mildly irrational

fuck! how do you spell mildly? mildley? midley, ,midly, fuck! i used to know all this rational shit and now my memory isnt worth a fuck! im living in the moment so much that i can spell a happy prayer in my mind but fuck can i spell a word, or a name, or remember them, fading fast, the past, the future, it's always now mutherfuckers! anyways back to laconic misery alone Smiley face
joking, actually really happy at the moment, for the first time ever, continually ish smiley face fucking have a great new year whatever you are doing i shall put a special present for you all on the wishing tree in the garden of need

allons-y doctor who? Well err um it's Me...

ripples on a pond, melodies, songs, rivers, flowing, growing, forwards, allons-y, alongs, love, loving love, loving lovers loving love fuck yeah!

or this version

ripples on a pond, melodies, songs, rivers, flowing, growing, forwards, alongs, allons-y, lovely, loving love, lovers loving love as below so above

!kcuf

fuck! how do you spell mildly? mildley? midley, ,midly, fuck! i used to know all this rational shit and now my memory isnt worth a fuck! im living in the moment so much that i can spell a happy prayer in my mind but fuck can i spell a word, or a name, or remember them, fading fast, the past, the future, it's always now mutherfuckers! anyways back to laconic misery alone smile emoticon + heart emoticon
joking actually really happy at the moment, for the first time ever, continually ish smile emoticon fucking have a great new year whatever you are doing i shall put a special present for you all on the wishing tree in the garden of need

smiling too

if you are sceptical of what energy is and that you could feel it too or what i do when i send healing, well brother, sister, I'm loving you to put it midly, simply in a way that you may feel too, I'm loving you and if you don't believe it try me, I can show you, let you feel it, but only if you have an open mind to let that openess reveal it so that you can enter into a state of grace or i'll just make a face to get you smiling too and then it's gonna be real for you

wars star

so today i went to watch starwars with my family as they were paying (wink) and I have to say it got better and better obv. ive watched it online since the first time but also by this point my cynicism was all but destroyed like so many death stars so that I felt light hearted and jolly even though people died but not to worry, most of them were storm troopers anyway and they're just clones and drones (wink) sarcasm:- upsetting apple carts ever since someone said does that wheel look straight to you? The obvious thing to come from watching a film meant for kids that adults seem to love too is how childish our society is for the most part, and how sad it is that many learn more about right and wrong from these films than they do from moral leaders (as we have so few) and role models (since we seem to think anyone famous is somehow in the position to be one) and the unsung heroes of life get so little airtime in a selfie, self obsessed setup like this world... However im not a doom and gloom merchant, things are going to shit but I have this undeniable need to feel positive about the future, so THERE!

sometimes

sometimes sometimes i get angry and miserable and feel like venting but then after a while I see that it's just grief because I know I'm leaving behind an old me, an old life, an old way to be, leaving old habits and opinions back on the burner where they can be destroyed this rhyme aint nothing like the one in my head which is a shame cos it was much better than this but back to bus-iness, we are humans and god is real, that's the deal, i communicate with the ancestors or whatever you would like to call goddess, love, godhead and my journey is to go back to there, where all love resides with as many folks besides beside me, in fact i've made a promise it will be everybody, yes everyone, leaving here, to go somewhere nicer still, or stay here but be in heaven while alive and just go there when you die, instead of all this angst and worrying about what happens then, i've decided to find out now and help others out, i'm going to heal some, using massage, touch and love and loving energy and that will be it for me, living, growing, teaching, learning, yearning to find the enlightenment, the being that i already am just forgot while I was rushing to fit in with what everyone else was doing here

hearing a lot on the wind and from friends about trouble sleeping, insomnia for instance, first things first, sort your waking life out! it's why you don't want to sleep, no matter how much you would like to sleep, for some reason you can't or don't so why not accept that? Move forward, imagine that it's for a good reason in the long run. Basically sleep will heal you, connect you, let you see in your dreams that you're not having at the moment what you need to do, tell yourself I will stay awake all night, try that + don't look at screens for at least two hours before bedtime, don't do anything in your bed but sleep, don't sit on it, don't lay on it until you are tired out. see yourself as someone who gets a good nights sleep even if that means sleeping in sometimes when you need more, sometimes you need less, right now though? I'm guessing one good nights sleep would do the trick so ask for it, ask for a good nights sleep, actually say out loud, i will sleep well tonight, it may not work great that first night but slowly you will sleep more, if you would like to talk about it let me know, message me for a consult

kings will fall and queens and leaders and all

you try to make me angry, frustrate me, belittle me, hurt me in so many old and outdated ways but they just don't hit the spot anymore spit it out let it go my friend, you will not turn me, into you anymore, be yourself, see yourself because I love you enough to let you fail, to fall, only to rise up in love with loving love like me it's enough, i'm happier than i;ve ever bin before and out with the old in the with the new i love you brother, sister, all that it is have it! live your life and learn to see each other as the thing to worship and you are your own saviour, your own best friend if you wish to be make it so number one, this has been me and i've said too much already or not enough yet

got to be

as a healer, as an awakened soul, one who knows more of the truth of this ere place, it's come to my attention that the majority of everyone else, not you my friends on here because most of you are connected to me in some way, so today I say this to everyone else who isn't listening, won't read this because like me you are a sinner not a saint, or at least a fake and not a winner, this world has many things that can easily distract you from what you were actually meant to be doing with your life, like realising that everything is a lesson, EVERYTHING, EVERYONE and for me as a reformed character, reformed meat on a previously shitty stick, this schtick i go through, these words I write they're magically true, imbued with wisdom for me and you and it's not been easy to come clean I can tell you, change my ways, but love has done that and the possibility that I could be loved one day meant I could start loving myself again and from there start loving each and every one of you, that's god to be, goddess to be, got to be the least that I can do

mustachios

in my healers hut is a rodent who i've just setup for winter with pistachios and in my healers hut there is a spider who lives in a drawer of my medicine cabinet and in my healers hut there are two comfy armchairs with two rocks sitting beneath them one white one all the colours of the rainbow and in my healers hut i make space for your words, your deeds, your feelings and your face so show it to me the one you only display when you are sleeping come and play and one day you will feel much better than you were today see it coming your healing coming see it feel it imagine it be it now feel it love +