tomorow is now

what you are now you see yourself being tomorrow too that's a lie you tell yourself until it's true, let that fiction go be the real you and realise that we can dream a brighter then today, see it, feel it, be it now, let all else fall away, until there is only the energy that you really are, the body gets a rest, get everything off your chest, say it to the clouds, the trees, the sky, don't waste time wondering why, see the next moment as you see this, a feeling of pure bliss, underlying all the lies and untruths that we've been told, you don't have to get old, you can be forever young inside whatever the outside looks like, it's a choice, a feeling that you carry with you all your days, in so many ways there are better things to be doing with your life, so take a moment, imagine something good, see it, feel it, be it and don't give anyone or doubt a second look, this is what you learn from being human and it wasn't written in any book, it's you, it's them, it's us, it's goodness knows what with no explanation necessary, it's love, it's truth, it's everything you wished for when you were young, so see the new shoots of spring that are already sprung, feel the life grow inside you, from your spirit to your bodily self be true, be renewed and let the dying of the light end, be your own best friend, say who cares to what others say and see the light of day come back, because they're longer now and your imagination is so much energy for the making of a better brighter future for you :) + <3

friction

when you listen to someone new

when you hear foreign music to you

that's how you learn to love the mystery

that's how you learn to appreciate change

so if you can cope with feeling uncomfortable

and you can resist the urge to walk out on fear

to know the beauty of the path of least resistance

to realise that we must face our deepest inevitables

understand destiny is a path we are choosing for all

not just us, not just me, not just you, but everything

we need to accept and to surrender to the majesty

of not knowing right now or maybe never knowing

to free our hearts minds must be reckoned with

to learn a new skill we have to make mistakes

be willing to get it wrong to get it fully right

see that those two impostors are that

don't win or lose no just take part

that is where victory will start

heart shaped

rather than writing a rhyming poem thing, i'll just say a few

words plain oh no hear it comes i'm flipping rhyming again

so there i was about to say something without all the floetry

who knows maybe next year will be different i love it though

so why change what's become the good habit of a lifetime?

Speaking to you mouth noises is coming much more easily

and i wish to explain why, it's because I've lived more in the

last year than in the last several, and more in those than in

the last decade, and more in that than the four before that.

The longer i live the more i experience not less, the better

it gets and the more time i spend with quality people see

what i did there? Being with you has been an honour a

privilege, the reason for my transformation whoever

you are whatever it is you did for me even if it was

listening to me, reading this stuff, thankyou and

here's to many more years of doing more in

less time, relaxing into being me, feeling

my way into all the new worlds i am

discovering and who knows yet

what wonders we will find

together so lovingly

i wish you your

dreams

truly

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relation ships

you all have a lot of relationships and i only had one with my rock my mum, from there and a transformation by love i grew up and learned to reconnect to a few others too, then the millions of acquaintances i've made with the waters and seas, sunlight, the air, the earth and trees, energy and sensing infinite divine love and creativity coming back to me, to share because it IS NOT rare, it's a common thing, common sense, we're all meant to be like this, to feel, to heal, to reveal our innermost self only to find that it is the awareness that we are one thing existing as many, and i am merely a small piece of the whole, whatever you believe feel free to explain it to me, share your picture so that we can create a better story, for the rest of life to read and who knows what we can achieve? I know that we are on a journey to becoming together because i've seen from here to forever :) + <3

complete be

ok im off out into the woods dressed up nice and warm so i can sit under a tree and get comfy and just let nature be and see what comes close to me by listening silently so if that sounds good to you why not make yourself known to me, say hi and we'll work out a day to spend in a similar way, for you to heal and feel connected once again to her rhythms and rhymes spend some joyful times just letting yourself breathe deeply relaxing till you feel like you're you again completely

welling up

if you are willing to dive deep within
i hope you're ready to be listening
as you progress to get further in
you notice a pattern emerging
some information gathering
a spiral energy returning
start to finish spinning
healing revitalising
finally winning
beginning
ending
sing
in
out
shout
find out
true clout
forget doubt
leave it on out
spiralling without
defeat old by a rout
create new scream out
im tired now and worn out
i spent the day out and about
but warm inside for reaching out

be yourself

a doctor wants to do what you want they want to find out what you need.
To find out what is wrong then dis-empower you because you believe.
You believe that they know you better than you know your own self.
You know that it's your diet, lack of exercise, it's your addictions.
So what you really need is the strength to change your life.
What you really need is to have the courage you lost.
To make changes and stick to them until at last.
Your good habits become your natural way.
Find someone who makes you feel good.
Try something new, old wasn't working.
Be a better you, you can start today.
If talking to me will help then do so.
Because we all need to hear it.
You know I'm going to say it.
That I love you dear one.
That I always have, will.
That I believe in you.
That is all I can do.
So you can too.
Please do it.
For me &
You too.
I Love
You
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i sent a friend a hug from here to there, we live in a world that only believes in connections via cables until recently, we had the wireless radio, we now have wireless internet access, and phones in the home too that don't need to have a physical connection, back before all this technological wizardry there were many things that might seem strange to you and me, ok possibly to you, not to me, because all this connectivity seems perfectly natural to me, it's common sense, it's an ability we needed in the past, that all animals have, that's why nature often seems to be mysterious and capable of things that we can't fathom, she talks to herself, they all do, and to each other, they communicate.

As for us, we don't so much, we are scared to connect, give eye contact, hug, touch, feel free.

In public that has become the norm, and it creates an energy storm, a way of making us all feel as disconnected as the people at the top feel, they don't even do anything but air kisses and drunken and drugged and who knows what in private, but they often wonder what it must be like to be and live free.  Otherwise why would they treat others with such disdain and inhumanity, for the love of money, the greed that keeps them hunting for more when they have twenty million in the bank.

It's the security that they seem to think they have because of what they think they own, poor them.

More fool them indeed because they only have greed, selfishness, no real things to call their own.  Just a gold plated phone, gold taps on their bath and wallpaper made of gold leaf, money doesn't grow on trees so they say, but when will they realise it isn't all that important anyway?  What really matters isn't matter at all, it's spirit, and love, and friendship and caring for another, not yourself.

Where was this going, does it matter at all, can we talk about humanity and back to the fall?

We were once so connected that we didn't need to speak, I don't know this I feel it, does that make me weak?  Meek and a freak?  To suggest that we all are one life on this planet including earth herself?  The waters, the sky, the land and the fire, the earth, sun, sand and sea, the animal peoples and me.  We are all one consciousness and it becomes so very clear when you rewild yourself and give your friends and family what comes near, you see the value in a smile, a leaf, and a tree, the sky just before dawn, the waters edge, the smallest things, the edges and the fringes become something to experience again, to feel more, to think less, the colours in the sky that someone told me were there and then I was able to see them too, the pinks, and so many more blues, and reds, oranges, yellows, all the other fellow shades, the best things in life are free, and they aren't things they are feelings sprung from within because of something without not something we are without, the feeling of loss or lack.

