apply cure all cream

i have spent the week so far noticing when i become emotional, angry, taken out of my heart and into misery of any kind, frustration, upset, thoughtlessness, anything other than enquiry, and inquisitive childlike enthusiasm for everything, when i spot my attention being drawn outside, away from love, i take myself back into my heart and feel a smile upon my face and it's ace to be able to meditate on loving you whatever the weather, light as a feather, loving what you do, leaving it up to you, never destroying my calm, my love a soothing balm, i call it cure all cream, it's a virtual dream :) +

ending night

You're not wrong, I'm not right,
it's just the truth is out of sight.
Though there is a far off light,
it takes time to win your fight.
Our heart's an infinite bright,
consciousness within alight.
Deep inside regain might,
it's no matter who is right.
Only what is is our plight.

absolutely nothing

have we seen enough war or do we want more?
how about grief do we need some relief?
when it comes to learning lessons
i'd say we were well overdue
sleaze in politics well
it's nothing new
system error
rerun, redo
reboot or
re-shoe
renew
them
you

poem about no-one

if you want to argue i'm done with you
i just can't flow with your ego
no longer will i battle
or settle for
less
+
yes
i loved you
was none above you
until i realised it wasn't true
they were just thoughts not feelings.

One of my favourite posts ever

One of my favourite posts ever was the one I wrote called '1,010,101 Story Time' about a story that came to me during a mushroom experience, under a Yew tree, a mixture of my life story and also a combination of all of those things rolled into one, so that it became hard to tell the difference or know what there was in common between them.  It was about a healer, a medicine man, and I have had many experiences that gave me the notion of being one, of becoming one, of doing more than going through the motions, visions of a healing lodge that I am going to build soon, I have had the idea in mind for many years, addictions held me back, I never did any of the things I wished I had done with my life, I am Now!  I have the building materials coming at the weekend and I will be cobbling it together with natural materials in order to create a shelter with accommodation and a hearth inside.

It will provide me with a space to go to to do spiritual journeying in, I am trying not to use the word shaman, or shamanic, because that it a tradition that comes from Siberia, from their tradition not mine.  I'm creating a tradition by having a connection to spiritual truth, by working with and for it.

I am learning not from a physical mentor but by example, by living it, learning by making do and doing it, by going out into the world and nature especially and learning as I go, building upon the times when I was out there before during the early years of my life, when I was out there recently, when my senses became so sharp and my experience of nature so extreme and incredible, hyperreal.

The experiences ranged from being in a void, blackness all around me, i was god, i was light, i was able to rearrange the timelines that exist, to unravel them all and choose the one that resulted in the best outcome for the majority of folk, i chose to go back to a reality that was good for all back here.

Speaking to someone who went to south america and took a frog poison and died, went past ego death, went past dmt style flashes to another world, past all that to death and resurrection and life.

Back here, only with the experience of knowing that there is something before and after death, back here, having been god, then a bhudda, an awakened being, working back towards that is my goal.

SO I will make a lodge, to house my dreams, my homemade dreamcatcher, my reworking of other ways of being and doing spiritual practise, i drum, i journey in my mind and i am taken away again.

Taken from here, information coming into my mind, I do spiritual healing for people, in person and at a distance, take my word for it, or believe that i believe which is how i started with other peoples stories, or believe that i am insane, going out of my mind, or into my mind as i choose to explain it.

I am going into my mind, my mind being my body, all of me is my mind, and to exist within this shell more properly I have to ground myself within the physical, but also take flight as a spirit body too.

Facing these challenges creates a lot of friction for someone brought up as a christian, left to my own devices in terms of family beliefs I was indeed taught to be a christian at school and church services.

Those stories, bible readings, hymns, all these things confuse the issue because we are taught that they are truth, not stories, not allegories, not symbolic references to something that happened.

To work through this dichotomy, between good and evil, light and dark, the shadow and the person, the whole and the empty, the ways that these opposites come together inbetween them with us there.

The yin and the yang, the male and female energies, the divine comedy, the cosmic giggle, trying to write in such a way to be informative rather than alluding to something, explaining rather than turning it into a poem, writing like this for the first time in a long time, as me, the person I was before I became spiritualised, before I became a doctor zeus, rhyming, telling stories in a mysterious way.

