97% of the money that 'makes the world go round' doesn't exist.
The world has been spinning on its axis quite happily for billions of years mind you, but the system that we are all increasingly forced to live under, to have access to services, to get anywhere, to do anything is the money system. Only a few percent of the 'economy' as it is known actually exists as paper money or coins. The other 97% only exists as numbers on computer screens held by banks.
Literally and I know this is hard to get your head around at first, but all that 'money' is debt, all those numbers are IS DEBT. Every loan, every mortgage creates 'money' on a computer screen which has to be paid back, with interest, but that didn't exist until that loan or mortgage was created.
The banking system and our currencies are setup to do just that, to create debt and pass it around, the only real money is the paper stuff and coins, and if everyone wanted to get hold of their money, have it in their hands, there isn't enough, they couldn't. Look at what happened when Northern Rock failed, our money when deposited becomes theirs to do with as they wish, to gamble so that they can pay us interest on our savings. The debt itself gets passed up the chain until the richest can 'buy' things with it, like superyachts and mansions, but in reality they are worse off because they are so far removed from the land, from the very nature of life, protected as they are in their gated communities, secure properties, alarmed and patrolled, served by maids and butlers.
When the system falls under the weight of such illusion the richest will have to rely on the food in their cupboards just like we will, they will have to go begging on the streets just like we will. Only they don't know anyone, perhaps they will have a space in a bunker somewhere, maybe they have provision for this possibility, to protect them against nuclear, biological, chemical attack or riots.
Revolution is the only answer, either a revolution in the way things are structured or a physical revolution, actually the people on the streets fighting for their very lives and the lives of their loved ones. I can see that the greed of the richest, of the politicians, of the bankers prevents them from doing what is necessary, some have realised that you can't take it with you, so do some good with it, share it around, live more sensibly, actually know the people who work for them, the community they live in.
Why do you think terror legislation has been brought in, why freedoms are being removed?
Because they know and have known for many years that sooner or later the system will fail.
The lights aren't on at the U.N. and other such organisations late into the night because they are working out how to solve the problems of the world, no it's because they can't sleep.
Literally they know that the worlds problems are getting worse, poverty has increased the world over.
We are on a collision course and they know it, so they do what they can to protect themselves, the governments of the world have contingency plans to ensure that they will survive, that the system can continue after disaster, they are literally making it possible for them to call us terrorists because they know that it can't go on for much longer as it is.
Whilst companies like Cuadrilla and others go after more and more fossil fuel resources, which require government backing and tax subsidy and the use of more and more dangerous techniques to go after dwindling natural resources, at the expense of literally drilling into the ground beneath our feet, and pumping chemicals into it, to break up rock and remove gas that in the short term will keep our homes warm and our lights on but actually only again keeps their status quo going.
It will line the pockets of the people we have to buy that natural resource from...
We allow them to sell us the very resources that our naturally ours.
Because they get it for us and sell it back to us.
The earth is being destroyed by us.
In our names, by others.
We are complicit.
So revolution has to come, a financial crisis is inevitable because there is no other way for this to go, without change to the banking system, without a sensible way forward that empowers the people, that lends money to small business not big, that does not increase house prices merely to line the pockets of the rich, over and above rises in wages, artificially the housing market has been the banks win win gamble.
They don't care if they give you a mortgage one day and take your house back the next, because they can take the money they lent you, that only existed on a computer screen, pocket that in bonuses, and lend the next person a new mortgage, literally selling the same house twice for the same price. The person selling you the mortgage also has one, it's the top few, the people that stand to make and make and make and they feel unsafe. People with 25 million in the bank don't feel as though they have enough money, no amount is ever enough for them, there will always be something else they desire, they want, not need.
So you and i are terrorists in all but the need to go onto the streets and fight the power.
Unless everyone does something now, rather than sitting back and hoping things will change it is going to come to a head, look at ukraine, look around the world, the t.v. news doesn't speak of the problems the world over, or the successes because it is propaganda, the B.B.C. whoever the world over they would rather talk about celebrity, vanity, gossip, speculation, over and over they don't tell you what is going on because it would inform you, make you angry, make you realise the truth.
They are selling your planet out from underneath you and it's a death spiral that we're in.
Literally there are the resources available to make this world work, but they don't.
They see the poor in other countries as less than human, customers for their shit.
Free trade devalues work of local producers, buy our crap that makes you ill.
Makes you fat and lazy like we are, so you die earlier, live to work and die.
How can you remove yourself from a system that thinks killing works.
They go around murdering people with weapons they manufacture.
Using the lives of the poorest families as fodder to create 'peace'
A peace built on the skeletons of the dead who barely lived.
Young men and women sent into areas we wish to use.
An ancient malice that began with feudalism, began when men and women chose to see themselves as the representatives of gods on earth, seeing themselves as more important than another, literally devaluing every other until today the bankers are the capitalists warriors, their battle cry PROFIT
Something has got to give, thankfully technology and natural common sense gives us a chance to live in harmony with the environment more easily, to live off the grid, to remove ourselves from the debt trap, it takes not competition but cooperation, despite the fact that government insists on getting involved in things that don't concern them, using the excuse of safety and security to spy on the very people that they claim to want to protect, when there is no difference between us, only their false flags and banners waved to suggest there is. We are human beings, nationality is imaginary.
We all wish to live free, to be able to create, to live from our hearts, to work together to build.
Not destroy the world for the sake of a few...
It makes me mad and upset constantly
so I have to remove myself from it
as soon as i can whilst the rest
just go on miserably dying
whilst they barely live
a paltry existence
in debt to those
few immoral
bankers
Sunday, 23 February 2014
Tuesday, 18 February 2014
Progressive Psychedelic Trance
Progression from one thing to another
I started out going to Psychedelic Trance Parties, I call them parties but really they are nights put on in clubs, or outside of an adhoc nature (legal basis unclear) ;) they are tolerated up to a point, you might know them as raves, basically a sound system in a place as far away from other people as possible, or in locations that were or are industrial, or music festivals.
So basically I would go to these "parties" and take some drugs usually and dance my tits off as it is known in the vernacular... ;) I met all sorts of amazing people, the atmosphere and the drugs and a little alcohol usually, as alcohol tends not to be the drug of choice, or used to excess quite as often as it is in "Normal" clubs and so it's a very friendly often slightly older crowd.
The age range is massive from 18 as often as not up to 80 plus, everyone is welcome and that makes for a very good night to be had by all, it's a tribal atmosphere in this sense that anyone can and usually do come along, you can wear what you like, there's no dress code and actually the more far out the outfit the better in many cases, fancy dress costumes, all sorts of homemade creations...
