poem - a thing called loving life

me and you life in a catch twenty two often i don't love or even like you and there's the rub this club i've joined where modern folks often wonder if they wouldn't rather not be here at all i know the reason, several seasons spent drinking and doing other things too much and then through the course of it all someone does something or you do something to someone that means you give up on loving and living life, you start to push other folks away and they become disconnected from you, you from them and as the winds cause trees to sway and freezing temperatures cause things to ice up so do our hearts and we don't feel much of anything at all except pain and shame and guilt and this lonely fortress of solitude we've built becomes a habit that we cannot seem to break unless it's for others

 you see i find it fine to cheer another person up and in that way they can give me some cheering up too or i can smile to get you smiling because inside i really love you, it's just connecting to that feeling again is hard like an old engine that won't start, no oil, no fuel, no reason to keep it maintained because you gave up on ever seeing it run again and let it fall into disrepair, don't despair there's always someone worse off than you, if that doesn't work, think about those people in your life who would hate to see you go too soon, and wonder about a future that you can't see coming in the rear view mirror which people so often keep their gaze fixed to, imagine a better day, don't wallow, or stay at home, put one foot in front of the other and get out there into that cold seemingly uninviting world

get into nature because she doesn't hate ya, she loves to see you there, she cares, even if you don't right now or at first, what's the worst that could happen? You're miserable inside, alone, go out, you might do the trick for that other guy or girl, brighten up their world because they're having their own excuses for not living right, and you may just have a little fun, and where does that lead, who knows but you never will until you try, please give it a go for me, don't spend eternity wondering why, you didn't can't couldn't see the world outside, you, feeling free, loved, or at least liked a little don't imagine what those other people think of you, lower expectations, be a good friend and see everyone as that at the very least, feast upon the things that come into your eyes, ears, nose, mouth and skin

usher in a new day or night, go check out the stars and sky, i love you and i cannot explain why but you seem to love me and that will have to do until I learn to love myself a little all the same :) + <3