fuck off and die or live the choice is yours

i wont compete
the reason why i wont compete anymore
wont fight unless in self defences no more
is cos something, ok dancing, listening to a
rythymic beat has put inside my mind body
something of a prancing prattling nature one
more time again, poetry isnt any good to me
if it doesnt rhyme and as much as i would like
to write without everything coming out prose
or prosey or a posey of words i dont know it's
taken me over this need to express something
i dont know what it is, it's something amazing so
nice and lovely the way it feels to feel again more
than that its living and loving life and death again
for they are the two impostors not triumpth and
defeat
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the love of friendship seems so much better than
fighting for something someone when it shouldn't
come to that i dont believe in that never did don't
wish to fight or lose myself in the struggle to better
someone else to be better than them when i know
that im better than anyone else simply because i don't care if i am or not
really i fucking couldn't give a shit who is a better football team who is the
best at anything im certainly not its just this rampant desire to open my
mouth and speak even though in person thats the toughest thing i ever
felt like doing, when i was young talking wasnt didnt seem much fun i
preferred to avoid conversation because it seemed like a fight once more
like a battle of wills to see who is right or wrong rather than what is
and that is the crux, im not mulling things over so much as letting
my head do that and my heart and gut and cock not so much
i dont believe in thinking with that or lusting after something
that isnt an object anymore but a subject, we are all subjects
not of a queen on earth unless its nature and to her i hope
we mean more than life itself because she keeps on creating
things that live and then die and the ones that make sense
the ones that survive that pass on something of worth
she keeps going into the future for someone unknown
fucking reason which i can only guess at might be
might mean something more than the struggle
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