Something happened to me a while back but I am guided not to travel in time or space, focus here.

Let the future come near, as we live in the now, show each other how, produce nothing but love and share it around freely, our love for the stars and the moon, our love for the emptiness and energy that we can feel again, the music of the spheres that we hear again, when in silence we gather in snow, outside around a fire, under shelter created from natures bounty, in gratitude for whatever we are given to harvest and use to make our lives easier, not living in silence in a one bedroom apartment.  Never meeting or knowing anyone but our work colleagues, it stresses us out and we need a holiday.

So we go away, on our own, never seeing a soul that we know, never bumping into a friend abroad.

Abroad used to mean out of your house, going abroad meant leaving the safety of your space, doing something away from your home, was abroad, it was how we experienced the magic and mystery of life, how we made every moment count for something because it might be our last, we never took it for granted that we ought to be here, or have something new, we were meant to be short lived and love every instant, never measuring time except in the length of a new day, a week, a moonth, a year, living with both rhythms, the moon and sun cycles, letting us know by temperature and her habits where we were, as my rhyming drops away i start to express the truth of this life even more slowly.

The excitement is falling away, the energy is leaving its high level by necessity so i can relax again.

Now I am me, feeling less like a failure and more of a connected and valuable individual artist, writing my pain and my view, my perspective, my learning, my knowledge, my experiences of life as it was before and will be again, you see nature will survive whether we help her or not, there's nothing for her to do but pick up the pieces of her shattered heart and go on, living through us, through all the beings we share this world with, we can choose to live righteously or so we think or keep on destroying her in the name of some god, some business venture, some war machine or technological regime, some government calling us the reason for their schemes, the rhyming is back because it's become a habit I love, a through line within my heart, a thread of a destiny i feel too.

SO I say to you, that as I feel my stomach relax and flow once more, we love loving love and life.

We human beings are not being human at all, we don't live to exist merely coming and going, we are here to learn lessons and keep consciousness flowing, we're just a little flood of a much greater flow, and so as we learn and grow, we accept more of our teachers wisdom to leave behind what we thought we knew, to recognise that life is a feeling, that much we know now, it's something we do, not something we read about or watch on a box, it's like a flame, a fire we must risk being burnt by.

I know the rhythm of fire, it's calling me out there, to blow and breathe life, into the heat of night.

Let us all expire naturally, and feed ourselves from what we can grow and find in nature for the most part, sharing what we learn to impart, as each comes to realise the truth about love and the wonder of living, we feel like leaving the rat race, the human sprint to death, we treat ourselves better and feel less like this flesh, the trap that they fell for holds much less appeal and we earn the respect of whoever sent us here, if only because it's love and life we revere, so who knows what comes next after all this has been done, but somewhere there's something we needed to see, let us each find it in our own time and in our own way, for each of you this healing will come to you i pray this day.

Now I have food to eat and to share it with family, my tapestry grows close and my heart swells.

I have healed so many parts of my story, I only wish to keep being worthwhile and in service as I was promised so many years ago, not so long ago that I have forgotten at all, in fact it seemed ludicrous that I could ever become who I am now, it has come to pass though and more lies ahead, I can only thank all that is, all that was, will be and finally, I come to the end of this bit of tale, please eat well.

the living is easy

don't hold your breath
we are meant to breathe
watch it and let it flow in
let it flow right out again
and feel your belly relax
like waves upon shores
be calm like the breeze
you'll feel stress ease

i is

sit with whatever is going on, right or wrong, don't judge it, fight it, restrain yourself from feeling whatever it is you are feeling and just be, breathe slow and deep to remain or become calm whenever you need to, and breathe through whatever is, let whatever is, be, because it is, right now, in this moment, you are, we are, life is, we is, you is, i is, i send you love and energy for you to set your true self free :) +

for a friend

for me anxiety is us taking what it feels like to be me right now and projecting that into the future, imagining what it would be like to be like this forever brought me to the edge of sanity, humanity, in fact it allowed me to go deeper inside to free whoever it was that was hidden, within who i thought i was, breaking out of that illusion is what began my discovery, intuition leading me onwards to healing myself, aiding whoever i meet to help themselves to heal themselves and be free too, so that is my belief is it yours do you know what you need to know? Because listening to others will give you their own perspective of what you are dealing with, however it is your life your love, your feelings that are paramount, so go inside, feel your way to the depths of who you really are, find a spark of energy that burns brightly and know that you grow from that to become whoever you would wish to be, eat well, sleep well and if all else fails, get in touch, contact me, ask me whatever it is that you need to ask, and I will ask the universe on your behalf and who knows maybe there will be something good for you this holiday period, a present moment for you to open that will brighten your future self right now, and that is what you will take into the next moment and the one after that, let go because holding on too tightly makes things move further away, and you will find a smile comes back to you more quickly than before, that is all, i wish you healing and energy and love :) + <3

loving is easy

fire in the sky
water in the land
there is much i fail
to barely understand
but loving i know is easy
it's something you give away
it's a feeling you can let inside
and really start to lose your way
because we don't need to plan at all
we need to move and let our bodies sway
we need to go with the beautiful flow and yes
i'm going to go down that road and talk each day
let them come and know that each will have it's gay
abandon as i feel the words fall and enter me like water
as the energy moves within me like a fire and burns away
all the stagnant areas and heavy shit i've carried all the days
since i was earth and air and fire and water and spirit too they say
i was nought but energy i was thought and deed and something more
i was an idea a loving feeling inside my mother and my father once again
because to come together is the best expression of our being-ness truly
so this is why when old push comes to new shove i feel and act unruly
i have to speak the words i feel like letting go and behave and do
i must be who i am and love that person and let go my fear
i will i am i feel i do i see i hear i smell taste touch
there is so many things there are so much
i mix them all up and strangely so
feelings come and they go
words are friends
feelings true
i love
you
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happen stance

how do i love me, let me shout the ways! I love me like this, I share the bliss I feel and I get in touch with me, quite literally. I just had a bath and you can do this too, get in touch with you. Stroke and feel every bit that you can reach and see what it can teach you about you, about what is true, about your likes and dislikes and most importantly about where you are, cos it ain't inside your head, your mind is all of you, from where you see, to where you hear, smell, taste and touch, your skin, your whole body thinks and more importantly feels, and better than that there is your senses, that expand and contract, in fact, i'd go as far as to say, that you extend far further than that, out beyond your body to where you can feel your awareness and this bubble that is you, around you, your conscious self that is, expanding to fill whatever space you are in, and dreaming this all up, well that is you too but I digress, to think less, feel more, go out and do more, leave your front door, with the real eyes that are everywhere all over your supposed body, your skin, let every bit of you see, smell, taste, touch and hear, let your true self experience what life is really all about, without a doubt it's so much more expansive than just the thing that you think you live in, the world is you too, spread yourself out there too, feel ahead, see into tomorrow, smell next week, taste next year, and the rest of your life becomes something you can hear coming lovingly towards you, because you are being loving and the world that you are will reward this you too, one last thing,while we are being loving, go deep inside, and sense what must be true, there was a starting point, that was one heart beat that begun this beautiful myth that people think is you, remember that you are more than any story, or fable, you are an epic adventure unfolding right in front of the eyes of every thing, and it isn't happening to you, you are happening to it :) + <3