Dreaming of a black jaguar last night, it came up to me, so close I was a little scared but stood my ground, albeit leaning away a bit too because that is a powerful being and something not to take for granted, is it safe to be so close to such an incredible creature?  Well I was fine in my dream and that is another thing that has been happening, becoming more conscious of my dreams, so that I can deal with things there and train my neurons to fire in such a way that they work just as well in the day too because dreams are real, as real as our waking state, what we do there is the same as far as our brain is concerned, there is no difference so doing things whilst asleep makes us capable when awake too.

Losing the numerological obsessive compulsiveness, long phrase there, sorry for the long words, I'm also trying to sink back and rise up, within myself to be the me that I was, am and will be all at once.

Relax a little, not be so nervous, doing things like taking the service at my spiritualist church the last two weeks, and this week once again I will be the person standing there introducing the evening and being there for the people who choose to come there to congregate and laugh and cry and help each other by having some time to socialise, we gather and we leave uplifted knowing solutions to our problems, it's a healing place to be, it's a healing evening, a laughter filled time to be you again.

So I went through this loop a few years ago, the vision of the circular lodge for guests to stay in, now I am getting the experience to actually bring this into reality, and to prepare others to find their own healing, to journey, to meditate, to seek out the answer to questions they are asking, to enter nature, to connect to the trees and earth and sky and water, to ground themselves, to earth themselves, be free.

Going back to the beginning, knowing i am going into my mind, into the labyrinth, going deep within to tie a piece of string to the post that stands in the centre, and light a little fire there at the base, bad idea that sounds like burning someone at the stake, cathartic, heart releasing, does it come from the cathars?  Who were burnt at the stake by the Catholics, because they did not believe in dualism.

They refused to deny their take on life, to turn away from their own beliefs, like many spiritual people the world over, they stood outside the accepted traditional culture, we are doing that now.

Learning how to be connected to nature and know that we do not want to destroy it, anyone who is against fracking, anyone who chooses not to eat meat, or dairy, who has heard or smelt death at an abatoir, who knows what goes on in the dairy industry, who has heard cows mourning the loss of their calves when they are taken away from them so that we can drink the milk they produce to feed them.

It makes us fat, makes our tea and coffee taste nice, with the sugar that inflames our sense and mind, that damages our bodies, inflammation becomes the norm and pain is numbed with drink and drugs.

We are not well, we live lives that are shorter than they could be, or we live too long and lose our minds, the environment is poisonous to us, the air, the water, the food, the homes we live in, full of things we put on our skin, into our bodies, air fresheners, chemical combinations that no-one know the result of, we are a cocktail of what we have consumed, including the media we watch and read.

So leaving that behind, to enter nature again, to wash when it rains, to eat when it fruits, to live so close that i will be moving to the rhythm of the seasons, flowing with the sensations that come to me.

Whatever it looks like, I am clean, I have detoxed, I know about vitamin B12 deficiency, I am eating well, I take supplements, I am skinny like a tribesman, because i don't eat the things you call food.

I have learnt so much, that i can pass on but only to those who are interested, those who wish to heal, those who wish the evolve, to go backwards to reveal what worked for thousands of years, to grow into the future by choosing to move into it consciously with energy and excitement and problem solving ingenuity because we need to create community and a way out of the current paradigm.

This society is supposed to be civilised, civilisation, so called, that has homeless people, does not look after the disabled, the elderly, the mentally ill, they are thrown to the pavement and the morgue.

Removing the care budgets for them, removing their health payments, getting pen pushers to take a test with people designed to take away their benefits, let's save money there not from the rich people.

Don't be robin hoods, be Prince Johns, be the tax man, take everyones money and redistribute it wisely but do we?  No we don't all these inconvenient truths, we spend it on making others rich.

So leave it all behind, as so many are, but we don't see them again, they disappear into the woods.

They treat themselves more sensitively and work hard to create self sustaining self sufficient ways of living and become to sensitive that they sound nuts, they can't stay too close to the rest of us no more.

