Jus be cause an effect is love

ok so im an optimist also fun da mentally
a realist and so i aim for the stars knowing
if i get into orbit i'll be happy with that
im a lazy perfectionist yes so
i go for perfection very trying
not to get hung up on the
tiniest failing of my own
and then, i take what
i'm given with thanks
given i give so much
it's all i should
expect or not.
Jus be cause
an effect
is love
x

Asimov

THE MULE Less is known of "The Mule" than of any character of comparable signifigance to Galactic history. His real name is unknown; his early life mere conjecture. Even the period of his greatest renown is known to us chiefly through the eyes of his antagonists and, principally, through those of a young bride (Bayta Darell)...

-Encyclopedia Galactica

The Mule was a powerful mentalic mutant, warlord, and conqueror who posed the greatest threat to the Seldon Plan. His acute telepathic ability to modify the emotions of human beings derailed one of the basic assumptions of Hari Seldon's psychohistory - that, in general, the responses of human populations to given stimuli will remain the same.

i'm paraphrasing, any negative aspect of popular culture i take to
be just as valid as a positive thing, good witches white magic
we hear less about them because they are even more prone
to secrecy given that dark magix, shadowmancy and occult
are merely the forebear of the evolving move towards
well niceness and loveliness.. afterall forged in fire
at the beginning we wouldnt expect any less
than a final reckoning amongst a flame
of some kind to see us pheonix
like arise resplendent or
if we dont rejoin
nature come
back again
and again
and again
and again
again
jon
x

denigration of anyone is wrong... build em up don know em dahn...
oh no ive just remembered lock stock and knock him out dont touch im up
um er point please? oh yeah, making highly sensitive people shut up shop
meant that those of us who unlike one of my heroes terence mckenna
who openly admitted he wasn't 'a sensitive' and needed, wanted to
do drugs to experience all that our conciousness provides freely
to us when we experiment with it, by seeing how substances
effect the way we think and feel about the world around us
and everyone in it... I don't need drugs never have done
except to coat or cover or avoid anxiety about the fact
that i feel different to you, all the time, i did but you
made me feel bad for being myself, told me i was
wrong to dream and create and risk failure...
to succeed by trying again and again...
to cope with mistakes by not making
them again and again by learning
from everything and everyone
and knowing when to take
it in and when to give it
out...
x

basically every part of me was around at the start of this, every part will be around at the end of whatever it is... I've been alive and dead and somewhere inbetween for all eternity as a portion of different plants and animals and minerals and been aspects of the lives and times of everything that was will be or is right now...

so my gift to you is the fact that i dont channel, i dont trance

im a conduit only, having let the universe into my head

and developed my own voice not anothers' writing

i can heal with words, deeds, massage, energy

hands on or off, chatting laughing, informal

it's up to you now, i built it, it fell down

i put it back up again it blew away

i keep on making space for you

to fill with your old habits

and new ones and work

together to see them

all together in you

and you become

alltogether too

listen speak

consulting

you heal
you i just
let you think
it was me at all
when all i did was
let you understand how
easy it is, if you believe in me
i can click my fingers and it's done
in the real world it may take some time
you may have to change your attitude to you
to the world around us and to what it means to say
i believe in anything and everything with a sceptical eye<3 span="">

kay sera sera - change i can believe in - yes we can, we did it already and will again ;) x

if you can change your thinking, stay aware, present, notice and change negative thoughts to positive ones, breath in and out calmly to keep yourself and your mood calm so you can feel what to do and only think when times require it, if you can do these things consistently, maybe visualise good energy coming in with your breath and bad out, white golden light, dark stormy clouds ;)

if you can do these things over and over and be a goody goody, then you'll have a plan my son or daughter, brother or sister...  You will align yourself to a destiny from on high, down below and more importantly the middle of the road, the third way, be a bhudda buddy, whatever you wish to follow will lead you where you wanna go...