So progression, at first I was just there because I had met some people who were into the music, some were dj's who actually played the tunes, it's trance music usually, techno, house, beats, breaks a mixture, if it's got a vibrant beat and you can dance to it, it may be there.
When I first started going I didn't know many people and I'd be lying if I said I knew many very well, but a large number have become friends, generally as time goes on, you see the same faces, often as I spread myself quite thinly and went to many events in various locations you get to know a lot of people and as time goes by you introduce yourself, get to socialise with them, get to know them.
It's a very family and loving atmosphere, the drugs help often to remove people inhibitions, there's a lot of hugging and it's a very safe feeling you get when you are there, everyone looks out for each other, i myself found over time I began to spend more of my evenings watching out for anyone who may have overdone it shall we say, as a shy person inside and an extrovert outside, when my inhibitions have gone i'm very chatty, will often just go over and start up a conversation with folks.
As someone who has often felt a little left out of things, gradually over time that becomes a choice, I recognise when someone isn't having any fun, or looks a little lonely, and I'll go over and say hi, make sure they're having a good time, I'll end up going round and round like a proper social butterfly.
Also over time I spotted the people who make sure everyone else is having a good time, the staff, the people who are there to work, not to play and have fun... I'd go over and ask them when it was their turn. The make-up people for instance, spend all evening painting peoples faces and such, as the lighting allows u.v. paint to glow in the dark and look fantastic often lots of people want to get made up, so I'd make a point of offering the hard working artists a massage for their tired head, neck, shoulders and back, when I'm comfortable and relaxed it comes easily for me offer and then do so.
In this way I found that could give something back and one particular time the person I was massaging commented that I had cleared her aura, now I was just trancing out, eyes closed often, in my own little world, feeling the music doing what came naturally, moving to it, enjoying myself.
I hadn't really had much experience of this sort of spiritual talk, although I had been going to avebury for the summer solstice for several years at this point, and I was open to finding out more...
In some ways the progression from where I was in 2000 wanting to go see the total eclipse in cornwall and ending up in the car park at work with a load of others at lunch time watching a cloudy sky and barely seeing anything of this natural spectacle, as few did anywhere in the u.k. but still already at that point, I knew inside that there was more to life, that I could feel a need to connect to it.
So as I was massaging, and when I was dancing I would often in my minds eye visualise energy, over time as I have continued to dance, I play with dancing, I experiment, I will try out new moves or let myself relax into it and not worry what others think, with my eyes closed that's easier anyway, you can't see anyone elses reaction to whatever you are doing and it's easier to go on a journey with the music, to the beat, I got my rhythm back, partly from the drummers drumming at avebury for the solstice, partly from tapping my feet at first to the dance music at clubs and at party at home once.
Feeling like I was reconnecting to myself in many ways, feeling more open to new experiences.
So as time went on, I've developed as a masseur, without thinking about it, I found myself making movements that I now and occasionally at the time recognised from the things a healer, a shaman will do, such as swishing down the body and shaking off whatever it is you have massaged or drawn out of the person, still this was all just quite natural, I never really put much thought into it, I never really felt anything going on, I was quite happy if others did though, that's their perogative.
So it took years really for me to finally feel something happening, i also took up meditation, not so much in a prescribed way, or as a daily habit, i actually added meditation on the breath into my daily physical activity, if i was mowing the lawn i would be breathing in and out and visualising a white energy coming in and a dark energy going out, white clouds coming in dark stormy clouds going out.
All very simple things that added up to a large effect over time, I felt more vital, more energetic.
I came back to who I used to be before, loved going out in nature again, loved the new experiences.
So my massage became a habit, often towards the end of a party, a night in a club, or at someones house afterwards I would feel quite naturally like offering massage and healing as I saw it by this time. Feeling as though placing my hands on people in certain places where I intuited they needed it, working with them, asking them questions to get a better understanding of whatever the issue.
Foot massage is great, I had done a lot of this on myself when I walked 500 miles in Spain in 2009, in fact most of my skill as a masseur came from an initial talent I had always had for taking away others pain, and working on myself, if I felt pain somewhere I would work on it, literally getting in touch with myself that way and learning what worked where, how much pressure to use, it didn't matter on me because I could hurt myself as much as necessary to reveal the deepest of pains and heal injury.
It seemed to be like a maintenance schedule, I just kept on doing whatever felt right, and working on others when they afforded me the opportunity, mostly women I have to say, they are less resistance to having someones hands on them and in social situations it feels far safer to have them do so, some men too, if they didn't have some kind of homoerotic fear, most men do suffer this in some ways.
In our culture men kissing or touching each other has a lot to do with homosexuality and the fear of being seen as that, we even use the word gay as an insult although thankfully we're growing out of that I hope, growing up as a culture as a species, the introduction of other cultures helps, the eastern europeans that have moved over to this country have reintroduced so many wonderful things. There's a lot of old world charm and respect and old ways of seeing and being in the world that were being lost in the so called modern western world and I highly value the Hungarian and Polish men and women I have met and call my friends, they truly are a blessing all the people I've met have been.
No matter where they are from, everyone mixes in beautifully, the world over we all are now.
It's a foregone conclusion that the old ways that work come back to us, in a time of so many new ways of doing and being in the world are literally thrust in our faces, so much short term gain for long term pain, so much is unnatural, forced, vain, fake it makes me sick literally it was killing me.
So as time has gone on, as my meditation, my physicality, dancing, healing, massage, they all come together to allow me to feel over the last year and a half energy pooling in my hands, the timescales are hazy, the parties toll into one another, the familiarity isn't breeding contempt it's creating a network of people connected by their love of community, of all the best values, we are all being improved in so many ways, several people I've spoken to freely admitted that if they had continued to drink to excess, continued their previous life style they would not be here today.
So this energy, in my hands, what to do with it? I played with it of course, I moved my hands around, I would sit and feel the resistance between my right and my left palms, the difference between holding them facing each other, and with one hand to one side or the other, so that as i moved my right hand across in front of my left, as the palms faced each other I could feel the difference.
I could literally feel that I was focussing that energy between them, I played some more and when dancing although at first I was just doing things that felt instinctively right, over time I actually began to dance as a shaman dances, showering others with what in my minds eye was a beautiful energy.
At a party I often found myself looking out over the crowd and trying to imagine them all receiving this wonderful energy, building it up until it exploded and fell on them like rain, or standing behind an individual in a loving way energising them as they seemed low, their dancing slow...
So on and on I played and played, and more recently found I could sense someone elses energy...
Not when i was in the same room, but when I was at a distance, im sat in my house they are wherever...