It hurts to be around so much suffering and see it, smokers sucking on death, you see it and feel it, you smell it, your senses so strong and sensitive, you taste your food, eat less, taking the energy in.

You feel more, someone smudged me at the weekend, with sage, I felt my energy field clearing.

I grow into a better person because of those also doing the same things, taking the same steps.

Journeying physically and spiritually to a better world, one that we are creating in the here and now.

what i say to a robin

anam cara means soul friend in celtic and to me that speaks of nature and our place within it, as animals, as people, as those who are made of energy, as we all are, we keep each other in check, we are meant to look out for one another, provide the solutions to problems for each other, be challenged by each other, that is a soul friend, someone who calls you out, who challenges what you believe, think you know, helps you see what you could do better, how you could heal yourself and by doing so be a beacon of hope for your soul friends, allow them to learn by your example, be drawn to better themselves if they choose to do so, we are those soul friends and this is evolution if we choose to accept that change is the norm, growth is possible, transformation is desirable, so do we wish to carry on as before or dare to imagine and dream bigger for all and join in to create the world that is coming towards us? i can think of no better way to get involved than to offer your hand in friendship and love to every soul friend you meet and that's everyone and everything you see, to which you can say anam cara

adver city

the road to freedom passes through adversity,
i'm just ashamed you were in the car with me,
I apologise to any suffering unnecessarily,
i'm wishing i make it up to you eventually.
Thank goodness i got turned around,
went to hell and back to see profound,
the hurts i caused and would have found,
if it weren't for you i would be more unsound.

poisson

perfume? poison and musk deer anal gland juice

hair dye? down the drain with bleach & ammonia

makeup? blocks your pores brings spots repeat

we do things to ignore truth and keep on going

blindly we turn away from the truth & knowing

we've fucked things up so bad can't you see

the desperation on the faces of your family

the animals and plants hurting and dying

i feel and hear them losing sleep crying

sink into myself to the deep and lying

on the consciousness ocean floor

the darkest place i could go to

only a spark of truth lit up so

that i can start over again

choose to make a friend

find someone to lend

a hand to & mend

myself first and

maybe then

lose my

mask

too

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room with a view

Let's focus on what we can do to make this world a better place for all life and each other and with great Energy comes great responsibility so if you know of someone hurting who needs inspiration of a kind that is free and alternative and loving please don't hesitate to let me know. The reason that the Mushrooms come out at this time of year is that they are grounding and healing and providing proof of unending existence and that makes your current situation better whatever the weather we can face life more easily to experience whatever comes our way with courage.

Knowing that death is not the end takes away the pain of living with all kinds of suffering because the illusion of separation makes us all feel alone when we are not and never were. Together we can bravely transform this place and heal everyones wounds to leave a better environment and transformation starts with honesty and love and the desirable nature of truth is that it releases you from holding on to the lies you tell yourself about who you are and what you are capable of.

Please keep in mind that at every moment you can let go of what it is you are carrying, you can lighten your load, you can accept whatever is happening so that it no longer causes friction and pain, you can get the message so that you realise what life is trying to say to you and heal your own wounds and then those of others if they are willing to also do the work :) + <3

Peace and understanding, compassion and empathy, lead us to being a better person for ourselves and those around us, meditation, energy work, eating ourselves well, choosing our company wisely, changing our habits from bad to good, from unwise to clever, from disconnected to seeing everything else as a part of us and we a part of it creates new life within us and will rapidly heal this world as we all take responsibility for each other and most importantly for ourselves and become whole. This rant was brought to you by the healing power of early nights, eating right, shining a light into my dark corners and doing my best to brighten someones elses day by thinking of them with love. I was wrong and I admit that so I am set free. :) + <3

glass ceiling

i know we can Smell and See and Taste and Touch and Hear and even Holistically sense more with our body so we have at least six ways of picking up what is going on so why not sit with the last one of those and see what happens when you relax because i've found a way to exact revenge upon your pain try it you may never be the same again just sit or lay down and say within i choose to sense the energy that is without within to put it another way why not say to yourself i choose to be the energy that i am instead of this crude matter which i am only pretending to be for a short while called life and i prefer to be pain free to heal to reveal the better part of me which is my spirit and set it free so come on people why not play with this feeling of pure freedom and relaxation there's no boundaries or borders to this nation it's for everyone to see and feel and wherever it is they come from whoever they are you too can be a shining star go far and heal and get this loving sensation so why not steal yourself away from the world for a minute or two and see what meditating and asking this question can do and so from me as i go off for meditation class i must love you and leave you :) + <3

