shit n shinola

dear diary

i getall this shit out on here so that it's gone outta me head, that way it doesn't go round and round in there and I can do something less boring instead. Why Don't You?

i used to keep and re-and re-read txts and torture myself with what I'd said or what I could have said differently. Maybe try to work out what you meant by this or that.

That was a long time ago say 2007 now I use my memory only and like to be reminded of something clever or stupid I wrote or said to you in person which is much nicer, whatever comes up quite natually. That way it's not the desire to take it in and react like reading pages in a book but to re-experience how you were feeling inside first, express whatever emotion is recalled and let it go or enjoy it. The Bad stuff goes away gradually but the joy is always there.

If you openly talk about your exes together you can both learn a lot about each other just from the reasons that you got together and split up but more importantly you get to share your passions.

illumination is shining a light in darkness
light emmanating from within is enlightenment

A starrrrrr that's what they call you
someday you're gonna know who you are

when Bill S. Preston Esq & Ted Theodore Logan saved themselves by placing the right things in the right place at the right time to escape from the jail cells, their intention was to wait until they were out of jail, go to their time machine phone
booth and go back to place them there for when they needed them.

They discovered this and then just assumed that if they could think of something now and make it happen in the future, anything is possible.

They set their intention for the future, all you have to do is say what if when I go to work everyone is happy and we have a great day? You may end up slightly disappointed because some shit happens whether we like it or not, but the rest of the time you did have a good day right? That's cool, I'll try that tomorrow and the next day. Next week, next month, you get the idea. Consistently have a good feeling and see where it takes you, some nightmares are inevitable but they don't seem so bad when you're enjoying everything else so much more, like living out your wildest dreams.

Hah! who'd have thought it, many prescriptions are bad for you and many drugs are good for you? Funny old world eh?

This world would make a good horror movie. I wonder who would watch that?

Did you ever get the eery feeling that you are sitting at a table in The Restaurant at the End of The Universe?

writing a diary online is my way of sending my intention back and forth through time and in and out of the entire fractal landscape.

Light &
Love
Jon
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