i looked, i was always tempted to, but afraid to also... why? because there is so much confusion and so many lies spread or mistruths told... Yes it was a hard road, but nothing worth having in life is easilly gained at first, hard work needed to change old habits from bad ones to good, next steps are easily attained as long as you keep working hard, putting in the ground work, and also making sure to heighten your awareness of the suffering of others and try to do something about it,

We all have a spiritual inheritance ready and willing to come into our lives, life just seems to get in the way for most people, because they would rather have shit relationships and be miserable and happy in occasional moments, than put the graft in, make the changes daily, to ensure they have somewhere other than death to go when they die... It's not easy, it's not that hard though either, just takes a few to show the way, and be there when you lose your way I'm one of THEM, take advantage of me, the doctor is in the house... call me, write me, give me a chance to do my good works, on you and yours <3 font="">

there is another way, you can live, you can die or you can find that life goes on before and after those illusions