Literally I could be chatting to someone online, they would say i'm not feeing well, I would say is it a headache, as i had them in my minds eye I would let my hands work up and down feeling for areas of their energy that were weaker or stronger, i could tell someone which ankle it was, the less information they gave me to start with the better, that way I wasn't being lead, I could diagnose conditions, with their help obviously to learn the difference between what I was sensing and what they were feeling themselves, or where it hurt exactly, I played with this skill and found I could use my hands like an MRI scanner, literally in three dimension work around or in front, to the sides, from head to toe, and toe to head, usually I had worked on a two dimensional representation of them in my mind, more lately I can do this with my eye open, and them in my minds eye, with them in my heart.
So I'm going to close with a transcript of a conversation yesterday evening with the name removed...
I started out going to Psychedelic Trance Parties, I call them parties but really they are nights put on in clubs, or outside of an adhoc nature (legal basis unclear) ;) they are tolerated up to a point, you might know them as raves, basically a sound system in a place as far away from other people as possible, or in locations that were or are industrial, or music festivals.
So basically I would go to these "parties" and take some drugs usually and dance my tits off as it is known in the vernacular... ;) I met all sorts of amazing people, the atmosphere and the drugs and a little alcohol usually, as alcohol tends not to be the drug of choice, or used to excess quite as often as it is in "Normal" clubs and so it's a very friendly often slightly older crowd.
The age range is massive from 18 as often as not up to 80 plus, everyone is welcome and that makes for a very good night to be had by all, it's a tribal atmosphere in this sense that anyone can and usually do come along, you can wear what you like, there's no dress code and actually the more far out the outfit the better in many cases, fancy dress costumes, all sorts of homemade creations...
So progression, at first I was just there because I had met some people who were into the music, some were dj's who actually played the tunes, it's trance music usually, techno, house, beats, breaks a mixture, if it's got a vibrant beat and you can dance to it, it may be there.
When I first started going I didn't know many people and I'd be lying if I said I knew many very well, but a large number have become friends, generally as time goes on, you see the same faces, often as I spread myself quite thinly and went to many events in various locations you get to know a lot of people and as time goes by you introduce yourself, get to socialise with them, get to know them.
It's a very family and loving atmosphere, the drugs help often to remove people inhibitions, there's a lot of hugging and it's a very safe feeling you get when you are there, everyone looks out for each other, i myself found over time I began to spend more of my evenings watching out for anyone who may have overdone it shall we say, as a shy person inside and an extrovert outside, when my inhibitions have gone i'm very chatty, will often just go over and start up a conversation with folks.
As someone who has often felt a little left out of things, gradually over time that becomes a choice, I recognise when someone isn't having any fun, or looks a little lonely, and I'll go over and say hi, make sure they're having a good time, I'll end up going round and round like a proper social butterfly.
Also over time I spotted the people who make sure everyone else is having a good time, the staff, the people who are there to work, not to play and have fun... I'd go over and ask them when it was their turn. The make-up people for instance, spend all evening painting peoples faces and such, as the lighting allows u.v. paint to glow in the dark and look fantastic often lots of people want to get made up, so I'd make a point of offering the hard working artists a massage for their tired head, neck, shoulders and back, when I'm comfortable and relaxed it comes easily for me offer and then do so.
In this way I found that could give something back and one particular time the person I was massaging commented that I had cleared her aura, now I was just trancing out, eyes closed often, in my own little world, feeling the music doing what came naturally, moving to it, enjoying myself.
I hadn't really had much experience of this sort of spiritual talk, although I had been going to avebury for the summer solstice for several years at this point, and I was open to finding out more...
In some ways the progression from where I was in 2000 wanting to go see the total eclipse in cornwall and ending up in the car park at work with a load of others at lunch time watching a cloudy sky and barely seeing anything of this natural spectacle, as few did anywhere in the u.k. but still already at that point, I knew inside that there was more to life, that I could feel a need to connect to it.
So as I was massaging, and when I was dancing I would often in my minds eye visualise energy, over time as I have continued to dance, I play with dancing, I experiment, I will try out new moves or let myself relax into it and not worry what others think, with my eyes closed that's easier anyway, you can't see anyone elses reaction to whatever you are doing and it's easier to go on a journey with the music, to the beat, I got my rhythm back, partly from the drummers drumming at avebury for the solstice, partly from tapping my feet at first to the dance music at clubs and at party at home once.
Feeling like I was reconnecting to myself in many ways, feeling more open to new experiences.
So as time went on, I've developed as a masseur, without thinking about it, I found myself making movements that I now and occasionally at the time recognised from the things a healer, a shaman will do, such as swishing down the body and shaking off whatever it is you have massaged or drawn out of the person, still this was all just quite natural, I never really put much thought into it, I never really felt anything going on, I was quite happy if others did though, that's their perogative.
So it took years really for me to finally feel something happening, i also took up meditation, not so much in a prescribed way, or as a daily habit, i actually added meditation on the breath into my daily physical activity, if i was mowing the lawn i would be breathing in and out and visualising a white energy coming in and a dark energy going out, white clouds coming in dark stormy clouds going out.
All very simple things that added up to a large effect over time, I felt more vital, more energetic.
I came back to who I used to be before, loved going out in nature again, loved the new experiences.
So my massage became a habit, often towards the end of a party, a night in a club, or at someones house afterwards I would feel quite naturally like offering massage and healing as I saw it by this time. Feeling as though placing my hands on people in certain places where I intuited they needed it, working with them, asking them questions to get a better understanding of whatever the issue.
Foot massage is great, I had done a lot of this on myself when I walked 500 miles in Spain in 2009, in fact most of my skill as a masseur came from an initial talent I had always had for taking away others pain, and working on myself, if I felt pain somewhere I would work on it, literally getting in touch with myself that way and learning what worked where, how much pressure to use, it didn't matter on me because I could hurt myself as much as necessary to reveal the deepest of pains and heal injury.
It seemed to be like a maintenance schedule, I just kept on doing whatever felt right, and working on others when they afforded me the opportunity, mostly women I have to say, they are less resistance to having someones hands on them and in social situations it feels far safer to have them do so, some men too, if they didn't have some kind of homoerotic fear, most men do suffer this in some ways.
In our culture men kissing or touching each other has a lot to do with homosexuality and the fear of being seen as that, we even use the word gay as an insult although thankfully we're growing out of that I hope, growing up as a culture as a species, the introduction of other cultures helps, the eastern europeans that have moved over to this country have reintroduced so many wonderful things. There's a lot of old world charm and respect and old ways of seeing and being in the world that were being lost in the so called modern western world and I highly value the Hungarian and Polish men and women I have met and call my friends, they truly are a blessing all the people I've met have been.
No matter where they are from, everyone mixes in beautifully, the world over we all are now.
It's a foregone conclusion that the old ways that work come back to us, in a time of so many new ways of doing and being in the world are literally thrust in our faces, so much short term gain for long term pain, so much is unnatural, forced, vain, fake it makes me sick literally it was killing me.