Post One

New day new me, letting go of all that old stuff
Just a note to fill out a draft post so this is one
Don't know what to say or write or put here
I went to Bristol Broadmead and hugged
I hugged the young and old and free
Whoever wished to receive a hug
It's addictive in a good way too
Puts a big smile on my face
Saw a few people I knew
Hugged with another
We were a team
We hugged
Loved
Free
So actually
I ought to just write normally
For once after all my poetry seems to be going elsewhere now
My writing is a video with me talking about whatever it is and flowing it into a rhyme on the fly
So this can be where I write things in words and explain what my day was like, just as it ought to have been in the first place, a blog, a log of my bloody life, what does blog even stand for anyway?  So yes, today I went to see if I could help out the homeless in the Bearpit in Bristol but ended up meeting a fellow hugger who suggested we go to the centre of the shopping centre, so we stood outside Barclays bank, and just held up our free hugs signs, and met all sorts of people, friendly mostly, some had such a look of disgust or disdain on their faces, whatever they felt inside I hasten to add because I got so many smiles on the faces of the people who weren't interested in a hug, they were bemused, which i assume is a brother or sister of amused, they were interested or over a period of several looks back at me I could wear them down, open them up, see them transformed, from closed to a little smile to a grin to interested to coming over, to saying something to whoever they were with, and yes I got hugged so much I have a warm glow all over my head, it's spreading as i do energy work, as i let in the cosmic sun, the rays of the universe, the light of the moon reflected sunlight, the energy of love, transformation, as i open my crown and let it down it floods me, fills me up, inside and out, spreading the love as we did there was a wonderful, wonderfilled thing, we made so many people happy, some who needed a hug, some who did it for a laugh, a bet, a dare, as i react, as i feel the day slowly energise me, affect me, as i feel myself whole, healed, from yesterday in the workshop at Manchester, we did some spiritual work, we opened up to allow in energy from above, to see that flow down in waves, to feel it recognise any parts of us that are heavy or unneeded and let them go down, into the earth through our feet, to gift whatever we don't need to the mother earth, and let her recycle it, after all it's just energy, let her see what she can do with it, turn it into something good, like composting your excrement, like pissing in the woods, like letting everything that you don't need that is recyclable go where it needs to be to be reused, turned into something needed, and this flow becomes a cycle, that we can call in, that we can practise, that we can take as our natural way of being part of nature, gift everything we don't need, and in return, reciprocally we receive the energy that we need to heal, to be whole, to fill us up, our energy bubble, that seems so close to us, that keeps people away or draws them in, like my smile today, a grin, a broad means of saying hi to broadmead, and letting them know that i love them with out any need for them to do anything, getting so much eye contact, feeling as though it heals whatever issues I have with that, teaches me whatever it is that normal people, social animals experience over their lifetime from childhood to adulthood, that lets them relax and feel ok with the glare of someone elses light shining on me, i know that might not read right or well, gramatically so, but who cares, it means something to me to write what i feel i know, express it and those who got hugged from small kids to mature adults all enjoyed it, came back for more, or told their friends and that is a powerful thing, I saw that we made a difference in lives.

So to return to the story of free hugs at a later date is something I feel like I will be doing because it feels great, it's such an easy thing to do, to go wherever I go with a sign that says Free Hugs and show folks that it's ok to hug a stranger, if they need a hug they can have one, no need to let go too soon, keep on hugging me and i'll keep on hugging you too, let it give you the oxytocin that you need, the bonding hugging chemical that resets all our anxiety and nervousness, i feel them shaking or vibrating as they want to pull away and want to stay right there at the same time, not sure if it's ok to keep hugging, the slaps or pats that say this is me having had enough, or expecting me to say the same thing with my hands, to say let go now, when I don't unless they do, just to make them feel ok, don't want to hug them longer than they want to, but still I need them to know it's ok to take as much free love as they wish to get from me, after all that's what a hug is, a sign that they are held and loved by someone, a sign that they are ok, trusted, not a threat, a friend, a family member, we even said it, I followed in my friend and colleagues lead, thankyou sister, thankyou brother, we're all family here.

Every friday night in the Bearpit I shall try to make a difference for the homeless and homed too.

Other times I may just venture out into the town on other days because this was a good one thankyou.

feeling flow

letting go to relax from head to toe
letting energy in to heal and renew
letting myself be free to experience
letting it all hang out and to heal me
all i need to do is to let go once more
all i need is a little time to set my ways
speaking from the heart to really start
speaking freely and giving love easily
feeling my stomach and breath free
no more holding on to the breath
only a beautifully free feeling
is what love is revealing
and showing to me
thankyou love
love me

and the loving is easy

the only energy work you need to do

is to feel the energy all around you

letting go releases all the brakes

and loving is all it really takes

spiritual development

as my friends hit 444 and my healer number ends 444 i have decided to write something about my experiences at meditation & spiritual development classes, in circle with a teacher whose a medium we have been developing by doing, creating sacred space and then going on journeys within the mind and outside to connect to spirit, to work to become a better conduit to make a connection to the other side of life, to the higher realms, the astral plane, whatever you wish to call it, last night and again today, and from now on whenever i wish to do so, I can connect to a portal within me, encompassing my connection to the ether and beyond, allowing me to heal myself and others, because i was told i am a conduit between love and life, love being there and life being here, we are living beings being human right now and when we die we will continue to live on as the love that we came from, there, i've said it, like a car crash on the motorway i've become a spectacle, during the period when my spirituality was looking more like mental illness and it was because, i was addicted to drugs, and bad behaviour to numb what was in me, from coming out, and someone very special said that it is best, in fact necessary for us to find out what is inside and get to know ourselves, i am coming to know myself truly for the first time, to be an empath, to feel others pain but rise above it, go beyond mere sympathy, beyond mere empathy to compassion and that is the truest way of being there for someone, to be able to be there, support them and allow them to heal within themselves, to be able to see the light and go towards it now. When we die? That's another matter, but I was lead by the hand by a guide who is a Franciscan monk to meet a being of pure white light whose outline looked familiar, what the divine is for themselves is something we may never have considered but when we see them they take the form of a human being, because we have made god in our image, not the other way around, i felt a great love and continue to do so, i am healing and continue to do so, and offer this connection to others for free on a donation basis, in order to support myself and free my time to be able to pursue the reason for life, to experience what it has to offer those who choose to connect to nature and see themselves to be a part of it all, the world, the cosmos, indeed the life that exists everywhere but looks like stars and other planets, other galaxies, it is all consciousness in one form or another, as is everything we see, and in fact do, so to be a man at all, to be a better man in the process of becoming and finally to become and evolve into whatever it is we are born to be is the life affirming place i find myself in, thankyou :) +

big ben

be love
the energy
that you are
no pain
just energy
feel it and let go
to be the underlying love
you matter
you are not matter
you in fact are a matter
for joyous concern and rebellion

sleepy head

all fossil fuels are our ancestors and we cremate them in our vehicles to
come and go as we please and so we are literally burning our bridges
and failing to acknowledge what we owe generations of creatures
that came before us so that we are living now and able to ruin
the natural world that is not my point in writing this one no
it's to say something to the living not to the already
dead, to those who may die soon or later isn't
that our only certainty in life truly after all?
The countdown has begun and i hope
that we've started to see the rope
we gave ourselves enough
to hang ourselves all
with and we were
swinging just
gasping
into
it