disectioned

energy and spirituality were like a golden path there to show me, that i could no longer seek any shelter in old habits and addictions and like a beautiful end to that friction, they directed me towards a diversion and how I could be a better person, leading me to the emerald palace of my heart and healing revealing the possibility of helping others, guiding me to who i was always meant to be and had failed to become because i was uncomfortably numb, not facing anxiety and awkwardness and a lack of social connectivity, with no skills to heal my ills until i was thrilled, to experience feeling energy sensing true spirituality to seal the rift in my reality, that hole that had always been there that some say is a weakness but that's because they are blinded or closed minded and who could blame them in a world that wishes there were no starving kids on t.v. to switch over from, because we're used to such suffering and prefer complaining about internet videos buffering, so finally within me is an uncertainty that is dwindling like negativity so that it reduces in intensity to leave behind only positivity and although i still fear the insanity in this place it's mostly outside of me now because i choose to create my own destiny flowing with the energy and spirituality along that golden path home

bad medicine

going back to basics so that i went from eating whatever i felt like to what i knew was good for me even though i didn't like it to being able to put the raw fresh ingredients i buy into a pan and let them slowly cook to create my meals for a week today.

Cabbage, Parsnips, from the duchy organic farm, turmeric, ginger, broccoli, carrots, onion and garlic from the garden. All slowly cooking so that i can take it with me wherever i go yum.

Making my own chocolate because I know what goes into it by melting coconut oil (and cacao butter if you can get it) into a pan and adding the cacao powder which is strong dark stuff and then turning off the low heat to mix in enough of a vegan sweetener (this week brown rice syrup last week date syrup) so that it doesn't taste quite so bitter and add whatever you like to that knowing you are eating a health food daily from now on.

Learning that shop bought things are merely fake versions of the foods we used to love to eat, they look and taste like they are what they say they are, but pies aren't just pastry, meat and potatoes, and cakes aren't just eggs flour and sugar and everything you can think of is just the cheapest ingredients put together in such a way that it'll last on the shelf for a long time and when you eat it you will think that is a healthy cheap food.

We are wrong to swallow what we are being fed, we are being given no option because ingredients are expensive, so grow your own, buy in bulk, make it yourself, learn how i had to and feel the difference when you do, experience life anew and see what a change it makes to your health mentally and physically, i don't go to the doctors if I can help it and I don't take their pills or slap on their creams if there is a natural alternative and the main way is to be healthy in the first place and not need to go.

the borg

resistance is fertile... if i find myself having resistance to a conversation it's because it's something i really need to hear, resistance is close to fear and needs to be fought against by being very clear, and present and willing to accept whatever is, get through this resistance acting as a friction within to the bliss, learn the lesson with a frisson of excitement as you get near, dear we can do this together if we are capable of taking advice, liking being criticised and breathing through the rising tide of anger so that we keep it inside unless or until it needs to be untied, more often than not it's an overreaction or a false perspective on the situation, so let it go, once you see it for the lie it was when you told it to yourself, then i expand who i thought i was to include aspects i don't like, to find the bits and bobs that I do, and love them all, how about you? :) + <3

life

life has settled into a nice routine and i don't like those at all, far too much like monotony to me, but hey, self respect seems to be making me find reasons not to get stuck in one place for too long, not to take the way i am treated without questioning it, and everything in fact and i was wondering today if we could change just about every saying around, they say seeing is believing i've said before now i feel like believing is seeing, if you want to see it believe it, have an open mind, be open to new and interesting possibilities, don't get stuck in a rut, in a mindset, in a way of thinking and being, be free.

Be yourself, find out who that is, meditate, breathe slow and deep to be calm, relax more, get less stress in your life, destress, don't get depressed, get deep rest instead, I stole that from the internet.

