18 years later

I just realised the reason why I've wasted most of the last eighteen years. Not really but it's a dramatic way to say that something has been revealed through a new connection in my life. The things that have happened in the last week or two have been truly amazing. As I keep saying though, astonishment is denial masquerading as surprise, so I try not to be too shocked and hang on for the wild ride. You see I naturally without any knowledge or thought as to the consequences, performed a kundalini massage on my first love. The result was the awakening (not only of the kundalini energy at the base of the spine) but of a whole host of issues all at once and the eventual transformation that happens when someone becomes the living testament to the phrase 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger'. I'm trying to suggest that all of the events in those days would have happened without my involvement, perhaps in a different order or timetable but I'm not so sure, I know I saved a life at least twice in my youth, here and there. Didn't we all? Maybe as I hope now looking back, what I did was a positive thing in this instance, when I know it was and have done for years. I'd held on to more than I realised, in the way that you compare everyone to your first, everything to your first, your first this, that, and the other...

My gift is as a healer. My Camino helped, re-taught me that. I've only just gotten to the point that I now know for certain why I felt I couldn't seek that path out before and why I must now...

To be fair it felt like suddenly the whole of the last mumble.. cough splutter ahem18years made sense at last. Like the end of a movie and there's a twist... It was a very nice moment or twelve.

Thanks S. X

Light &
Love
Jon
x