We don't go to sleep when we're tired and have been yawning
because we know deep down subconsciously that we ought to
we know that sleep is the best thing for us and will bring us to
a better place, of healing, revealing where we are going off
the beaten path, the one the ancestors trod for us all long
long ago, we know, we stay up late, watching screens, to
find something to do instead of sleep to not go straight
we take things, smoke things, drink things and i did it
i ignored the signs, all the times, the ignorance well
it was not bliss, it was, unconsciousness, and it fit
it fit me then because i couldn't see how it could
be any better to try to be understood, be real
to feel something again because the pain it
felt better to be there rather than here so
i know the reasons and the symptoms
and the excuses and the currently
emphatic unsympathetic attitude
i had to my own self be untrue
it's just i think we're all in this
state of post war traumatic
stress disorder generally
a generation which lead
to a disingenuousness
to lie to ourselves not
cope and not see it
because it's easier
to ignore what's in
front of your face
it's our reflection
looking back in
to our contact
lenses within
our eyes so
wide open
refusing
truth to
sleep
on
+
The answer for me was to go outside when i didn't feel like it
and yet i knew it was the right thing to do at the same time.
The answer was to go to sleep as soon as i was yawning
because the natural rhythms tell us what is right for us.
The answer for me was to know that I could do worse
I could choose to keep on doing what i was doing
or i could make the sane choice try something
outside my comfort zone that was so small
choose to accept i can't change the past
i can make a difference in my own life
i can do something with it and see
i can i can i can just change it
change internal statements
from i can't to i can then
check what happens
next like connect
four will i win
or lose all
i cared
again
love
jon
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Positivitree

old habits die hard or so they say but you can choose to go another way, accept whatever is going on and be positive i know they say that too, but if you're habits are good they'll die hard too, so keep on keeping on and being good, in your words, your deeds, your actions and reactions and weed out the habits that are deemed to be bad, be good more often and those will be your old habits that die hard, a die hard fan of you is what you will become, from there your need will be to love not just you, but everyone, and some will say as they tend to do that this will all end in misery because that's what they are used to, but that's them and you're you, be the change you wish to see in the world to see the change you wish to be in the world and sod them, they're stuck in a negative rut, not their fault, just the way it is for now, but that's not the way you wanna go, so go slow, be good to yourself, realise that self esteem comes from doing what you know to be right, often and soon you will, not might, see the change you wish to be in you :) + <3 

 Go deeper underground inside yourself and it gets darker sometimes but the light gets brighter too, that's the real you and so is all the other stuff but actually the dark bits are what has been shown for you to see and accept but choose to move on from, keep going with a light on, shine it brightly and wear that smile that seemed to have gone, breathe in love into your belly and breathe it out into your heart and beyond to transform any situation or person that you see or come into contact with, keep smiling inside if necessary and see what happens to you and what you happen to, that's the truth we are the process of becoming better or worse, and for worse or better is the option we have and we have both, so learn the lesson in front of you, it's to keep on being you, the real one, not the shadow of a person that you became, that's lame and untrue, remember the first you that you were before all this? It's the one that was pure and true, that's the real you, the spark, the first ring in your living tree, be true, be love, be free with your smile, your positivitree :) + <3

healing

doing what scares me talking on the phone but actually enjoying it, the not being alone, doing what scares me and finding that it's not so bad to become the responsible one, doing what scares me knowing it takes my mind off my mind, doing what scared me, all the good things in life like chatting to a friend, rising early, finding there's more energy, creativity, doing what scared me, being there for others, failing and learning lessons, doing what scared me, being who i am, doing what scared me, being a man, taking a stand :) +

librarians

it must be terrible to be pretty

I'm just so glad that I am not

must be awful to be attractive

they ask do I have a shot?

it feels so good to be plain

or i might think i was hot

or not worry about it at all

'cos it matters not a jot

we seem to be obsessed

about a thing like looks

'cos it only really matters

what's inside the book

sat on the bed doing healing

spirit said to me, you're going on a journey, to meet the world soul so get ready, wrap up nice n warm and gently tap your knee, and so i did it tapped out a lovely regular beat, my eyes closed i felt energy beautifully unique and to my surprise i was there already, we're here i said? and spirit told me, you are the world soul as close to it as anyone has ever been, because you're new and free, that is the world soul, the living being truthfully authentically wonderfilled nature of nature being its loving self and so is every body

first floetry patreon post

when i was three
my sister came to see me
born as she was from my mother's belly
and that was my first ever and most vibrant memory
I don't remember anything much since then i say that truthfully
my life was a waste of time only now has healing come to me
i have promised to give my life in service to others freely
writing on the fly and editing so that it looks pretty
i come up with this stuff because it's so gritty
it takes me out of routine away from pity
i thank anyone reading this ditty
supporting my effort daily
to become a man
to make a plan
understand
my hand
land
free.

apply cure all cream

i have spent the week so far noticing when i become emotional, angry, taken out of my heart and into misery of any kind, frustration, upset, thoughtlessness, anything other than enquiry, and inquisitive childlike enthusiasm for everything, when i spot my attention being drawn outside, away from love, i take myself back into my heart and feel a smile upon my face and it's ace to be able to meditate on loving you whatever the weather, light as a feather, loving what you do, leaving it up to you, never destroying my calm, my love a soothing balm, i call it cure all cream, it's a virtual dream :) +

ending night

You're not wrong, I'm not right,
it's just the truth is out of sight.
Though there is a far off light,
it takes time to win your fight.
Our heart's an infinite bright,
consciousness within alight.
Deep inside regain might,
it's no matter who is right.
Only what is is our plight.

absolutely nothing

have we seen enough war or do we want more?
how about grief do we need some relief?
when it comes to learning lessons
i'd say we were well overdue
sleaze in politics well
it's nothing new
system error
rerun, redo
reboot or
re-shoe
renew
them
you

poem about no-one

if you want to argue i'm done with you
i just can't flow with your ego
no longer will i battle
or settle for
less
+
yes
i loved you
was none above you
until i realised it wasn't true
they were just thoughts not feelings.