think again. try again. believe
change your attitude to the world
the world changes it's attitude to you
change your attitude to yourself
and you will never be the same
no you will be much betterer
much love and kindness
to those who insist
on projecting
their bullshit
my way and
keeping me
here for the
throusand years
it might take to transform
this world into what it will be
kay sera sera whatever
will be will be
the future's
are ours
you see
kay sera
sera
x

truth telling as i see it

alrighty then! time for some more truth telling AGAIN!
two years ago at waveform festy i ate some hash
cake and then a 2c something given to me
no-one said dont do them together
and i spent the next 8 hours
dripping with sweat and
naked occasionally
psychotically looping through a series of events from our pasts
our presents and all of our futures... being god from the start
to the end of time. Quite a responsibility for someone whose
done their best to avoid it as much as possible until recently
I was told it would take up to three years to recover whilst
knowing i was on a rollercoaster growing up finally after
a lifetime of misery and pain being different feeling like
a fraud a fake a freak and a pain in the asshole to all
to be told i needed professional help from someone
who obviously does need counselling is the worst
i could have heard today... You all think your
safe as the houses you live in but it's all a
sham, a shame and frankly disgusting.

I sought help when i needed it, dr's
who saw me and offered me courses
in anger management, anxiety, stress
didn't care, they wanted me out o' there
as soon as possible no not another one???

this year i had a return to a positive process
my true friends got in touch and in truth it was
the women in my life who saved me, some just
by being there for me, or listening, some like two
i can remember their names, ************** and
********** but i wont tag them im sure they won't
mind anyway. I needed to be alone with my pain and
to revisit my youthful indiscretions, which i did although
it was a hellish existence last year and painful emotionally
this one, to have to face the fantasies of the female psyche
the dreams of a princess in shining armour to come to rescue
a me now bereft of all ties and hurting those close by involving
them in a process that should happen to each and every one of us

WHEN WE'RE GROWING UP! Not at the age of fucking forty x
you're juvenile delinquents who never faced being truly alone in your
whole lives until you have to, avoiding pain as much as you can instead
of facing it head on and learning from it, receiving signals, the messages
pain can bring to teach you where you stand, in your own life and others...

So yes i have suffered at my own hands, had to relive my worst mistakes
had to forgive myself and others and grow up and move on
but i wudn't change a thing, i regret no thing
not losing a friend who thinks she's safe
not losing another who i really liked
or yet another i havent lost
but don't know how
to find again...
im just
loving
love
x
thanks go to those who deserve it
derision to those who also failed
to see the truth and still do
just keep on thinking
theve got the plot
not lost it like
everyone
else who
never
knew it in the first place
I do, i'm connected
to everything
everyone
loving
love
x

imp portents

im an ugly little imp ish character who now knows the power of love ♥
so it dont matter no more what you said to me
how you made me feel back then
how you destroyed me
my confidence
my self
given
what
for
x
for given what? everything and everyone ♥

the tyrannical rexes saurus coming...

the tyrannical rexes saurus coming...
the kings and queens and king
makers behind them all
knew we would rise
up and kick them
out so they are
trying t' create
issues to keep
us busy, fear
distrust
hate
no!
x
cos it aint
working
n'more
love
is
x

forward to love with nature - to sum mub

ok so here in the most easy to understand, it's how i got there, terms i can use...
Nature is returning to her own rythyms and we are returning there with her
The autumn is an actual season again, the winter is going to be harsh
We all are returning to the fold, whether we 'like' it or not so there
In the shamanic world we live in, there are three worlds YES!
The world tree of life, is an upper, a lower and a third way
We fell from the middle realm where dreams are made
to the lower world where teachers teach lessons
So now as a species rejoining mother nature
we will find ourselves rejoining ourselves
finding who we really are and learning
how to magically solve all the issues
the worlds problems become ours
again and about time too x
Enter at your own risk
of eternal love
loving her
him, it
love
Jon
x