So as time has gone on, as my meditation, my physicality, dancing, healing, massage, they all come together to allow me to feel over the last year and a half energy pooling in my hands, the timescales are hazy, the parties toll into one another, the familiarity isn't breeding contempt it's creating a network of people connected by their love of community, of all the best values, we are all being improved in so many ways, several people I've spoken to freely admitted that if they had continued to drink to excess, continued their previous life style they would not be here today.
So this energy, in my hands, what to do with it? I played with it of course, I moved my hands around, I would sit and feel the resistance between my right and my left palms, the difference between holding them facing each other, and with one hand to one side or the other, so that as i moved my right hand across in front of my left, as the palms faced each other I could feel the difference.
I could literally feel that I was focussing that energy between them, I played some more and when dancing although at first I was just doing things that felt instinctively right, over time I actually began to dance as a shaman dances, showering others with what in my minds eye was a beautiful energy.
At a party I often found myself looking out over the crowd and trying to imagine them all receiving this wonderful energy, building it up until it exploded and fell on them like rain, or standing behind an individual in a loving way energising them as they seemed low, their dancing slow...
So on and on I played and played, and more recently found I could sense someone elses energy...
Not when i was in the same room, but when I was at a distance, im sat in my house they are wherever...
Literally I could be chatting to someone online, they would say i'm not feeing well, I would say is it a headache, as i had them in my minds eye I would let my hands work up and down feeling for areas of their energy that were weaker or stronger, i could tell someone which ankle it was, the less information they gave me to start with the better, that way I wasn't being lead, I could diagnose conditions, with their help obviously to learn the difference between what I was sensing and what they were feeling themselves, or where it hurt exactly, I played with this skill and found I could use my hands like an MRI scanner, literally in three dimension work around or in front, to the sides, from head to toe, and toe to head, usually I had worked on a two dimensional representation of them in my mind, more lately I can do this with my eye open, and them in my minds eye, with them in my heart.
So I'm going to close with a transcript of a conversation yesterday evening with the name removed...
- them :- my shoulder achesme :- the left one right?
- them :-left
- me :- shud be a bit better now but ill keep going and charge you up
- me :- smoked a lot? your chest is weak this week
- them :- dammit man, that's freaky!
- them :- I cut down on smoking loads this year but slipped back into it this week
- me :- knelt here with my eyes closed, picturing you in my minds eye, hands held aloft waving them up and down over the imaginary / real energy body, sensing, vibing, energisin
Monday, 17 February 2014
calm arghhhh! calm calm calm oh shiiiiitttttt calm calm calm c aaaaa llllllll mmmmmmmm
It isn't the event itself it's the bit before, it's the night before, if it's not for a while I've got a lot of time to work myself up into a state before, on the way, cycling, waking in the morning oh shit, im nervous.
I always used to avoid such things as anything that made me nervous which then becomes almost anything that makes you nervous then you start avoiding everything especially those things that make you nervous, anxious, scared out of your skin and withdraw when it's those very things, moments, times when you can be yourself that make life worth living in the first damn place.
so then you go out and you face whatever it was, it's my imagination, my fantasy of how things could be, feeling like a walter mitty character, to be honest I thought he was an actual person not a man in a book, who makes his life up in his head and then doesn't actually do anything in real life.
i've always had a vivid imagination, and a shyness around going out into the world, i've dealt with that over time by either avoiding anything i thought i couldn't handle which was mostly involving communication, i would say hi, someone would say hi how are you, i would answer fine, then that would be the end of the conversation, that meant i didn't have to connect, even with friends the way that you can have a conversation with someone you know well but not actually say anything
all i had to do was let other people assume whatever they liked, nod, laugh at the right times, say the right things to make them think I agreed, rather than cause an argument or even a crossed word
it's really easy, I spent years, avoiding connecting with people I didn't know, wondering what they wanted, then i realised it's a social convention to ask people you don't know and even the ones you know vaguely how they are but not care about the answer, not really, it's just what we say
hi how are you? fine how are you? fine great that's that then
i'm being ironic
these days i actually ask other people how they are and mean it
i don't avoid conversation if i can help it, often when meeting someone i don't know very well or someone i've just met i can be a little overwhelmed, a little over excited and at the point of introductions i tend not to hear or make the point of remembering their name like you should if you want to know it next time, because the stress of that first conversation or meeting takes it away, im too busy making sure im not dribbling everywhere, or spitting on someone, not really but it's all about me, not them, it's hard not to when you grew up being so self concious for some reason
it's an anxiety issue i believe, like i wouldn't like to eat in front of others at school, not primary school, although i was so fussy that i didnt eat much there either, just puddings and plate fulls of white rice, because it was all so overcooked or because my constant ear nose and throat and tonsilitis even after theyd been taken out made my tastebuds bland, my habit was there already of not trying new things, bigger school i mean when it came to feeling concious that others are watching when you're trying to eat, concious of yourself too much and not of others, not connecting, a pattern
i find humans weird, although not so much these days, i guess i've grown to like them a bit more
the rest of nature makes sense to me it always did, but we find ways to be so unnatural with each other, twisted power games, mental fuckups we insist on ego trips and toxic relationships
so i just assumed that after my first relations went awry, eerily scarily over too much too soon im not full grown for this i don't know im too naive fuck this was amazingly romantically perfectly tragic
not going to harp on, plucking strings to make the sound of some song been there done that over and out
but afterwards and i knew i would write this somehow i knew it was coming, i felt like saying it
i figured it would be better, given that along with other things i find im not good at
just not to try THAT again ergh why would i it hurt so fucking much
and to be fair, most other people are so straight laced, so inhumane
so unnatural they want things i don't they want a house which involves a life debt
a mortgage, a death cage, work at jobs you hate or dislike and take no joy from
pay off the house and the stuff in it, to live with some woman who wants stuff
so i figured it would be pointless to go with any of the women i met, cos they want stuff, if i get in their trap, entrapped by their dreams and wishes to be rich then i myself would too
i projected all sorts of things onto everyone, at this point im at my most human
and it sucks although im actually at a low ebb, ive come down to earth with a bump
and as low as i am, i know, it's just a stage, like the bottom of a trough of a wave
there's a higher me, a higher level of being ive been being lately, more an more
so i have to fix this part of me thats exposed at the moment, just be better
be more confident, this morning for instance, going back to what i was writing about at the start of this stream of unconciousness, erm it was the fact that i had luckily only a short time to know something was coming, i was off to visit someone i know vaguely, but have a good feeling about
that made it easier, social meetings are hard for me, if it gets to the point that i havent seen someone i know for a while, the longer it's been the harder it was, what will we talk about? GOD it's been too long, we;ve nothing in common, we dont work together anymore, why are we meeting up now?