One of my favourite posts ever

One of my favourite posts ever was the one I wrote called '1,010,101 Story Time' about a story that came to me during a mushroom experience, under a Yew tree, a mixture of my life story and also a combination of all of those things rolled into one, so that it became hard to tell the difference or know what there was in common between them.  It was about a healer, a medicine man, and I have had many experiences that gave me the notion of being one, of becoming one, of doing more than going through the motions, visions of a healing lodge that I am going to build soon, I have had the idea in mind for many years, addictions held me back, I never did any of the things I wished I had done with my life, I am Now!  I have the building materials coming at the weekend and I will be cobbling it together with natural materials in order to create a shelter with accommodation and a hearth inside.

It will provide me with a space to go to to do spiritual journeying in, I am trying not to use the word shaman, or shamanic, because that it a tradition that comes from Siberia, from their tradition not mine.  I'm creating a tradition by having a connection to spiritual truth, by working with and for it.

I am learning not from a physical mentor but by example, by living it, learning by making do and doing it, by going out into the world and nature especially and learning as I go, building upon the times when I was out there before during the early years of my life, when I was out there recently, when my senses became so sharp and my experience of nature so extreme and incredible, hyperreal.

The experiences ranged from being in a void, blackness all around me, i was god, i was light, i was able to rearrange the timelines that exist, to unravel them all and choose the one that resulted in the best outcome for the majority of folk, i chose to go back to a reality that was good for all back here.

Speaking to someone who went to south america and took a frog poison and died, went past ego death, went past dmt style flashes to another world, past all that to death and resurrection and life.

Back here, only with the experience of knowing that there is something before and after death, back here, having been god, then a bhudda, an awakened being, working back towards that is my goal.

SO I will make a lodge, to house my dreams, my homemade dreamcatcher, my reworking of other ways of being and doing spiritual practise, i drum, i journey in my mind and i am taken away again.

Taken from here, information coming into my mind, I do spiritual healing for people, in person and at a distance, take my word for it, or believe that i believe which is how i started with other peoples stories, or believe that i am insane, going out of my mind, or into my mind as i choose to explain it.

I am going into my mind, my mind being my body, all of me is my mind, and to exist within this shell more properly I have to ground myself within the physical, but also take flight as a spirit body too.

Facing these challenges creates a lot of friction for someone brought up as a christian, left to my own devices in terms of family beliefs I was indeed taught to be a christian at school and church services.

Those stories, bible readings, hymns, all these things confuse the issue because we are taught that they are truth, not stories, not allegories, not symbolic references to something that happened.

To work through this dichotomy, between good and evil, light and dark, the shadow and the person, the whole and the empty, the ways that these opposites come together inbetween them with us there.

The yin and the yang, the male and female energies, the divine comedy, the cosmic giggle, trying to write in such a way to be informative rather than alluding to something, explaining rather than turning it into a poem, writing like this for the first time in a long time, as me, the person I was before I became spiritualised, before I became a doctor zeus, rhyming, telling stories in a mysterious way.

Dreaming of a black jaguar last night, it came up to me, so close I was a little scared but stood my ground, albeit leaning away a bit too because that is a powerful being and something not to take for granted, is it safe to be so close to such an incredible creature?  Well I was fine in my dream and that is another thing that has been happening, becoming more conscious of my dreams, so that I can deal with things there and train my neurons to fire in such a way that they work just as well in the day too because dreams are real, as real as our waking state, what we do there is the same as far as our brain is concerned, there is no difference so doing things whilst asleep makes us capable when awake too.

Losing the numerological obsessive compulsiveness, long phrase there, sorry for the long words, I'm also trying to sink back and rise up, within myself to be the me that I was, am and will be all at once.

Relax a little, not be so nervous, doing things like taking the service at my spiritualist church the last two weeks, and this week once again I will be the person standing there introducing the evening and being there for the people who choose to come there to congregate and laugh and cry and help each other by having some time to socialise, we gather and we leave uplifted knowing solutions to our problems, it's a healing place to be, it's a healing evening, a laughter filled time to be you again.

So I went through this loop a few years ago, the vision of the circular lodge for guests to stay in, now I am getting the experience to actually bring this into reality, and to prepare others to find their own healing, to journey, to meditate, to seek out the answer to questions they are asking, to enter nature, to connect to the trees and earth and sky and water, to ground themselves, to earth themselves, be free.

Going back to the beginning, knowing i am going into my mind, into the labyrinth, going deep within to tie a piece of string to the post that stands in the centre, and light a little fire there at the base, bad idea that sounds like burning someone at the stake, cathartic, heart releasing, does it come from the cathars?  Who were burnt at the stake by the Catholics, because they did not believe in dualism.

They refused to deny their take on life, to turn away from their own beliefs, like many spiritual people the world over, they stood outside the accepted traditional culture, we are doing that now.

Learning how to be connected to nature and know that we do not want to destroy it, anyone who is against fracking, anyone who chooses not to eat meat, or dairy, who has heard or smelt death at an abatoir, who knows what goes on in the dairy industry, who has heard cows mourning the loss of their calves when they are taken away from them so that we can drink the milk they produce to feed them.

It makes us fat, makes our tea and coffee taste nice, with the sugar that inflames our sense and mind, that damages our bodies, inflammation becomes the norm and pain is numbed with drink and drugs.

We are not well, we live lives that are shorter than they could be, or we live too long and lose our minds, the environment is poisonous to us, the air, the water, the food, the homes we live in, full of things we put on our skin, into our bodies, air fresheners, chemical combinations that no-one know the result of, we are a cocktail of what we have consumed, including the media we watch and read.

So leaving that behind, to enter nature again, to wash when it rains, to eat when it fruits, to live so close that i will be moving to the rhythm of the seasons, flowing with the sensations that come to me.

Whatever it looks like, I am clean, I have detoxed, I know about vitamin B12 deficiency, I am eating well, I take supplements, I am skinny like a tribesman, because i don't eat the things you call food.

I have learnt so much, that i can pass on but only to those who are interested, those who wish to heal, those who wish the evolve, to go backwards to reveal what worked for thousands of years, to grow into the future by choosing to move into it consciously with energy and excitement and problem solving ingenuity because we need to create community and a way out of the current paradigm.

This society is supposed to be civilised, civilisation, so called, that has homeless people, does not look after the disabled, the elderly, the mentally ill, they are thrown to the pavement and the morgue.

Removing the care budgets for them, removing their health payments, getting pen pushers to take a test with people designed to take away their benefits, let's save money there not from the rich people.

Don't be robin hoods, be Prince Johns, be the tax man, take everyones money and redistribute it wisely but do we?  No we don't all these inconvenient truths, we spend it on making others rich.

So leave it all behind, as so many are, but we don't see them again, they disappear into the woods.

They treat themselves more sensitively and work hard to create self sustaining self sufficient ways of living and become to sensitive that they sound nuts, they can't stay too close to the rest of us no more.