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 the reason they used to say that a ducks quack had no echo (only for it to be proven wrong) and doctors are often called quacks (no offence after this meant and certainly not intended, but fuck it, get offended see if YOU care)

yeah it's cos they echo what your worst fears are, confirming or denying the truth
that you know inside, if you even know your body, if you are in it
seeking the extent of your extremeties, new place mats
new hats for you to wear or just one, YOURS
You! being whoever you need to be
in the moment, not accepting
a diagnosis murder or a
death by your own
hand cos you
favoured their opinion over yours?
taking second best, not primary
source information, gaining
nothing but worries
confirmed or
unknown
so let
it go
see
me
x
I can only tell you the truth, as it stands and nothing butt
your feelings are all that are important, how you feel
inside, outside, wherever you are in spirit now
work on placing your conciousness, your
energy into your extremes, the toes
the fingers, thumbs, tongues n
teeths, place your thoughts
inside and tell other how
you feel dont rant or
rave, go rave safe
though please x
i didnt i tried
not to life
choose.
Then I
tried
sum
<3>

being made an example of

is being made an example of
what can be achieved
when you believe
in yourself and
others. Not
what you
were
told
x
it's in my nature and nature
is in me, ooh that sounds
a little wrong but it's
so true that I can
demonstrate
quite easily
just listen
watch
learn
see
do
x

neverending story

from the neverending void comes the neverending story x
you all inspire me to the greatest heights i never believed as
truly possible, only a few years ago when I was seriously
worried for my sanity and again last year quite often
i had a pint in my hand and I thought to myself
I should smash it and glass whoever... but
that was a psychic memory, a foible,
a falsehood, a daft imagination
a mental aberration from
an argument a long
time ago about...
dolphins Are
mammals as
alive as
we?
x
Yes everything is alive as we
all is energy, spirit, living
all is love and hate
and the other
one called
peace
love
jon
x

i love you

healers make the worst patience!
i'm a coward for me and yet
courageous for you
now need to be
my own hero
to love
you
x

used to be a one woman man, but i wasnt ever actually with her at the time or ever really, cos i wasnt a man, good enough or anything...

now i've got a dozen ok half a dozen ok, a couple i really like
and i havent even kissed any of them but its really nice

jsut to be see and feel, ok not literally yet but hey
its all good, can we hold hands cos we're
friends i'd realy like that if you want
to take mine
it's free
love
jon
x

j.o.b. 3,1,4... job 3.14recurring ;) easy as pie oops lol lal lal laughing a little LAL laughing a lot

I GOT THE JOb one day a week starting next week! x
and i've got offers coming in for healing work soon
worked on a horse earlier to desensitise him
and heal digestive discomfort and fore
leg pain and a general distrust
of men if not all humans
hmm whose beaten
this poor animal?
i hope i dont
find out
love
jon
x

Off for an interview for a days work a week at a manor whoop!
i always get the job if i want it, keeping it is another thing
when i get bored i move on if you bore me, or disabuse
*&%*& *&% £& £"(&*"$ "*($* "&%"*&&*%"arse
bring me problems and i'll show you solutions!
treat me like an idiot an i'll prove you are one
love me like it's going out of fashion cos I do
love you i mean not me, ok a little bit now
now that i am living life to the fullestish
loving every day, every instant, nom
nom nom om om om om om om
OMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
love
jon
x

knowing without knowing how or why i am knowing what it is that i was knowing then that i dont know now...

still making the same mistakes
only lesser ones i hope
extremes sightly,
not so much,
'energieses'
r' back t'
magic's
back
too
x

i knew what was going on, i saw the bells esmerelda and the whistles whoever the rest of you are...

I understood everything, everyone, what we are, were, will be, it was nature, time, space

hands up if you don't believe in mind over matter taken to the degree of magic?

you've just proved my point for me thankyou, put your hand down now...

your mind made you decide to raise your hand after it had already
made it's way up there cos your mind was moving faster
than you give it credit for, liek afighter pilot it knows
whats its next already and my ass is weta little
from the prospect of th3e plums nay
prunes i have consumed i think
i may pass verily nigh a lot
of stuffs that i have
overeaten to
comfort
my self
since
few
a
few
since
my self
comfort
to overeaten
have i that stuffsof
lot a nigh verily pass may i
think i consumed have a i prunes
nay plums th3e of prospect the from
little weta is ass my and already next its whats
knows itpilot afighter liek, for credit it give you than
faster moving was mind your cos there up way it's made
already had it after hand your raise to decide you made mind your

mirroring everything cos this is a world upside up down side down and inside everywhere, it's your imagination recapture it please
that is all-ish, for now
thankyou
jon
x

flippin everything seems to be a lesson, i know ive got to go it not alone having been so inside for pretty much ever though i'm finding my comfort zone was tiny and my courage huge, that's out of whack mack daddy oh, so yes um but you lot, everyone else hasn't spent enough time with your own thoughts. I would ask you to LISTEN TO YOURSELF, literally hear what you say, how you say it, and to who it affects, how it affects them, watch their face at the instant of your gratification at expressing yourself truthfully, honestly, openly...