not such an issue now, and this was a beautiful opportunity for me to try to make things right
so i cant complain and i tried desperately to stay in the moment i was in, not think or fantasise the next one or the moments to come when i arrive at my destination, its hard cos the mind does that
it goes back and forth like a fucking vcr on acid, or with acid poured in the slot of the dvd player
melting im melting going back and forth through time, arghhhfuck FUCKKKKK it was lovely
i rambled a bit i think, but i was much clamer than i would have been years ago, i find it easy to talk about me, im not going to be sexist here, how can i explain that ive always been inbetween the sexes, always felt more comfortable in the company of women, i even sound a little effeminate, i can hang with the gays and the straights and the guys who honour their feminine sides
much more easily than with the ones who think they have to be tough and rough and say those horrible things about im gonna do this or that to her bits, i never did get used to all that talk
when i first got bored and lonely and had to force myself to go up to the village where i live and make friends, and later when my dad said "you're not drinking enough" "im taking you up the pub" and then i ended up playing cards with him and his mates, drinking boddingtons like older men do and young men dont tend to at 18 or 19 or whatever it was i was at the time, gosh this is very normal stuff, not spiritual it's human stuff im coming from a human, person, perspective lately, and yet the spiritual higher side of life is very much developed there too, i seem to be able to draw on both more easily these days, like i can switch it on and off, wow, im glad that my barrel has been scraped out
im glad ive got a chance to practise these so called normal skills of whatever it is you normals do
rambling nervously getting sidetracked, erm yes so before we end up going back again lets go forward to today, i did have an issue like those days past, stop it, forwards, get to the present
erm yes so lately lots of my older worst habits and feelings have come back, to be worked on
for me to update the oldest firmware and software and wiring within, i get a chance to update me
i used to panic, and when it came to the crunch i might freeze, lock up, my brain hurts...
so now all this work ive done allows me to stop those old loops, so many ive noticed
lately old loops, old drum beats, heartbeats too quickly, i notice quicker and relax
i can do that with my breathing as i learnt and now im relearning restarting
the process to produce my energy from within, it comes from without
i draw it in, until it fills me up, two in breaths, two out breaths
in in out out, splitting the breath in two, a pregnant pause
it's how to oxygenate your system for more stamina
thats why they do it to make a woman calm when what she really wants to do is hyperventilate or scream like fuck that a baby is trying to come out of her twat thats grown to the size of a very large
change the subject although staying with the breath, i think thats it, no losing my religion
nope it's gone, dont know where it was going now, relaxing, ooohhhhh that was a rush
i dont want to get into that state any more, or any state anymore, cycling down alarms
cycling down into bristol today staying in the moment, mantra stay in the moment
my own internal knowing helped me, i asked it told me, stay calm, do this, not
that, yes you may want to not wear thermals or you'll sweat until you lose
about a stone in weight by the time you get there a sodden mess again
and i didn't i got there feeling pretty good, but then a little a lot
scared when it came to actually breathing in and out then say
hi how are you?
but actually wanting to know your reply
god help me when it's not just a friend
i think that's what's been going on though
i have to keep doing what scares me
so the more it scares me the greater it's
power over me to control the way i perceive
things that i face in front or behind, the past im not that bothered with but its come up here
the future well ya know lately ive gotten to the point of realising that it's out there
but that all ive got is today, this moment
so deal with that for now
so i will
x
I always used to avoid such things as anything that made me nervous which then becomes almost anything that makes you nervous then you start avoiding everything especially those things that make you nervous, anxious, scared out of your skin and withdraw when it's those very things, moments, times when you can be yourself that make life worth living in the first damn place.
so then you go out and you face whatever it was, it's my imagination, my fantasy of how things could be, feeling like a walter mitty character, to be honest I thought he was an actual person not a man in a book, who makes his life up in his head and then doesn't actually do anything in real life.
i've always had a vivid imagination, and a shyness around going out into the world, i've dealt with that over time by either avoiding anything i thought i couldn't handle which was mostly involving communication, i would say hi, someone would say hi how are you, i would answer fine, then that would be the end of the conversation, that meant i didn't have to connect, even with friends the way that you can have a conversation with someone you know well but not actually say anything
all i had to do was let other people assume whatever they liked, nod, laugh at the right times, say the right things to make them think I agreed, rather than cause an argument or even a crossed word
it's really easy, I spent years, avoiding connecting with people I didn't know, wondering what they wanted, then i realised it's a social convention to ask people you don't know and even the ones you know vaguely how they are but not care about the answer, not really, it's just what we say
hi how are you? fine how are you? fine great that's that then
i'm being ironic
these days i actually ask other people how they are and mean it
i don't avoid conversation if i can help it, often when meeting someone i don't know very well or someone i've just met i can be a little overwhelmed, a little over excited and at the point of introductions i tend not to hear or make the point of remembering their name like you should if you want to know it next time, because the stress of that first conversation or meeting takes it away, im too busy making sure im not dribbling everywhere, or spitting on someone, not really but it's all about me, not them, it's hard not to when you grew up being so self concious for some reason
it's an anxiety issue i believe, like i wouldn't like to eat in front of others at school, not primary school, although i was so fussy that i didnt eat much there either, just puddings and plate fulls of white rice, because it was all so overcooked or because my constant ear nose and throat and tonsilitis even after theyd been taken out made my tastebuds bland, my habit was there already of not trying new things, bigger school i mean when it came to feeling concious that others are watching when you're trying to eat, concious of yourself too much and not of others, not connecting, a pattern
i find humans weird, although not so much these days, i guess i've grown to like them a bit more
the rest of nature makes sense to me it always did, but we find ways to be so unnatural with each other, twisted power games, mental fuckups we insist on ego trips and toxic relationships
so i just assumed that after my first relations went awry, eerily scarily over too much too soon im not full grown for this i don't know im too naive fuck this was amazingly romantically perfectly tragic
not going to harp on, plucking strings to make the sound of some song been there done that over and out
but afterwards and i knew i would write this somehow i knew it was coming, i felt like saying it
i figured it would be better, given that along with other things i find im not good at
just not to try THAT again ergh why would i it hurt so fucking much
and to be fair, most other people are so straight laced, so inhumane
so unnatural they want things i don't they want a house which involves a life debt
a mortgage, a death cage, work at jobs you hate or dislike and take no joy from
pay off the house and the stuff in it, to live with some woman who wants stuff
so i figured it would be pointless to go with any of the women i met, cos they want stuff, if i get in their trap, entrapped by their dreams and wishes to be rich then i myself would too
i projected all sorts of things onto everyone, at this point im at my most human
and it sucks although im actually at a low ebb, ive come down to earth with a bump
and as low as i am, i know, it's just a stage, like the bottom of a trough of a wave
there's a higher me, a higher level of being ive been being lately, more an more
so i have to fix this part of me thats exposed at the moment, just be better
be more confident, this morning for instance, going back to what i was writing about at the start of this stream of unconciousness, erm it was the fact that i had luckily only a short time to know something was coming, i was off to visit someone i know vaguely, but have a good feeling about
that made it easier, social meetings are hard for me, if it gets to the point that i havent seen someone i know for a while, the longer it's been the harder it was, what will we talk about? GOD it's been too long, we;ve nothing in common, we dont work together anymore, why are we meeting up now?