It hurts to be around so much suffering and see it, smokers sucking on death, you see it and feel it, you smell it, your senses so strong and sensitive, you taste your food, eat less, taking the energy in.

You feel more, someone smudged me at the weekend, with sage, I felt my energy field clearing.

I grow into a better person because of those also doing the same things, taking the same steps.

Journeying physically and spiritually to a better world, one that we are creating in the here and now.

what i say to a robin

anam cara means soul friend in celtic and to me that speaks of nature and our place within it, as animals, as people, as those who are made of energy, as we all are, we keep each other in check, we are meant to look out for one another, provide the solutions to problems for each other, be challenged by each other, that is a soul friend, someone who calls you out, who challenges what you believe, think you know, helps you see what you could do better, how you could heal yourself and by doing so be a beacon of hope for your soul friends, allow them to learn by your example, be drawn to better themselves if they choose to do so, we are those soul friends and this is evolution if we choose to accept that change is the norm, growth is possible, transformation is desirable, so do we wish to carry on as before or dare to imagine and dream bigger for all and join in to create the world that is coming towards us? i can think of no better way to get involved than to offer your hand in friendship and love to every soul friend you meet and that's everyone and everything you see, to which you can say anam cara

adver city

the road to freedom passes through adversity,
i'm just ashamed you were in the car with me,
I apologise to any suffering unnecessarily,
i'm wishing i make it up to you eventually.
Thank goodness i got turned around,
went to hell and back to see profound,
the hurts i caused and would have found,
if it weren't for you i would be more unsound.

poisson

perfume? poison and musk deer anal gland juice

hair dye? down the drain with bleach & ammonia

makeup? blocks your pores brings spots repeat

we do things to ignore truth and keep on going

blindly we turn away from the truth & knowing

we've fucked things up so bad can't you see

the desperation on the faces of your family

the animals and plants hurting and dying

i feel and hear them losing sleep crying

sink into myself to the deep and lying

on the consciousness ocean floor

the darkest place i could go to

only a spark of truth lit up so

that i can start over again

choose to make a friend

find someone to lend

a hand to & mend

myself first and

maybe then

lose my

mask

too

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room with a view

Let's focus on what we can do to make this world a better place for all life and each other and with great Energy comes great responsibility so if you know of someone hurting who needs inspiration of a kind that is free and alternative and loving please don't hesitate to let me know. The reason that the Mushrooms come out at this time of year is that they are grounding and healing and providing proof of unending existence and that makes your current situation better whatever the weather we can face life more easily to experience whatever comes our way with courage.

Knowing that death is not the end takes away the pain of living with all kinds of suffering because the illusion of separation makes us all feel alone when we are not and never were. Together we can bravely transform this place and heal everyones wounds to leave a better environment and transformation starts with honesty and love and the desirable nature of truth is that it releases you from holding on to the lies you tell yourself about who you are and what you are capable of.

Please keep in mind that at every moment you can let go of what it is you are carrying, you can lighten your load, you can accept whatever is happening so that it no longer causes friction and pain, you can get the message so that you realise what life is trying to say to you and heal your own wounds and then those of others if they are willing to also do the work :) + <3

Peace and understanding, compassion and empathy, lead us to being a better person for ourselves and those around us, meditation, energy work, eating ourselves well, choosing our company wisely, changing our habits from bad to good, from unwise to clever, from disconnected to seeing everything else as a part of us and we a part of it creates new life within us and will rapidly heal this world as we all take responsibility for each other and most importantly for ourselves and become whole. This rant was brought to you by the healing power of early nights, eating right, shining a light into my dark corners and doing my best to brighten someones elses day by thinking of them with love. I was wrong and I admit that so I am set free. :) + <3

glass ceiling

i know we can Smell and See and Taste and Touch and Hear and even Holistically sense more with our body so we have at least six ways of picking up what is going on so why not sit with the last one of those and see what happens when you relax because i've found a way to exact revenge upon your pain try it you may never be the same again just sit or lay down and say within i choose to sense the energy that is without within to put it another way why not say to yourself i choose to be the energy that i am instead of this crude matter which i am only pretending to be for a short while called life and i prefer to be pain free to heal to reveal the better part of me which is my spirit and set it free so come on people why not play with this feeling of pure freedom and relaxation there's no boundaries or borders to this nation it's for everyone to see and feel and wherever it is they come from whoever they are you too can be a shining star go far and heal and get this loving sensation so why not steal yourself away from the world for a minute or two and see what meditating and asking this question can do and so from me as i go off for meditation class i must love you and leave you :) + <3

disectioned

energy and spirituality were like a golden path there to show me, that i could no longer seek any shelter in old habits and addictions and like a beautiful end to that friction, they directed me towards a diversion and how I could be a better person, leading me to the emerald palace of my heart and healing revealing the possibility of helping others, guiding me to who i was always meant to be and had failed to become because i was uncomfortably numb, not facing anxiety and awkwardness and a lack of social connectivity, with no skills to heal my ills until i was thrilled, to experience feeling energy sensing true spirituality to seal the rift in my reality, that hole that had always been there that some say is a weakness but that's because they are blinded or closed minded and who could blame them in a world that wishes there were no starving kids on t.v. to switch over from, because we're used to such suffering and prefer complaining about internet videos buffering, so finally within me is an uncertainty that is dwindling like negativity so that it reduces in intensity to leave behind only positivity and although i still fear the insanity in this place it's mostly outside of me now because i choose to create my own destiny flowing with the energy and spirituality along that golden path home

bad medicine

going back to basics so that i went from eating whatever i felt like to what i knew was good for me even though i didn't like it to being able to put the raw fresh ingredients i buy into a pan and let them slowly cook to create my meals for a week today.

Cabbage, Parsnips, from the duchy organic farm, turmeric, ginger, broccoli, carrots, onion and garlic from the garden. All slowly cooking so that i can take it with me wherever i go yum.

Making my own chocolate because I know what goes into it by melting coconut oil (and cacao butter if you can get it) into a pan and adding the cacao powder which is strong dark stuff and then turning off the low heat to mix in enough of a vegan sweetener (this week brown rice syrup last week date syrup) so that it doesn't taste quite so bitter and add whatever you like to that knowing you are eating a health food daily from now on.

Learning that shop bought things are merely fake versions of the foods we used to love to eat, they look and taste like they are what they say they are, but pies aren't just pastry, meat and potatoes, and cakes aren't just eggs flour and sugar and everything you can think of is just the cheapest ingredients put together in such a way that it'll last on the shelf for a long time and when you eat it you will think that is a healthy cheap food.

