the world i came from to come to this exists outside of time, a state of bliss

the world i came from to come to this
exists outside of time, a state of bliss.
you see in nature as much as the silverback roars and beats his chest
power and control are illusions, it's the feminine that rules the roosts,
they give life more than the men do, so whatever they say goes given
that they have a much closer connection to the source of it all usually
obviously there are exceptions and the rules round here are generally
supposedly god given but in reality the laws are made by and upheld
by men, in the positions they refer to as power, another big mistake.

sex for instance, in this world it has degenerated along with most of
us into a situation where if the common assumption is to be believed
what generally happens these days is people go out get fucked off of
their heads then do things they would much rather do with someone
they loved if they could only listen to or speak of their hearts desires

for me that kind of connection is reserved, has become so, recently
and over the period of abstinence, celibacy, and down right disgust
with myself for hurting someone i loved dearly, who needed to hit
rock bottom on their own, in order to build themselves back again
up from there, it's become what it once was, a spiritual thing not
something you give away, or as it seems to me these days just
a way for a man to wank himself off inside somebody's warm
body or for a woman to get what she feels she deserves not
to be honoured or joined in love but to be treated like less
than she feels inside, as a whore, because sex sells and
if she gives it away maybe one day that man will love
her for who she is not what she gives so readily...
so am i insane or as that lad in the pub said,
making it very unlikely that any woman
would want a bar of me or summat
like that, along those lines, given
all the crap i went through this
summer and unashamedly
posted on here, now to
my shame, i admit
i feel bad, for
saying it all
though
now
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