It's So Delicious

(a ha ha) And while the DJ's bursting grooves. I've been making all the moves. To taste your kisses. You know honey. We're going to a function yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Temptation is everywhere, in every walk of life and every aspect of them and you could be cheating mentally as in thinking about someone you shouldn't in a way you oughtn't. Or emotionally by having an exciting new friendship with someone but downplaying their importance if you can. Or physically but what is cheating anyway?

At School they'd say about cheating that "You're only cheating yourself".

The bastards were right about that probably the only thing they were right about but give them their due, cheating yourself of everything that you needed to go after what you thought you wanted.

It's all too easy, the world is totally fucked and fucked up and fubarred (look it up f.u.b.a.r.)

There's so many more ways and vantage points to see the greener grass from, only to find like often happens that when you get there, it's got muddy patches too over there but it's mostly green like your starting point...

Who says it has to be cheating anyway?

Surely if you love unconditionally, true love, you can share that love with whoever is worthy of it without regressive retroactive wrangling over who did what with who?

I'm a one woman man. At a time anyway ;) But who is to say that in the right circumstances it isn't possible for more than two people to be intimate with one another and spread a little love a lot further around? The only thing keeping this from happening are the boundaries we put up between us and our inhibitions which for someone like me have protected and saved me from more than it's done me out of in terms of experiences that I could look back on with nothing but loving pride.

Until now because when you let them go your inhibitions turn into hibitions allowing you to express yourself to the diametrically opposed extent to that which you had always done in the past within those boundaries...

Stereotypes
Dogma
Labels

It's all got to go because we're all unique in our own way.

Whichever way you look at it.

You're either here once so you better enjoy it, safely hehe
Or you're here again but still the only YOU there'll ever be

Love &
Light
Jon
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gut acheing heart

I found there was a hole in my life that no person could fill, a hole inside me,

a spiritual spot within me that I'd moved away from when I was younger.
Now nature fills that spot again, not a person so I am complete
But without company and true friendship we're nothing
just complete individuals but not a collective
if you have that place you need to find it
and explore what it means to be you
beyond what you are told
lead by what you feel
in your heart
and gut
Jon
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Yearning For Strength - Ooh I touch myself yeah I want you to touch me

I was always scared to shine too brightly
cos I didn't feel worthy of people's praise
and yes I shied away from testing myself
cos I felt like I'd always fail and be shown
up as the fraud I am, cos I dont deserve it
the compliments, the applause, they must
know that Im not a good person cos I don't
feel like one all of the time, i beat myself up
for something I've done then feel bad when
I feel good about something good that I did
cos it taints everything with a stink of failure
I have to be this hard on myself and stay away
from things and people that make me stray from
who I want to be, how i want to act, what I would like
my likes keep appearing as if by magic now that I know
that I am good, that I forgive myself for what I did or didnt do
I want to be myself and those that don't believe it, try to hold me back
because they cant or wont change and still cling on to the good
that I believe in that i know is in them but buried so deep
its only when they're forced to show it, that its ever there anymore
they disappoint me, hurt me and ignore me when it suits them
so I left and never looked back until now
and everything looks good
everyone in the light
of my new mindseye
where miracles happen
and my dreams come true
when I think of all the worries
all the times I thought I'd never
ever be able to be me and enjoy it
and not fall down all the time again

but it's here
I feel it
Love
Jon
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Lovingly Unconditionally Gratefully

Every New Child Knows Right from Wrong

we all know right from wrong instinctively

the little voice inside the one that comes when we are about to sleep
or the very loud one that shouts at you for being a dick and berates us

The loud one is the voice of teachers and people in power over us who hurt us or told us we weren't worth anything

The Quiet One is the voice of ourselves, it says we are doing something right or wrong not what we've learnt

but instinctively

we know

but we do the bad thing because it's ingrained
we're addicted and need to listen to the quiet voice but we drown it out with t.v. or sex or the booze to make it horny and uncontrolled

all too tempting in todays society to ignore the inner child who just wanted to be loved but hurts
all too tempting to go against what we know deep down is the right thing to do
but when you start, listening instead of shouting, it hurts but helps.
something grows, a confidence not based on what others say
a feeling inside of pride that is not egotistical or arrogant
that you ARE worth it and as you learn to do it more
it becomes a new habit a new addiction to do good
to let that voice shout out now like the angry one
I am Good, I am Love, I deserve to be Happy!
Just as annoying as the bad voice but easier
by so far to live with, a friend and confident
Our true self, the spark of the divine within
A Golden Nugget of creation in gods image
The way forward and out of our problems
The feeling we had when we were just kids
Of Fun and Joy unbounded in everything
In Everything We Do when loving all equally
I hope this brings U much love and happiness
All my unconditonal Love You amaze me when I
thought I wouldn't hear from U again many times
When I pushed U to do the right thing and U did so
Keep on doing the right thing My Friend and soon

