have this underlying feeling that I've never been happier and that is keeping me going. I seriously have never felt better being me and I've put that almost all down to Jennifer's influence on me. So thankyou Jennifer but also Anna, Grzegorz, Nathan, Sally (and all your friends) and everyone else in my life who makes me smile because they're wonderful people.

If your name is not down, it's not because 'you're not coming in' it's because I don't see why you should get a big head just because you make my life a joy to live.

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Bonfire Of The Vanities

I stopped being vain when I shaved my head. The first time I think it may have been because I was skint and so it was an almost free alternative. When I had hair, and lots of it, I can honestly say that I spent too much time looking in reflective surfaces to see how it was doing. But none of that was ever because I was worried how I looked for my own benefit. It was only ever a desire to fit in, feel comfortable in my own skin and make sure I didn't look like I'd been dragged through a hedge backwards.

For the record, I always drag myself through a hedge forwards...

At school I suffered from all sorts of anxiety issues. Shyness problems to do with eye contact that when it becomes a concious process is very worrying. I've learnt a few techniques to lessen the stress involved but it's probably quite weird if I'm really close to someone to have me trying to look at the area between their eyes hehe. I used to become concious of my breathing, and it almost felt like if I didn't make it happen, ok in now out, now in again, that I would just expire.

I didn't like eating in front of other people, wouldn't use the phone at home (or at work until it became clear I would have to so I did) . I seem to have slowly come to terms with all of these things or worked out ways to get on with my life without them causing me too many problems. Although to be fair I don't like talking on the phone still and avoid it if I can, I'm ok at it but I don't like the way the rhythm of a conversation isn't dependent on visual signals like a face to face convo. Some have become distant memories, some crop up daily. When I have to do something, even if I dread it or hate the idea of it, I'm usually pretty good at whatever IT is.

I think this may be the reason why Mrs Vacher (a customer when I was a gardener) told my employer at the time that "Jon works like a Trojan, but he does tend to stare sometimes when I'm talking to him"... That's because I often find conversing with words dull and inconvenient ;)

Rest In Peace Mrs V. I really miss mowing your lawns and tending your borders...

Sorry maybe it's just me but gardening often makes me think of all sorts of completely inappropriate double entendres, especially when we're currently talking bout a dead pensioner. I have a sometimes filthy and incredibly vivid imagination so whatcha gonna do? Use it......

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Soooooooooooooooooooooo

Onwards and Upwards

Met an old mate who works in the place I'm currently Agencying at, in fact most of the staff are from Tetbury (despite the fact that we're in Stonehouse at the new Offices). Matty Seals Mum works there, Danny Dyer's Mum and Aunty, it's all very incestuous.

I think he may be a bad influence cos we're talking bout going to Moles in a fortnight and I haven't been out in Bath since Andross (Andy B) met his lovely girlfriend Lucy in Town.

The weather is awesome, I have money in the bank (for now) and I'm off to enjoy myself

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How Did Darth Vader Know what young Skywalker was getting for Christmas?
"Luke I have felt your presents...."

I have developed a skill, I suppose it's a skill anyway as it's not an unskilled thing to do.

I can place my attention, some might say conciousness in any part of my body. Internally I can say left big toe and I'll feel a response as my attention moves there, right hip, check. It's quite a strange feeling but the more you try the easier it gets. I suppose it started when feeling pain in a certain spot and your focus is drawn there.

"Meditation is simply about attention... where you direct it, and how it alters your consciousness"

It all seems very simple when described like that, just a shame I'm too indisciplined

I'm looking for quick fixes like everyone else, it's just that I had to be single for seventeen years to find the ones that worked long term lol, to allow me to feel like I used to, to be good enough for someone else, to feel good enough in myself that I think I deserve anyone else's love, to search for someone else to care about. Plus it helps if you actually ask a girl out before you become too close and they just see you as a buddy. So lessons learnt in the last three to four years? Don't be such a cowardly little dick all your life...

Light &
Love
Jon
x

I Bet That You Look Good On The Dancefloor - Aretha in the Morning

Could we have a world where things are judged on merit?

The right person for the job no matter how old, what race, creed or colour or sex or sexual orientation or philosophy... Not who is deemed 'best' for the position. Best in whose opinion?

In fact it isn't even about what is judged to be the correct way of doing things that matters at all.

We often use the phrase 'I used my common sense'.

I prefer to say that I did what I knew was right

Instincts don't make sense because we're not

Privy to the whole shebang, just see our bit

Hear lots of talk never seeing much action

Focus on Love, compassion and empathy

Patience, Tolerance, all the good stuff ;)

They'll see you through the on the way

Just as they do for the here right now

Aretha in the Morning

Rumer was on 'Something for the Weekend' on bbc2. Looking really uncomfortable. I guess it was one of her first t.v. appearances, perhaps she gets nervous like many people that you think are something they are not just because we see them on a pop video, t.v. program or film. Lots more people are shy than you would think. In real life or situations where they're out of their comfort zone, like on a sunday cooking show... But it looked to me like a herd of media training bods had swooped down upon Rumer and given her all sorts of tips and tricks and things to remember like the awful time when someone told Gordon Brown to smile more. BE YOURSELF! Cripes...