not such an issue now, and this was a beautiful opportunity for me to try to make things right
so i cant complain and i tried desperately to stay in the moment i was in, not think or fantasise the next one or the moments to come when i arrive at my destination, its hard cos the mind does that
it goes back and forth like a fucking vcr on acid, or with acid poured in the slot of the dvd player
melting im melting going back and forth through time, arghhhfuck FUCKKKKK it was lovely
i rambled a bit i think, but i was much clamer than i would have been years ago, i find it easy to talk about me, im not going to be sexist here, how can i explain that ive always been inbetween the sexes, always felt more comfortable in the company of women, i even sound a little effeminate, i can hang with the gays and the straights and the guys who honour their feminine sides
much more easily than with the ones who think they have to be tough and rough and say those horrible things about im gonna do this or that to her bits, i never did get used to all that talk
when i first got bored and lonely and had to force myself to go up to the village where i live and make friends, and later when my dad said "you're not drinking enough" "im taking you up the pub" and then i ended up playing cards with him and his mates, drinking boddingtons like older men do and young men dont tend to at 18 or 19 or whatever it was i was at the time, gosh this is very normal stuff, not spiritual it's human stuff im coming from a human, person, perspective lately, and yet the spiritual higher side of life is very much developed there too, i seem to be able to draw on both more easily these days, like i can switch it on and off, wow, im glad that my barrel has been scraped out
im glad ive got a chance to practise these so called normal skills of whatever it is you normals do
rambling nervously getting sidetracked, erm yes so before we end up going back again lets go forward to today, i did have an issue like those days past, stop it, forwards, get to the present
erm yes so lately lots of my older worst habits and feelings have come back, to be worked on
for me to update the oldest firmware and software and wiring within, i get a chance to update me
i used to panic, and when it came to the crunch i might freeze, lock up, my brain hurts...
so now all this work ive done allows me to stop those old loops, so many ive noticed
lately old loops, old drum beats, heartbeats too quickly, i notice quicker and relax
i can do that with my breathing as i learnt and now im relearning restarting
the process to produce my energy from within, it comes from without
i draw it in, until it fills me up, two in breaths, two out breaths
in in out out, splitting the breath in two, a pregnant pause
it's how to oxygenate your system for more stamina
thats why they do it to make a woman calm when what she really wants to do is hyperventilate or scream like fuck that a baby is trying to come out of her twat thats grown to the size of a very large
change the subject although staying with the breath, i think thats it, no losing my religion
nope it's gone, dont know where it was going now, relaxing, ooohhhhh that was a rush
i dont want to get into that state any more, or any state anymore, cycling down alarms
cycling down into bristol today staying in the moment, mantra stay in the moment
my own internal knowing helped me, i asked it told me, stay calm, do this, not
that, yes you may want to not wear thermals or you'll sweat until you lose
about a stone in weight by the time you get there a sodden mess again
and i didn't i got there feeling pretty good, but then a little a lot
scared when it came to actually breathing in and out then say
hi how are you?
but actually wanting to know your reply
god help me when it's not just a friend
i think that's what's been going on though
i have to keep doing what scares me
so the more it scares me the greater it's
power over me to control the way i perceive
things that i face in front or behind, the past im not that bothered with but its come up here
the future well ya know lately ive gotten to the point of realising that it's out there
but that all ive got is today, this moment
so deal with that for now
so i will
x
Sunday, 16 February 2014
short term gain for long term pain
i can think of all sorts of things that feel good at the time but then leave you with a bitter taste in your mouth afterwards, the last few weeks have been about short term pains leading to longterm gains...
feeling as though i've reconnected to deeper levels of my being, finding all sorts of attitudes and behaviours coming to the surface to be consciously seen, conscience, literally with science...
with the ability to reason and see your own mistakes for what they are and choose to change.
feeling like a barrel being scraped, psyhcologically speaking as though old wounds are reopened, as though old scars get a chance to be massaged with some cocobutter to help heal them.
the meditation course took me away from the day to day, gave me a chance to see myself more clearly, in many ways than ever before, and then you are in the moment, able to decide...
do i want to make changes now, that may cause me to feel pain, emotional turmoil, not so much phsyically as mentally, realising thought processes that go on usually, quieten the mind
let it calm down, me calm down, less anxiety, more comfort in myself, in being
it's a great feeling to go outside and sit in the sun and just be
feeling the resistance inside, wouldnt you be happier inside in the warm?
old patterns emerge and are transformed and quietened too
the general state is better than ever the feeling grand
great, ever so relaxed, noticing when you panic
noticing im walking too fast slow down
breath slow and deep make every moment a meditation a chance to notice what's going on
then with that knowledge, moving on, through, out of the funk of winters feeling of dying
a little as though the body creaks, joints ache from the cold from the rain feeling alive
again
x
feeling as though i've reconnected to deeper levels of my being, finding all sorts of attitudes and behaviours coming to the surface to be consciously seen, conscience, literally with science...
with the ability to reason and see your own mistakes for what they are and choose to change.
feeling like a barrel being scraped, psyhcologically speaking as though old wounds are reopened, as though old scars get a chance to be massaged with some cocobutter to help heal them.
the meditation course took me away from the day to day, gave me a chance to see myself more clearly, in many ways than ever before, and then you are in the moment, able to decide...
do i want to make changes now, that may cause me to feel pain, emotional turmoil, not so much phsyically as mentally, realising thought processes that go on usually, quieten the mind
let it calm down, me calm down, less anxiety, more comfort in myself, in being
it's a great feeling to go outside and sit in the sun and just be
feeling the resistance inside, wouldnt you be happier inside in the warm?
old patterns emerge and are transformed and quietened too
the general state is better than ever the feeling grand
great, ever so relaxed, noticing when you panic
noticing im walking too fast slow down
breath slow and deep make every moment a meditation a chance to notice what's going on
then with that knowledge, moving on, through, out of the funk of winters feeling of dying
a little as though the body creaks, joints ache from the cold from the rain feeling alive
again
x
https://www.facebook.com/notes/myth-seven/weird/1383846605165322
OK ok ok ok ok ok yes ok :P Even for me this is weird ;) but this paragraphs IS ME to a J xxx
i've said some pretty weird things myself, had some experiences i have mentioned and some well we'll go into that soon but hey this sort of thing is a bit much for me usually after all
i havent channeled any spirits from other planets other realms and i am a cynic too
a sceptical believer i use scientific reasoning at times and my own judgement
to make sure im not taken in, or taken advantage of with this stuffs ;)
i want to be taken advantage of however because i have skills
things i can do for others that make them feel better
usually it's making them laugh or at least put
a smile back on their mush ;) and so
i have to admit this is how i felt
for the longest time until
i reached out and met
the most beautiful
spiritual people
i know
x
We are all starseeds, star people, or starborn meaning we are not created in physical reality. Our souls experience simultaneously in many realities, timelines, and realms. We are souls sparks of light having one or more experiences in physical reality about to remember that it is all a consciousness hologram.