You'll feel like you again
Light &
Love
Jon
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Resistance To Overwhelming Odds - Astonishment is Denial Masquerading as Surprise

I remember my dreams, it gets easier the more you try, just before you fall asleep, keep telling yourself, I will remember my dreams over and over and write them down when you wake, I have a dream diary to put them in. Re-reading them even just a few days later and they've been completely forgotten consciously, although that too becomes like a less and less blurry dividing line between your waking state and the subconscious. Read them back a year later and you are overwhelmed by something else.

Astonishment is denial masquerading as surprise....

Deny astonishment and accept that magical transformational events happen when you do.

I often have a really troubling dream where I am on the run with a small band of allies, although it is often just me, I don't feel alone. We try to hold out, evade or otherwise avoid becoming overwhelmed in the struggle to resist the threat of a larger group, which seems to be everyone else in the world or an alien force.

I recently had the same dream again, it often comes to me, is usually very powerful and used to leave me sweating and waking in a fearful state although lately less so, less fear less sweating ;)

There was an actor in it, I recognised him as someone who was always on t.v. in the seventies and eighties, can't find out who he is, but was always gruff, authoritarian, either a crime lord or high up in the Police Force or Army, I baulked when I saw him and almost laughed. I looked at him and sort of sneered as if to say Pleaseeeeeee? I didn't think he would be a problem and just carried on ignoring any challenge he might bring, then my attitude changed when around the corner came Shaun Connery in his Dr. No era James Bond prime.

And I promptly ran off to a place of sanctuary with a few others.... So I guess some obstacles are finally being overcome, leaving more challenging ones left to resolve or face ;)

The strange thing is that these dreams can often be prophetic, about anticipated events.

When I awoke I then had an intuition that the overwhelming odds may represent, everyone who ever lived coming back from the dead.

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Dream diagnosis information on the net...

Feeling helpless in the face of overwhelming odds. Nobody likes a pushy person, but perhaps the
dream symbol is telling you to be more assertive in your dealings with others; it is no use depending on their goodwill. (I have gradually learnt that, to my cost, people don't just give you what you need, you have to force them to the sticking post if you want to make any progress.)

Adlerian dreams

As opposed to Freudian and Jungian dreams, Adlerian dreams are orientated towards power, or
the sense of striving after power – or equally, towards an awareness of weakness and the absence of power. Alfred Adler (1870-1937) was a colleague of Freud, and it was he who introduced the concept of the inferiority complex. He pointed out that children during the first few years of life, being small and weak and ignorant about the ways of the world, are bound to suffer from feelings of inadequacy. The resultant sense of inferiority he saw as the root of neurosis, and the chief trigger for many of our dreams. He argued that an individual is bound to look for ways to redress the power balance, whether consciously or unconsciously, if not through their patterns of behaviour while awake, at least through their imagination by way of dreams. Dreams, he maintained, can form a source of emotional compensation, rehearsing ways to assert power in one form or another. Dreams which include a feeling of helplessness, or of trying to gain access to a more secure place, or of dominating or bullying other people, or of being in command – these are typical Adlerian dreams. They are allied to the Plant-nature dreams included in the concept of the World dream, in which, as a step above the 'mineral-nature' of the world, they can be seen as representing a psychic step above the more usual dreams of everyday relationships and material ambitions.

Light&
Love
Jon
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Billy Goat Gruff / Course Correction - Jedi PuuDhoo - Hold me Close don't let me go oh ho ho - Bully's Special Prize

Goats, Geese and Grizzlies all attack people from time to time but they're just doing what comes naturally to them, they're not mad. We are. Why are there so many violent and unnecessary things happening within our world? It's because we're totally fucked up as a species that's why... Collectively we're all nuts to some degree or another... The sum of our parts and yet we look on the outcasts as bad apples and forget that we made them like that.