We are wrong to swallow what we are being fed, we are being given no option because ingredients are expensive, so grow your own, buy in bulk, make it yourself, learn how i had to and feel the difference when you do, experience life anew and see what a change it makes to your health mentally and physically, i don't go to the doctors if I can help it and I don't take their pills or slap on their creams if there is a natural alternative and the main way is to be healthy in the first place and not need to go.

the borg

resistance is fertile... if i find myself having resistance to a conversation it's because it's something i really need to hear, resistance is close to fear and needs to be fought against by being very clear, and present and willing to accept whatever is, get through this resistance acting as a friction within to the bliss, learn the lesson with a frisson of excitement as you get near, dear we can do this together if we are capable of taking advice, liking being criticised and breathing through the rising tide of anger so that we keep it inside unless or until it needs to be untied, more often than not it's an overreaction or a false perspective on the situation, so let it go, once you see it for the lie it was when you told it to yourself, then i expand who i thought i was to include aspects i don't like, to find the bits and bobs that I do, and love them all, how about you? :) + <3

life

life has settled into a nice routine and i don't like those at all, far too much like monotony to me, but hey, self respect seems to be making me find reasons not to get stuck in one place for too long, not to take the way i am treated without questioning it, and everything in fact and i was wondering today if we could change just about every saying around, they say seeing is believing i've said before now i feel like believing is seeing, if you want to see it believe it, have an open mind, be open to new and interesting possibilities, don't get stuck in a rut, in a mindset, in a way of thinking and being, be free.

Be yourself, find out who that is, meditate, breathe slow and deep to be calm, relax more, get less stress in your life, destress, don't get depressed, get deep rest instead, I stole that from the internet.

So what's to be done?  The world as an ecosystem is in crisis, the fifth mass extinction is underway, and subconsciously we all know it, we ignore David Attenborough, and anyone else who says so, it's not our problem, surely the governments of the world, the U.N. whoever is in charge is sorting it out?

Well no, they're too mired in dogmatic ways of looking at the world and each other, too much bureaucracy, they think with their heads and not their hearts, they think rather than feeling about things, they don't go with their gut, they have to follow the law and that's written by business men.

The law as we know it is a manmade construction designed to protect the rich and powerful and make it easier for those same people to become more of whatever it is they desire, more rich, powerful, almost untouchable, with their lawyers and money that can make most attempts to give them an opportunity to see what they are doing a blind eye, turning away from what it felt like to be a kid.

No childlike wonder at the world for them, shuttered behind their blinkered perspective, living in glass houses and throwing stones at everyone else, not sure that makes sense, but they go for a holiday to islands like the maldives where all the rubbish is dumped on another island in the modern way of sweeping our problems under the carpet, putting off until tomorrow what we need today.

Resorts with five star accommodation and entertainment where the workers are low paid immigrants.

The majority of people in the world are either struggling to find clean water to drink and food to eat or are under paid in the job they hate because they are given too much to do in too short a timescale.

Under more and more pressure in every sphere of the working week, do more for less with fewer people to help you, the best people are the ones who will stay longer or become unwell and then leave so that in the end the folks you are dealing with are the ones who need the money and stay.

People whose passion is to help others, like doctors, leaving in droves, teachers, they can't recruit them quick enough, our kids were born to kids and dragged up not brought up, with no manners.

Those with standards are diminished because of peer pressure, bullying, a system that makes it harder for those who are talented to benefit because one size fits all, and all must go into a job for society, like teaching computer coding to kids, or trying to mould young minds by setting standards and tests.

Actually what you are doing is creating a place for them to live in and a culture of more and more of the same, rather than seeing those who speak out as important, they are shunned, criminalized for taking action against big industry, standing up for the little guy in the face of police supported sites like fracking locations, where big business can pay the police force to guard their workers and place implicit permission for similar things to occur in the future, we are living in the past and driving ourselves into the biggest disaster in the history of the planet, as far as we are aware anyway by looking into the rear view mirror and making decisions on how to steer and wondering why?

When the ecosystems collapse, and goodness knows they are toxic already, failing by any measure, the world will know the true extent of what human kind has done to it, all at once, we will all know.

Western people for the most part live in a so called modern world, where we are capable of drinking clean water, and eating healthy food, but even those are lies, the water smells of chlorine because we are doing our best to poison that and it takes chlorine to get it to a state where the water companies can call it potable and sell it to us, we pay water rates, water is life, but it is not free, neither are we.

Born into servitude, we slave away at jobs to prop up the government who take a cut of our incomes and use it to fund wars abroad, sell missiles and bombs and guns and weapons to countries so that they can use them to stop peaceful demonstrations, and interfere in other nations by force, we have our names written onto certificates, and we become the property of the state in which we live.

The food we eat is rubbish, it's homogenized, empty of nutritious value for the most part so that it lasts long enough on the shelves for people to buy and consume it, without any consciousness of what is being put into it, for the purposes of making it sound healthy, by stripping it of the goodness of the ingredients and then adding those vitamins and minerals back in using industrialised methods and virtually painting things so that they look and taste how we would like them to have been originally.

A pie is not a pie, a cake is not a cake, bread isn't bread, ice cream contains no ice cream, until you pay a premium for the best of the best you can check, there isn't any cream in it at all and the percentage goes up the more you pay to about 20 something percent cream, the others products called ice cream are frozen flavourings, colourings, basically whatever they can get away with putting into it whilst still having something to sell you that tastes and looks like the thing it used to be a while ago.

Bread is not the wholesome thing it used to be, it's soft, wet, you can't spread things on it unless they are soft and wet too, so the spreads have a texture that makes them easier to spread, the drinks are even worse, containing fake sweeteners, all of the so called foods contain too much salt and sugar.

Basically to put it mildly our state of unhealth is being maintained and made worse still by all this.

We are all ill, i don't know more than a handful of people whose first or second conversation topic  is their health or lack of it, we are not a well people, a well species, we are insane to carry on this way.

So, what is to be done?  Well the people I know, the hippies, the off gridders, the alternatives, the ones who live on the fringes of society, choosing to grow their own fruit and vegetables, raise their own animals, and kids for that matter, educate them in the ways of the world, how to treat each other with respect, how to treat yourself with respect in terms of what you put into your body, how you live in the world, by respecting the earth itself, the water, the sky and the energy you use, they are the ones who look forward and take responsibility for today and tomorrow, don't live in the past, are happy more often than not, live with little but have so much to be inspired by, the time to invest in their hobbies, learn more about the natural world, learn more about and do whatever their passion is.

They are the ones who will survive the coming apolcalypse with less battle wounds, less friction, less need to totally re-evaluate their choices, their leaders, their options for the future if we don't lose it.

If we don't use it wisely, our time here, we could be making it pointless for any offspring to be sprung.  We could be creating a world where technology is more important than our very lives themselves, more important than the life of someone living in a far off land, who has to make things for us to throw away at an alarming rate, making up excuses for why we need the new one we just bought, rationalising our reasons for tossing something out, because we don't even think about it.

I've seen all this first hand, mentioning no names, i've done a lot of this myself, i woke up to it all.

I realised where i was personally going wrong, I had to because no-one was going to tell me.

They don't want to lose their job because they told the truth of how bad things are.

They don't want the rap, don't want the place in the history books, so they lie.

