not depressing at all

it's amazing how often our survival instinct overrides any issues like mood disorders, when you have to go fetch water every morning there'll be no foothold for depression to become a habit in the mind, a pathway so refined that we can't seem to break out permanently

so what's to be done in a world where we can mope for hours on end where we don't have to know, need to learn to forage for our own food, we can live off the state, up to a point and then just go to a shop and buy something to eat even though it's factory made

the stakes are rising and the media yes the folks who like to lead with those that bleed and now they just go from one disaster to another rather than inform us about things that we might need to know about they just roll around the clock after our views online

it's hard to see it, the future, a time ahead that might come and how do we feel about the world out kids and their kids will live in so we don't because that way doth insanity lay amongst another set of lies untruths and facts not mentioned so that we are left uneducated

hmm quick try to end on a good note, try to have some kind of hey guys and girls solar power is on its way to every roof, we're gonna realise that being rich like most of us are compared to every one else it's not a good idea to keep having more than one kid anyway

and all those poor people well that has nothing to do with all those richer than rich ones, the poverty in this country i don't see it cos i wouldnt dare and no-ones talking about it, i won't go there before the years out, it's muslim towns and cities and white folks in slums

i dont believe in fascism, racism, i know they exist but they are not things i support or wish to see continue beyond the fact they ought not to already in a place containing so many folk who don't retort against the kind of existential angst that we're all living here within

so there are those who in their hearts believe in a better land and life for all but most are now too doped up recreationally that action seems like a good idea, but they never get around to it, or those who can't cope with this reality already and get their doctor to do it

i was going to finish but this is quite good fun in a sadistic manner being that i have nothing better to do but listen to another long video of philosophical dialogue on a video sharing website, i have no sponsors, and in truth i have no deeply held beliefs now either

it's all begun to wither hither and inside, experiences that taught me that whatever i hold too close becomes a vision outside of me too i saw my fears made real, i went through interrogations that lead me to wonder what was true and what was false and it left me blinded

binded to being more careful less raucous but then ive had a trip and chose to see a black screen with green numbers falling from the roof and inside that matrix i saw what i expected to so i know that i can project whatever i wish onto this extravagant failure to love

i think most of us are failing, culture has asked us the question what do you stand for and we're falling over each other to do whatever we think everyone else will accept not standing up for standing out there on the streets demanding something better willing to die for it

i thought about it going out to the chinese embassy self immolating in support of a free tibet but then a video on that sharing site said that the 14th llama of that nation was a communist party member a spy a lie and thats the problem we have today explaining all away

there is no one truth available there are every opportunity to ask a question and receive no answer that means a lot to one of us and all or at least most because they all seem plausible the light and dark are one and i've been there about to see the coins other side

some say in spiritual circles that there is no good or bad, no white or black, on goals that are trivial, demeaning, ultimately unsatisfying and i dont know how we can directly subvert this apart from growing up and unplugging from what we might think is something positive

progress isnt necessarily in a forward direction, its merely changes put out there into the world seeming to be one thing but who knows we dont and ive been so far to the edges feeling as though i was in the middle of everything, god complex, never feeling worthy though

so now im just a so and so uttering whatever comes into my head and letting my fingers flow as the world becomes so very extreme wars without any end until every country has a shopping mall with identical coffee shops and escalators to save your fat legs walking

the most hopeful thing to me is that we're all becoming brown, we're mixing and religions are getting watered down, the failure to hold us up to those moral standards but yet within us there is a good one covered up bu what we are expected to do, career, house, family

far more real than the fragile and poultry installations and industries of governments with their paperwork and rules and regulations in a world where most folks just want something to eat, drink and live in it's a nuisance to the business world for us to be killing customers

the computers will save us but even they are being used to rule us to confuse us to lead us down tjunctions, dead ends, perversions and this little rap has been brought to you by the letter J but also by the initials T.McK cause he's talking to me from behind this window

the u.s. dropped the bomb because they wanted to see what it was like, they wanted to experience it via another country getting burnt one who was ready and had tried to hold their hands up surrender and the planet needs a great deal of good will and understanding