Everyone has the propensity for good and bad, I hesitate to use the word evil. Things are born and die but evil is yet another affectation, a creation of our own, Mankind reaping what it sows. We decided to steer the ship away, course correct from Natural Selection and side stepped the semi-automated production line within the factory of creation. By the wayside is neuroses, mental health issues, all the faulty spare parts, off cuts, the detritus at the verge of the path we were on from the beginning of our time.

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Ancient Religions - I Find Your Lack of Faith Disturbing

"Don't try to frighten us with your sorcerous ways, Lord Vader. Your sad devotion to that ancient religion has not helped you conjure up the stolen data tapes, or given you clairvoyance enough to find the rebels' hidden fortress... "

Calling something ancient, immediately a bad connotation. Use the word Prehistoric, sounds twee already don't it? So an ancient religion suffers from the same association. However, the further back you go, the closer you are to the source. Before 'isms' there was Nature who provided the rhythms, ways and means for us to commune with each other and her. All religion is the creation of man, a perversion of the truth, an affectation which leads to poor relations and the sooner they wilt and die the better.

But you can't chop or peel back the layers of this onion without discovering the illusive heart that makes you feel something. The inconvenient truth is that we are all connected, that divinity lies within each one of us and that any cult that requires an intermediary between you and the divine is just that, a squirelly religion. The Spiritual basis of all of those was Shamanic Practice, the words describe perfectly that rather than a struggle for perfection of the soul, Shamanism is a journey towards that, but an acceptance that we are not perfect and that it takes work and effort. It's the ultimate expression of the idea that you get out what you put in.

No intermediaries today thankyou, slams door shut... Shamans are a teacher not a preacher, a healer not a doctor, a guide not an authoritarian and a protector not a judge. There's enough wiggle room in there, we don't feel so bad about ourselves for our Human Failings and weaknesses when we're tricked into accepting ourselves as we really are, that's what they do. Don't get me wrong, there's risk involved with looking so deeply within, but the earlier you start, the less likely you are to discover something you don't like which is why it's so hard for us to take stock unless suffering a break-down or undertaking one straight through what is known as, Parklife. It's a regular preventative that treats symptoms before they are displayed. No need to medicate the depressed when they can resolve their issues before they lead to that state of being.

Cause and Effect. Turn it on its head. The effects drive the causes here.

We look down on the past, let alone looking back...

We don't give ourselves enough credit.

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When Bullied Bully

The Jews were treated unconscionably and dehumanised, now Israel unconsciously does exactly the same to the Palestinians... How Blind? Humanity flipping and flopping, like pendulums swinging from one extreme to another, the swing gradually slows until it stops in the middle, balance is restored. A moment of perfect clarity can ensue if you're paying attention.

No wonder those unidentified whatsits are exactly that, would you land here?

Mad, bad and Dangerous to know. Hmm how appealing our species is ;(

All get their comeuppance or fall into ignominy.

It's happening now if you haven't noticed.

All over the world, realities revealed.

Lots of things you'd like to deny.

Truths Becoming Self Evident.

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Hold me close don't let me go, oh ho ho...

I used to have a problem with Jade Goody and Brittany Murphy and some of the male examples, thinking what wastes of space and then they showed us why it's not our place to judge them and made me feel like a massive wanker for ever having an opinion. We need to get knocked down a peg. Men deserve in the majority to get their arses kicked and they're egos booted (like Kicking Bishop Brennan up the arse, if you don't know, find out ;) Women aren't getting away scot free here either, you need to reclaim your power and do some ball kicking too to help us out. (Freudian slip I put licking, glad I noticed, the spell checker doesn't spot correctly spelt idiocy or the filthy slightly eerie disgusterousness of some areas of my mind, plonking a flag down I claim this mental landscape for Queen and Countrahhh!. Bowing before her majesty the goddess, Mother Nature). She forgives all except apathy and has a terrible temper, doesn't suffer fools gladly AT ALL. But I love her with all my heart and soul and she loves me.

Don't put yourself down unless you deserve it, the Cosmic Incarnation of Dignitas is on it's way through hyperspace, from the future to the present, we're on a collision course with something that will end all suffering but only if we choose to, there's no forced euthanisation unless you're a terminal case already, so decide now while the getting's still good...

Get Ready For A Surprise, but how can you do that? Commune with chaos and accept that she is a harsh mistress but a fair one.

I'm accelerating to escape velocity to greet it so that it's not such a shock when it gets here...

It's all good and everything is happening as it should, hold on as it's going to be a wild ride.

Bless You Kali... and may god bless us all












Light &
Love
Jon
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