Awakened starseeds prefer to work in the esoteric and creative fields - healing, helping, searching for their own truths and their soul mission through studying systems of higher wisdom, writing their biographies as a means of clearing issues and understanding their purpose. It's 2011 and the journey is evolving back to light.
They await a great awakening the evolution of consciousness in the alchemy of time. They are programmed to find others like themselves, as based on similar frequencies and predestined goals.
Sometimes they feel like walk-ins or wanderers in this reality and timeline.
Some starseeds adapt. Others feel lost and alone, become depressed and withdraw from society feeling that no one understands them.
https://www.facebook.com/notes/myth-seven/weird/1383846605165322
i've said some pretty weird things myself, had some experiences i have mentioned and some well we'll go into that soon but hey this sort of thing is a bit much for me usually after all
i havent channeled any spirits from other planets other realms and i am a cynic too
a sceptical believer i use scientific reasoning at times and my own judgement
to make sure im not taken in, or taken advantage of with this stuffs ;)
i want to be taken advantage of however because i have skills
things i can do for others that make them feel better
usually it's making them laugh or at least put
a smile back on their mush ;) and so
i have to admit this is how i felt
for the longest time until
i reached out and met
the most beautiful
spiritual people
i know
x
We are all starseeds, star people, or starborn meaning we are not created in physical reality. Our souls experience simultaneously in many realities, timelines, and realms. We are souls sparks of light having one or more experiences in physical reality about to remember that it is all a consciousness hologram.
Awakened starseeds prefer to work in the esoteric and creative fields - healing, helping, searching for their own truths and their soul mission through studying systems of higher wisdom, writing their biographies as a means of clearing issues and understanding their purpose. It's 2011 and the journey is evolving back to light.
They await a great awakening the evolution of consciousness in the alchemy of time. They are programmed to find others like themselves, as based on similar frequencies and predestined goals.
Sometimes they feel like walk-ins or wanderers in this reality and timeline.
Some starseeds adapt. Others feel lost and alone, become depressed and withdraw from society feeling that no one understands them.
https://www.facebook.com/notes/myth-seven/weird/1383846605165322
Thursday, 13 February 2014
another go
ok rather than edit my last post, I'm gonna have another go at describing what it's like to get in touch with yourself, your instincts, to reconnect with nature, to feel more, see more, be more...
as i was leaving my front door, let's say for a walk, I could go in any direction, north east south or west, often that would be dictated by my desire to end up somewhere or to take a certain time.
often i have a place i want to end up let's say a friends house, so it's easy, i would choose the way that would take me there in the shortest time, or the most direct route to get to my destination.
however if I was meeting my friend and then going off for a bike ride, i would cycle to his house, and then the question might arise, so where shall we go then? in this case the past informs us both, we know how many different routes are available to us. It depends on the length of time we wish to be out, how far we want to cycle, all sorts of things.
However what I was getting at when i spoke about gps as a technology that removes our own internal sense of direction, overrides it, takes us places without us having to know where we are going, what I was getting at is the feeling i get when i let my instincts take me places.
So i've set out for a walk, i get to a place where there are two or three options.
I close my eyes and i intuit which one to take, i literally see in my minds eye.
I see in the darkness of my minds eye a light, like an energy, flowing more strongly in one direction, like the crossroads in front of me or the options available are highlighted more or less on instinct.
Now what happens when we don't just go the way we always go, or let our instincts guide us, is that we don't always just go straight to our destination, often when i'm out, I will get a sense, a feeling, or a thought enter my head that I should go a longer route than the one I had planned.
Now for a second I have to think to myself, do I really want to go the extra mile?
Not literally, it might only mean a few extra metres, or it might be a detour of hours.
My instincts are telling me for some reason that although the obvious rational thing to do is to go left, that for some reason I should go right. So listening to them develops this ability, I go right and run into a friend, or see something like a wild creature, a bird, something inexplicable.
In a town, I might have a sense of where I need to go, like this, in London for instance, I don't know the city, but I was driving in my car, with a new friend, someone I don't know well in the passenger seat, she was doing this very same skill, with her knowledge of London assisting with the general direction, I could tell, I could see the same information coming to me, it ought to be left along here somewhere, it's a skill others have spoken of. In a city like Bristol once you've been there a while, even if you're at street level, in a part of the city, and believe me lots of it looks identical to a stranger and country boy like me, that is unfamiliar, and yet someone who has lived there a while, has a sense of which direction to go, this is walking i'm talking about now. We develop this internal system of navigation quite naturally when we don't rely on technology to do this for us.
Over the years, since I reconnected to nature, started living outside, in tents, spending whole summers outside, sleeping outside at night, extending that to the whole year, or as much as I could stand given how cold it gets in a tent, or later my caravan in winter given that it's just a metal box with no insulation. As I have put myself back in touch with myself and nature all these things come back to me.
I know as a kid that all sorts of these things were present, I could play with tantra for instance, literally move my hands closer to each other until I felt the presence of an energy there, play with it, by moving my hands further apart again and then closer but without touching, I have demonstrated this to people, let them feel their own energy buzzing with mine as if the positive or negative poles of two magnets were being placed together, two right hands repel so there's a feeling of our hands getting close then an energy there between them, often for some people it's a tingling if they feel anything at all at first.
We have all become numb to these feelings, partly because we don't spend much time in nature.
In many ways it's the loneliness and disconnected nature of our lives, we don't connect to each other.
Partly because many of these things fall under the coveral and catchall of our language...
