while i was awake

while i was sleeping
i was unconscious,
deliberately, with
drink and drugs
cos that's less
painful than
feeling so
a wake
end
of
a
reality that everyone else denies exists or doesn't speak of or ridicules
because to believe that it could be true would be too good surely
don't call me shirley although i am a woman more than a
man just yet but that suits me fine until im alone
with a woman of my dreams im not
in any hurry murray mints
for fresh breath
nice to be
nice
x