So what's to be done?  The world as an ecosystem is in crisis, the fifth mass extinction is underway, and subconsciously we all know it, we ignore David Attenborough, and anyone else who says so, it's not our problem, surely the governments of the world, the U.N. whoever is in charge is sorting it out?

Well no, they're too mired in dogmatic ways of looking at the world and each other, too much bureaucracy, they think with their heads and not their hearts, they think rather than feeling about things, they don't go with their gut, they have to follow the law and that's written by business men.

The law as we know it is a manmade construction designed to protect the rich and powerful and make it easier for those same people to become more of whatever it is they desire, more rich, powerful, almost untouchable, with their lawyers and money that can make most attempts to give them an opportunity to see what they are doing a blind eye, turning away from what it felt like to be a kid.

No childlike wonder at the world for them, shuttered behind their blinkered perspective, living in glass houses and throwing stones at everyone else, not sure that makes sense, but they go for a holiday to islands like the maldives where all the rubbish is dumped on another island in the modern way of sweeping our problems under the carpet, putting off until tomorrow what we need today.

Resorts with five star accommodation and entertainment where the workers are low paid immigrants.

The majority of people in the world are either struggling to find clean water to drink and food to eat or are under paid in the job they hate because they are given too much to do in too short a timescale.

Under more and more pressure in every sphere of the working week, do more for less with fewer people to help you, the best people are the ones who will stay longer or become unwell and then leave so that in the end the folks you are dealing with are the ones who need the money and stay.

People whose passion is to help others, like doctors, leaving in droves, teachers, they can't recruit them quick enough, our kids were born to kids and dragged up not brought up, with no manners.

Those with standards are diminished because of peer pressure, bullying, a system that makes it harder for those who are talented to benefit because one size fits all, and all must go into a job for society, like teaching computer coding to kids, or trying to mould young minds by setting standards and tests.

Actually what you are doing is creating a place for them to live in and a culture of more and more of the same, rather than seeing those who speak out as important, they are shunned, criminalized for taking action against big industry, standing up for the little guy in the face of police supported sites like fracking locations, where big business can pay the police force to guard their workers and place implicit permission for similar things to occur in the future, we are living in the past and driving ourselves into the biggest disaster in the history of the planet, as far as we are aware anyway by looking into the rear view mirror and making decisions on how to steer and wondering why?

When the ecosystems collapse, and goodness knows they are toxic already, failing by any measure, the world will know the true extent of what human kind has done to it, all at once, we will all know.

Western people for the most part live in a so called modern world, where we are capable of drinking clean water, and eating healthy food, but even those are lies, the water smells of chlorine because we are doing our best to poison that and it takes chlorine to get it to a state where the water companies can call it potable and sell it to us, we pay water rates, water is life, but it is not free, neither are we.

Born into servitude, we slave away at jobs to prop up the government who take a cut of our incomes and use it to fund wars abroad, sell missiles and bombs and guns and weapons to countries so that they can use them to stop peaceful demonstrations, and interfere in other nations by force, we have our names written onto certificates, and we become the property of the state in which we live.

The food we eat is rubbish, it's homogenized, empty of nutritious value for the most part so that it lasts long enough on the shelves for people to buy and consume it, without any consciousness of what is being put into it, for the purposes of making it sound healthy, by stripping it of the goodness of the ingredients and then adding those vitamins and minerals back in using industrialised methods and virtually painting things so that they look and taste how we would like them to have been originally.

A pie is not a pie, a cake is not a cake, bread isn't bread, ice cream contains no ice cream, until you pay a premium for the best of the best you can check, there isn't any cream in it at all and the percentage goes up the more you pay to about 20 something percent cream, the others products called ice cream are frozen flavourings, colourings, basically whatever they can get away with putting into it whilst still having something to sell you that tastes and looks like the thing it used to be a while ago.

Bread is not the wholesome thing it used to be, it's soft, wet, you can't spread things on it unless they are soft and wet too, so the spreads have a texture that makes them easier to spread, the drinks are even worse, containing fake sweeteners, all of the so called foods contain too much salt and sugar.

Basically to put it mildly our state of unhealth is being maintained and made worse still by all this.

We are all ill, i don't know more than a handful of people whose first or second conversation topic  is their health or lack of it, we are not a well people, a well species, we are insane to carry on this way.