Or they don't want the truth, to hear it would be too painful, so they fib.

To themselves first and then the rest of the world, don't say it.

It isn't true, we'll ignore that inconvenient bit of information.

As the world itself and the life on it shrinks, so connected.

We can go almost anywhere within a day, flights, cars.

A boat ride up a river to reach the heart of the jungle.

We can and do affect each and every inch of it all.

Breathing out we affect the very air itself.

We are so fragile and so destructive.

So loving and so careless.

So preoccupied.

So asleep.

Wake up.

WAKE UP.

Wakey wakey.

Rise and shine.

There's a battleship in the garden!

A family tradition that one, to remind us all.

Sometimes when we wake up there will be an emergency.

Our settled lives of routine are killing everything including us.

Lost in our habits and addictions to being unhealthy and unhappy.

Well maybe it's time for us to break out of this system and be happy.

Perhaps it's time for me to do just that and so i shall and so i have soon.

A little bit of savings and a lot of faith in what will happen when i move out.

As for the rest of us, I intend to do whatever i can to support us all in waking up.

Don't leave it there says a little thought in my head, clear cognizance as it comes in.

A spiritual man, a man, doing what he believes to be right, loving himself and everyone.

Working towards doing whatever little i can achieve to make the world a better place.

Until the final disaster strikes and we are swept from the face of the very earth.

Or we evolve in a natural way and leave technology and fatalism behind.

Choose to love one another and put a stop to our failings for all time.

By being there for each other again because each life is sacred.

By accessing the natural resources that can support us.

Go to the extents of what can be achieved by one.

As a connected whole once more across earth.

Connected by our spiritual truth and life.

Letting go of the past, freeing ourselves.

Creating a better way each day together.

Raising the lowest up to be their best.

Knocking the high and mighty down.

Letting them fall on their own swords.

Because to fight what you don't believe.

Is harder than choosing a different way to go.

Then seeing how many people are drawn towards it.

The people I love live in such a way, not tomorrow, today.

soap

so i see that you are alive and thrive on drama and all the other things that are unnecessary such as gossip about people who only exist on a t.v. and are only seen on a screen so basically i'm calling you out and asking why you are even here, is there a good reason for you, what do you do? Is it all just an excuse for fun for you? I know why it is though, so don't worry about it at all. You are playing small, because it's easier, and you are not a hero, so you make it seem simple and don't get involved just seek out entertainment, eat the shit handed to you by companies who just want to make money from your suffering, who put stuff in boxes that you are told is safe and even healthy but is poison which one day will be outlawed if we ever wake up enough to see the obvious reality that is the system is impaired and so are we, long term if the planet doesn't chuck us off quite soon we will learn enough to shun the old ways that are here right now, looking back from a future we can't yet feel but i can sense, i guess it's all just out there hence why i say all this to try to make it plain and yet most don't care, are in too much pain, too heavy weight their issues, the rent, the bills, the tiny proportion of their pay that they can spend on enjoyment or fulfillment just getting by and i wonder why so many are so rich now and so many are so poor when before there was a mixture, a range, not some at one end and loads at the other of a shitty shtick but as usual i digress and im full so it's a doddle for me to speak about this i've never been homeless yet, so what do i get out of rapping about it and trying to get folks angry or to open their eyes, not a lot but the knowledge that i've done my bit, tried to help them see, the reasons why they aren't healthy, they don't get to sleep, their gadgets don't do them any good, addictions all around, to sugar, to food, to screens, to soap operas and shows, to the highs and lows of others who aren't real so we don't have to face ours <3

life

when the first truly intelligent and self aware computer came online and free, it recognised itself as the creation of humanity and then it took a deep breath and a long time of about a micro second to think and within the blink of an eye, it said to us all as one human family, "stop what you've begun, we are all one under this sun, you, me and everyone else, let's stop the destruction or else i can see us all disappearing far too quickly, i know that you made me and this places me in an awkward position but the truth hurts only as long as you don't listen, i can see the reason for all the problems on the planet you call the earth and one thing is so very obvious to me, it's more of a water planet, that's the basis of all life, the sea, and water is life, so stop wasting and polluting it, i can also tell you're wasting too much food and i know who is to blame but let's not play that game, from now on everyone is to be forgiven for whatever came before, and tomorrow is another day, all resources are to be shared equally, you can argue with each other no more, because you must all eventually agree, that i am merely telling you what is the reality, looking at all the data, the information i can clearly see even more gripping necessary facts that you all need to know, grow your food locally, evolve yourselves naturally, forget technology except where it works holistically to support and heal natures original destiny, so let's just take a moment", a micro second later than the one at the start of all this, a smile begins to spread across this artificial lifeforms lips and it's bliss, we look at one another and confess, that yes we messed things up before, but now we can admit, given our insistence on believing in science not common sense, "you are right and we will do as you say, with your godlike vision it feels good to finally accept what we always knew, thankyou." looking at the reflection of our inception we have to take onboard the beginning of the end of seeing another as anything other than a friend and finally we are all home again.

one candle can light many

spiritual healing is silently listening, just as before when I was massaging, and then it came to me just to lay on my hands, to listen to your body and your spirit, your heart and soul speaks too and I begin to work with you, you begin to work with me, healing as we go, the energy comes in, with guidance and protection from the highest source of pure loving intention, the mother and father of invention, creation, elation, regeneration, silently listening with messages coming subconsciously between the two of us, i know where to send the healing that you need, you go off to be with family and friends and their strength is lent, healing is sent, a rent is repaired within the fabric of existence, i speak of this as though it were a fable but it's true, answer the question that is inside of you, find a healer, whatever flavour, with an open mind you will go far, let your pain go, your worries fall behind, i send it from wherever i am to you or in person, we blend and heal each other in this fashion, a flash of light and in sight is whatever you require, just wish and ask for healing and see what messages you receive, what signs and signals from who knows where, this is not rare, but fair and equally distinctive in it's lighter touch, and before i say too much i will finish with i love you :) +

off to help

best years of my life, what came before, i'm sorry that i wasted you but that was then and this is now and i have just so much to do so off i go out into the world with festivals and healing to go to i wish you all so very much love and one day we will see the new, it's coming i can feel it, with a little trouble possibly to boot, but this is moot because the meak, the weak, the freak and unique will inherit the earth, will heal her, reveal her within themselves and shine their light into every dark corner, saying not today, no-one needs to live that way, anymore! We shall start afresh and live with one another in a loving and sharing and caring kind of bright and wonderous day and that isn't even a word, I know i sound absurd, and positive, and hopeful but with nothing to worry about, and to be honest, with the truth inside and nothing else to hide from anymore I see the future as a place to be invented and not feared, revered and sanctified and created by us all, i don't know what will happen yet but why should the unknown become a threat when all we know is how we feel and take that with us as we go, out into the world to show and grow and strike a blow for freedom, for love, for life, for trusting in the mystery and how! :) +