Nuance, micro expression, feeling......

For me i'm so sensitive i appear insensitive to cope sometimes
ignorance is a very strong weapon for me to ignore you
when you are being less than you really are,
for me as much as you really do inside,
for you, not taking what's in your
Heart and giving it to the World
Instead you outwardly jump
on the old bandwagon
cynically following
the crowd, the
herd where
it's been
lead to
now
x
The slaughter... it looks like everyone (jar jar binks... "You say everybody gonna die?")
is going to drop off this mortal coil downwards into hell and destruction
but actually the positive hope in our hearts that we must share,
creates the world so differently from how we feared,
it's never as bad as it seems unless it is...
That way it won't mean we all die
just some like has always been
a natural means of creating
a happy medium btwixt
all or nothing, those
imposters victory
and defeat who
lie when we
feel great
without
them
jon
x
It's all good whatever you believe will occur although those miracles, that we need so many of every instant from here to eternity???

They're so here, we are them, love you

so it's just me again... only more so and less so and... err yay! :)

Hey so the last eight weeks man!

er hard to say when it began or ended although now I would defo say i am just me again.

with a few extra bits and bobs and so much more energy and then just normal again.

you know, good days, bad days, good moments, bad moments...

feeling as though i had touched heaven and been there
nowhere near as low as i had been for years though.

just a holiday away from who i am from day to day

and now i'm back, ready and willing and able

to start afresh again with a new perspective

the perspective, mine for once, my life

living it, creating it from scratch

loving it in every way

even the bad times

slightly ;) and the
good ones?
well let's
see
x

Working at a Home

So I'm moving out.  At last! Yes it took me until the last few years to even realise  that I needed my own space and to further my own goals now that I actually believe they are possible and now even probable.

I'm planting up a willow treatment room today, making the post holes, sharpening the end of the willow shoots, all the last years growth, many over ten feet tall, worked into a circular shape with a bulge at either end for an entrance and storage areas.  It's my own design that will grow and create shelter, structure, life.

A living breathing sacred space for healing purposes and for me to live in this winter, as the caravan gets very cold, being a small thin metal box, the aluminium corrodes in the most beautiful ways, causing lumps that look like puffy clouds to protrude on the inside of the walls making raised areas obvious, taking glitter well though.

So the exterior structure planted using living willow will grow, the branches will spread and shoot next spring, adding bamboo because it too grows quickly and fully, the new shoots will spring from the tubours i plant around the base of the ring of willow.  The two biggest shoots over two inches in diameter will represent the hardest challenge in terms of sinking them in deep enough, the great thing with willow is, once they are all temporarily tied together with baler twine, after they root they become stronger and stronger in their foundation.  Literally rooting themselves in to the local ecosystem and becoming part of something.

Once it's taken, by the end of the autumn and the start of the really cold weather I'm going to be so thankful that I placed within the willow sphere, the two reclining lazy boy leather armchairs, that in full recline seem to make a pretty passable almost double bed, pulled apart two excellent armchairs or slouching vessels and so many other thing inbetween, given how easily I can move them around and rearrange the interior.

My stove will take pride of place directly in the centre, such a little beauty, not too big not too small and so pretty on the outside too, burnished and polished, metal like mother of pearl shimmering, the painted exterior looking like kiln fired pottery and the flu attachment awaiting something suitable to take her emissions to the roof and out to disperse at night like so much more wood ash collated in this area over time with the leaf litter.

ok best to get out there and make more than a start and this a reality that will grow and create
a space in time
a place for
love to
heal
x