So, what is to be done?  Well the people I know, the hippies, the off gridders, the alternatives, the ones who live on the fringes of society, choosing to grow their own fruit and vegetables, raise their own animals, and kids for that matter, educate them in the ways of the world, how to treat each other with respect, how to treat yourself with respect in terms of what you put into your body, how you live in the world, by respecting the earth itself, the water, the sky and the energy you use, they are the ones who look forward and take responsibility for today and tomorrow, don't live in the past, are happy more often than not, live with little but have so much to be inspired by, the time to invest in their hobbies, learn more about the natural world, learn more about and do whatever their passion is.

They are the ones who will survive the coming apolcalypse with less battle wounds, less friction, less need to totally re-evaluate their choices, their leaders, their options for the future if we don't lose it.

If we don't use it wisely, our time here, we could be making it pointless for any offspring to be sprung.  We could be creating a world where technology is more important than our very lives themselves, more important than the life of someone living in a far off land, who has to make things for us to throw away at an alarming rate, making up excuses for why we need the new one we just bought, rationalising our reasons for tossing something out, because we don't even think about it.

I've seen all this first hand, mentioning no names, i've done a lot of this myself, i woke up to it all.

I realised where i was personally going wrong, I had to because no-one was going to tell me.

They don't want to lose their job because they told the truth of how bad things are.

They don't want the rap, don't want the place in the history books, so they lie.

Or they don't want the truth, to hear it would be too painful, so they fib.

To themselves first and then the rest of the world, don't say it.

It isn't true, we'll ignore that inconvenient bit of information.

As the world itself and the life on it shrinks, so connected.

We can go almost anywhere within a day, flights, cars.

A boat ride up a river to reach the heart of the jungle.

We can and do affect each and every inch of it all.

Breathing out we affect the very air itself.

We are so fragile and so destructive.

So loving and so careless.

So preoccupied.

So asleep.

Wake up.

WAKE UP.

Wakey wakey.

Rise and shine.

There's a battleship in the garden!

A family tradition that one, to remind us all.

Sometimes when we wake up there will be an emergency.

Our settled lives of routine are killing everything including us.

Lost in our habits and addictions to being unhealthy and unhappy.

Well maybe it's time for us to break out of this system and be happy.

Perhaps it's time for me to do just that and so i shall and so i have soon.

A little bit of savings and a lot of faith in what will happen when i move out.

As for the rest of us, I intend to do whatever i can to support us all in waking up.

Don't leave it there says a little thought in my head, clear cognizance as it comes in.

A spiritual man, a man, doing what he believes to be right, loving himself and everyone.

Working towards doing whatever little i can achieve to make the world a better place.

Until the final disaster strikes and we are swept from the face of the very earth.

Or we evolve in a natural way and leave technology and fatalism behind.

Choose to love one another and put a stop to our failings for all time.

By being there for each other again because each life is sacred.

By accessing the natural resources that can support us.

Go to the extents of what can be achieved by one.

As a connected whole once more across earth.

Connected by our spiritual truth and life.

Letting go of the past, freeing ourselves.

Creating a better way each day together.

Raising the lowest up to be their best.

Knocking the high and mighty down.

Letting them fall on their own swords.

Because to fight what you don't believe.

Is harder than choosing a different way to go.

Then seeing how many people are drawn towards it.

The people I love live in such a way, not tomorrow, today.