If people don't like you then, at least you know why. Trying to be something you're not or behave in a certain way, I'm a bit of a social chameleon myself but only because I'm secretly harbouring a desire to be an actor when I also harbour a morbid fear of getting up in front of people and speaking. Presentations at work in the old computer bod days soon sorted that out. All you need to know is the subject you are supposed to be talking about, focus on that and you've no problems, talking about what you know takes over, you are doing that not thinking about what everyone else is making of your technique. That's why they say write about what you know, because frankly if you think you can bullshit for an entire novel and get away with it, you only have to imagine what it would be like to be a retired actor now scraping a living by going to conventions and arguing with nerds (nerd and proud) over who said what to who in an episode of some ancient sci-fi show or some plot device that doesn't make sense twenty years later. They say that the Devil is in the detail but if that's the case then 'the Gods' there too.

As an accomplished bullshitter of many years tutelage from the best mentors one could wish for, I know what it's like to get away with saying something that you are not entirely sure of but meaning it at the time.

Doing things, bullshitting your life, surfing the exciting crest of that wave just waiting to crash.

It sucks but it's fun so why wouldn't you just do that forever...

Because when you do fall you can see that where you fell from really wasn't that high,
where you really are now and where you might like to get back to on your own merit.

Light &
Love
Jon
x

Say It With Flowers

I read a shocking story in the papers the other day, no not the ones about violence, suicide or murder as I skip on as soon as I see something that might contaminate the waters of the ocean of my conciousness or in other words that stuff is just plain depressing.

Quote:- Just one in ten Brits has written a love letter by hand, a study found.
Most of those who do pen romantic notes are over 50. (Ahem but not all... Ed.)
Two thirds of people think a text is the best way to say "I love you".
The poll of 3,000 adults for movie giant (deleted for the purposes of not advertising them)
also found romantic gestures are dying out. Seventy percent of blokes admitted they had never bought their girl flowers.

70%! Boys, Lads, MEN! What are you thinking!

For crying out loud, for goodness sake...

Buy flowers sometimes please

Not to say sorry you idiot

Cos 'Sorry flowers' suck

Just every now & then

It means more when

it's just because

I Love You

Light &
Love
Jon
x

Bluebells have long been symbolic of humility and gratitude. They are associated with constancy, gratitude and everlasting love. Bluebells are also closely linked to the realm of fairies and are sometimes referred to as "fairy thimbles." To call fairies to a convention, the bluebells would be rung. (No surprise there, some might say I've always been away with the fairies ;)

Ancient Roots of Flower Symbolism

Flower symbolism began with many ancient religions. Many flowers were originally linked to ancient deities including Venus, Diana, Jupiter and Apollo. During the Renaissance, nature was viewed as a reflection of the divine. Flower symbolism was included in much of the religious art of the day and medieval gardens were often created with both the symbolic meaning of flowers and spiritual symbolism in mind. (See article on Mary Gardens.) Flower symbols were used in the religious art of the Middle Ages and Renaissance, and reached the highest level of development in the Victorian era.

The Victorian Language of Flowers

Although the legendary associations and religious meanings of flower symbolism have existed for centuries, the use of the symbolic meaning of flowers to represent emotions was developed to a high degree during Victorian times. Due to the strict protocol of the times, emotions, wishes and thoughts were not openly expressed between men and women. Instead, an elaborate language based on flower symbolism was developed. Gifts of either single flowers or bouquets conveyed clear messages to the recipient.

During the Victorian era, flowers adorned nearly everything--hair, clothing, jewelry, home decor, china plates, stationary, wallpaper, furniture and more. Even the scents of flowers had their own meanings in the language of flowers. For example, a scented handkerchief might be given in place of actual flowers.

With the increasing complexity of flower symbolism, handbooks were written to guide the understanding of the symbolic meaning of flowers. The first book written on flower symbolism in modern times was Le Language des Fleurs by Madame Charlotte de la Tour in 1819. The most popular book on flower symbolism, which remains a prominent resource today, is Kate Greenaway's Language of Flowers (1884). See recommended books below.

Modern Symbolism of Flowers

Flowers are still used today to convey feelings in a more general way than in Victorian times. Many florists provide information on the language of flowers to encourage the practice of helping modern gift-givers to "say it with flowers." The flower symbolism for many flowers has been obscured by time and may remain only as a few key phrases or words. Flowers have been given as gifts for special occasions and to celebrate holidays throughout history. (Visit FloristOne to see flowers for all occasions.)

The beauty and feminine quality of flowers also inspired the tradition of naming girls after flower names. This tradition has existed in many cultures throughout history and continues today. Popular girls' names related to flowers include Rose, Daisy, Lily, Holly, Violet, Heather, Fern, Jasmine, Myrtle, and Lavender.

P.S. Oh and why wouldn't you want to write them a little note when it means that you can put down in words all the things that you might not be able to say any other way?