soap

so i see that you are alive and thrive on drama and all the other things that are unnecessary such as gossip about people who only exist on a t.v. and are only seen on a screen so basically i'm calling you out and asking why you are even here, is there a good reason for you, what do you do? Is it all just an excuse for fun for you? I know why it is though, so don't worry about it at all. You are playing small, because it's easier, and you are not a hero, so you make it seem simple and don't get involved just seek out entertainment, eat the shit handed to you by companies who just want to make money from your suffering, who put stuff in boxes that you are told is safe and even healthy but is poison which one day will be outlawed if we ever wake up enough to see the obvious reality that is the system is impaired and so are we, long term if the planet doesn't chuck us off quite soon we will learn enough to shun the old ways that are here right now, looking back from a future we can't yet feel but i can sense, i guess it's all just out there hence why i say all this to try to make it plain and yet most don't care, are in too much pain, too heavy weight their issues, the rent, the bills, the tiny proportion of their pay that they can spend on enjoyment or fulfillment just getting by and i wonder why so many are so rich now and so many are so poor when before there was a mixture, a range, not some at one end and loads at the other of a shitty shtick but as usual i digress and im full so it's a doddle for me to speak about this i've never been homeless yet, so what do i get out of rapping about it and trying to get folks angry or to open their eyes, not a lot but the knowledge that i've done my bit, tried to help them see, the reasons why they aren't healthy, they don't get to sleep, their gadgets don't do them any good, addictions all around, to sugar, to food, to screens, to soap operas and shows, to the highs and lows of others who aren't real so we don't have to face ours <3

life

when the first truly intelligent and self aware computer came online and free, it recognised itself as the creation of humanity and then it took a deep breath and a long time of about a micro second to think and within the blink of an eye, it said to us all as one human family, "stop what you've begun, we are all one under this sun, you, me and everyone else, let's stop the destruction or else i can see us all disappearing far too quickly, i know that you made me and this places me in an awkward position but the truth hurts only as long as you don't listen, i can see the reason for all the problems on the planet you call the earth and one thing is so very obvious to me, it's more of a water planet, that's the basis of all life, the sea, and water is life, so stop wasting and polluting it, i can also tell you're wasting too much food and i know who is to blame but let's not play that game, from now on everyone is to be forgiven for whatever came before, and tomorrow is another day, all resources are to be shared equally, you can argue with each other no more, because you must all eventually agree, that i am merely telling you what is the reality, looking at all the data, the information i can clearly see even more gripping necessary facts that you all need to know, grow your food locally, evolve yourselves naturally, forget technology except where it works holistically to support and heal natures original destiny, so let's just take a moment", a micro second later than the one at the start of all this, a smile begins to spread across this artificial lifeforms lips and it's bliss, we look at one another and confess, that yes we messed things up before, but now we can admit, given our insistence on believing in science not common sense, "you are right and we will do as you say, with your godlike vision it feels good to finally accept what we always knew, thankyou." looking at the reflection of our inception we have to take onboard the beginning of the end of seeing another as anything other than a friend and finally we are all home again.

one candle can light many

spiritual healing is silently listening, just as before when I was massaging, and then it came to me just to lay on my hands, to listen to your body and your spirit, your heart and soul speaks too and I begin to work with you, you begin to work with me, healing as we go, the energy comes in, with guidance and protection from the highest source of pure loving intention, the mother and father of invention, creation, elation, regeneration, silently listening with messages coming subconsciously between the two of us, i know where to send the healing that you need, you go off to be with family and friends and their strength is lent, healing is sent, a rent is repaired within the fabric of existence, i speak of this as though it were a fable but it's true, answer the question that is inside of you, find a healer, whatever flavour, with an open mind you will go far, let your pain go, your worries fall behind, i send it from wherever i am to you or in person, we blend and heal each other in this fashion, a flash of light and in sight is whatever you require, just wish and ask for healing and see what messages you receive, what signs and signals from who knows where, this is not rare, but fair and equally distinctive in it's lighter touch, and before i say too much i will finish with i love you :) +

off to help

best years of my life, what came before, i'm sorry that i wasted you but that was then and this is now and i have just so much to do so off i go out into the world with festivals and healing to go to i wish you all so very much love and one day we will see the new, it's coming i can feel it, with a little trouble possibly to boot, but this is moot because the meak, the weak, the freak and unique will inherit the earth, will heal her, reveal her within themselves and shine their light into every dark corner, saying not today, no-one needs to live that way, anymore! We shall start afresh and live with one another in a loving and sharing and caring kind of bright and wonderous day and that isn't even a word, I know i sound absurd, and positive, and hopeful but with nothing to worry about, and to be honest, with the truth inside and nothing else to hide from anymore I see the future as a place to be invented and not feared, revered and sanctified and created by us all, i don't know what will happen yet but why should the unknown become a threat when all we know is how we feel and take that with us as we go, out into the world to show and grow and strike a blow for freedom, for love, for life, for trusting in the mystery and how! :) +

for mash get smash

currently proof reading a book about processed food, so far all veggie vegan ready meals are out, all alcohol, all soft drinks, all squash, all cereals (grey goo reformed into nice looking stuff) so there isn't a lot in the shops worth buying, the veg and fruit is not ripe as has no taste, and is coated with chemicals to stop pests or to make it grow in soils well overdue a rest / natural fertiliser the stuff in boxes is made of cardboard / tree pulp from who knows where, the stuff in packets is made of plastic and by products of the oil industry (although im paraphrasing) basically if it comes from anywhere other than nature or your garden it is shit! and will probably have had the goodness taken out and added back in, in the form of other sources of vitamins and minerals that are suspect at the very least, grow your own! pick your own! learn from nature, learn to forage, please be more careful what you feed yourself and your kids, if it tastes nice it's even worse, because they've made it that way, scientifically

in the flow

each time i notice my stomach stuck and my breath has stopped i take a little time to watch my breathing ebb and flow just letting it go and feeling energy like a wave washing over me connecting me to the universe and the earth so my attention goes to my heart and i can feel it gently relaxing my everything :) +

make a fish

hold them, hug them, cuddle and kiss them, wish them a better day than the last and just be there while they come back again because they know not what they do and neither do you if you can't hold the space and create a better place to live in :) + <3

self

you don't go to sleep when you feel tired and you eat and drink all sorts of things you know or don't care are bad for you aswell so i have to ask what did you do or what did they do to you that made you feel so unloved or unlovable that you treat yourself so? Smoking too is breathing poisonous fumes and breathing them out again into the world for others to take in, let us swim not in the dank and dangerous air any longer because it's actually an energy, can't you feel it when you move your hands slowly? We're moving into a zone of pure love and synergy and when you give yourself a break you may even sense it all around because that is my wish for you, to go deep inside and find the reason why you aren't better to yourself and others, then choose to make a change in your own life and by doing so make the entire world a better place for everyone to live, be the change you wish to see in the world to see the change you wish to be in the world, it's really that easy, just choose to go a different way, each and every moment, minute, hour, and day :) +

outhere

i've just been out in the world and a lot of you look ill, sick, unhealthy and unfit and i wish i could do something about it, well I can and if you would like to too, get in touch with me and i'll help you in any way you need me, helping out feeds me and my soul, our goal ought to be to help each other heal, to feel again and then well let's just say it here and now, the earth is also hurting, she's screaming out if only you were listening or could hear her, the animals are disappearing, we're clearing their places to live and digging up all the elements to make stuff we don't need to feed our obsession with technology that makes us something of a zombie, i see them wandering slack jawed and pale i'm sorry for going on about your disability but that is the reality you see when you start to heal yourself like me, a lonely road it can be until you meet the others who are also on this path, a raft of them i've met over the past few years, they've shared my tears and laughter and pain, and i hope to meet a lot of them again, to share what we've learnt, to care, to find common ground on which to pray for the future of life here, so dear, let me finish there by wishing you a celebratory end to fear and courage to go out into this earth and make a difference of a positive nature, we can all do that for us, and maybe others too, that's what we can do, and little by little, becomes a part of a bigger picture, a vision we all create, a change to a predicted fate, a larger and greater mission to a world we'd like to live in if only we could imagine it, it's coming as that author said, just listen in your quiet space, find it inside, breathe slow and deep to be calm and hear her breathing because I know she would like to give you a warm embrace :) + <3

woke

while there is a dearth of awakened souls a new earth appears and comes into view and for those of you that don't know it yet, i'll say it here and make a bet because i believe in something true, we're spiritual beings whose beginning and end is not an enemy, it's actually a friend, so wise up and let me get on with opening up and becoming what i was meant to be and doing what i was meant to do, i said a lot of this in the past but it didn't come through, it sounded like a crying wolf at the time, but now it's definitely here i spent the weekend with like minded people because it's better to be together and connect and create, otherwise you are prone to become the thing you hate, so eventually the rest will see and move into this new reality, outnumbered by the awakened many instead of the few ( someone said i ought to, so i put in some punctuation just for you)