Far too often the extraordinary things that we are all capable of are described as crazy, insane, mad
This stems from the church and the doctrine that mysterious things are the preserve of the mentally challenged, in the past you could be put into an asylum for all sorts of reasons, from saying anything against the church or it's dogma to revealing visions that slowly over time became the preserve of religious figures but not for the masses, slowly as our spiritual heart our nature was taken from us and turned into something to hide, something to fear, something not to be spoken of because you would be considered a heretic, a non believer, a fraud, a witch, burned at the stake, imprisoned, tortured, killed. Nature gives us all these wonderful experiences and chosen men, those who have ruined our spiritual heritage and turned it into nothing more than a business, constructed a world where business and belief are one, banking and churching their way to destroying other cultures, native cultures, travelling the world converting everyone to their way of seeing the world, concreting over everything from native indians to native aboriginals, bringing with them disease and dis ease, making people ill at ease, creating a world where most people now live in fear, using terrorism as an excuse to lock everyone up tight in their fear of someone from another country coming to harm them, removing our freedoms to choose what we do to our own bodies, how we choose to live our own lives, on the basis that it makes us all safer, turning this planet into a giant prison where no-one is truly free.
Everything based on rules and regulations, the biggest breakers of those rules are the people in charge
As they say power corrupts but absolute power corrupts absolutely
You put someone in a position of power and they are destroyed by it
Look at how quickly our leaders age, even the ones we thought brought hope
Especially those we thought would bring real change, change we could believe in
Obama for instance, poor people brought him to power, now he does what the corporations say
He kills people from thousands of miles away in the name of bringing freedom to them
and safety to his own population, who are now far less safe in their homes because of it
Bin Laden was a u.s. asset, literally the enemy of the united states' enemy The u.s.s.r.
Later like saddam hussein he became an inconvenient ally, he saw the way to go
He created a situation where they could not help themselves, the military industrialists need wars
They need places to go, to send the soldiers, so that they can sell more weapons and it's gone too far
It's imploding, cities in the states are virtually empty, it's turning insane now literally madness
Not the type of thing they like to admit but it's close to imploding and causing a melt down
Across the world, it doesn't look good, this is a finite world, and economic growth can't go anywhere
We can't expect to keep trying to sell more stuff made out of the bones of a dying world (Paraphrasing Terence Mckenna here) to more people who never really wanted it...
For me the way forward involves taking the best of what we had in the first place with us
Technology will be a tool for our salvation, not god, not the church, not business, US
We are the ones who will survive, if we live sustainably, together, recreate our lives
Going back to nature and forward with her at the same time, reconnecting to her intelligence
Look at the way a permaculture system can clean up our toxic waste water, or mycelial mats of fungus can clean up an oil or toxic waste covered area and return it to a life giving environment in mere weeks... Here's a link to just how intelligent nature is and why we need her and her us...
Tempo de mudanca time for change :) at 55 minutes you see how natures intelligence can help not only that but that it's the only way forward, it's natural technology not using computer chips ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qs3b0E8FZFw followed swiftly by mushroom mat solutions
It's been said that if we continue the way we are we've got 50 years left
But that if we were gone in 50 years most issues would be solved by nature
So I'm removing myself from the equation, i'm out as soon as I can be
I'm returning to nature, to provide the skills that have returned to me
As I've reconnected to nature and to myself I've discovered why i'm here and what i'm for
I'm gonna go do that, and give what I can do for free, in service to my fellow creatures
Love
Jon
x
as i was leaving my front door, let's say for a walk, I could go in any direction, north east south or west, often that would be dictated by my desire to end up somewhere or to take a certain time.
often i have a place i want to end up let's say a friends house, so it's easy, i would choose the way that would take me there in the shortest time, or the most direct route to get to my destination.
however if I was meeting my friend and then going off for a bike ride, i would cycle to his house, and then the question might arise, so where shall we go then? in this case the past informs us both, we know how many different routes are available to us. It depends on the length of time we wish to be out, how far we want to cycle, all sorts of things.
However what I was getting at when i spoke about gps as a technology that removes our own internal sense of direction, overrides it, takes us places without us having to know where we are going, what I was getting at is the feeling i get when i let my instincts take me places.
So i've set out for a walk, i get to a place where there are two or three options.
I close my eyes and i intuit which one to take, i literally see in my minds eye.
I see in the darkness of my minds eye a light, like an energy, flowing more strongly in one direction, like the crossroads in front of me or the options available are highlighted more or less on instinct.
Now what happens when we don't just go the way we always go, or let our instincts guide us, is that we don't always just go straight to our destination, often when i'm out, I will get a sense, a feeling, or a thought enter my head that I should go a longer route than the one I had planned.
Now for a second I have to think to myself, do I really want to go the extra mile?
Not literally, it might only mean a few extra metres, or it might be a detour of hours.
My instincts are telling me for some reason that although the obvious rational thing to do is to go left, that for some reason I should go right. So listening to them develops this ability, I go right and run into a friend, or see something like a wild creature, a bird, something inexplicable.
In a town, I might have a sense of where I need to go, like this, in London for instance, I don't know the city, but I was driving in my car, with a new friend, someone I don't know well in the passenger seat, she was doing this very same skill, with her knowledge of London assisting with the general direction, I could tell, I could see the same information coming to me, it ought to be left along here somewhere, it's a skill others have spoken of. In a city like Bristol once you've been there a while, even if you're at street level, in a part of the city, and believe me lots of it looks identical to a stranger and country boy like me, that is unfamiliar, and yet someone who has lived there a while, has a sense of which direction to go, this is walking i'm talking about now. We develop this internal system of navigation quite naturally when we don't rely on technology to do this for us.
Over the years, since I reconnected to nature, started living outside, in tents, spending whole summers outside, sleeping outside at night, extending that to the whole year, or as much as I could stand given how cold it gets in a tent, or later my caravan in winter given that it's just a metal box with no insulation. As I have put myself back in touch with myself and nature all these things come back to me.
I know as a kid that all sorts of these things were present, I could play with tantra for instance, literally move my hands closer to each other until I felt the presence of an energy there, play with it, by moving my hands further apart again and then closer but without touching, I have demonstrated this to people, let them feel their own energy buzzing with mine as if the positive or negative poles of two magnets were being placed together, two right hands repel so there's a feeling of our hands getting close then an energy there between them, often for some people it's a tingling if they feel anything at all at first.
We have all become numb to these feelings, partly because we don't spend much time in nature.
In many ways it's the loneliness and disconnected nature of our lives, we don't connect to each other.
Partly because many of these things fall under the coveral and catchall of our language...
Far too often the extraordinary things that we are all capable of are described as crazy, insane, mad
This stems from the church and the doctrine that mysterious things are the preserve of the mentally challenged, in the past you could be put into an asylum for all sorts of reasons, from saying anything against the church or it's dogma to revealing visions that slowly over time became the preserve of religious figures but not for the masses, slowly as our spiritual heart our nature was taken from us and turned into something to hide, something to fear, something not to be spoken of because you would be considered a heretic, a non believer, a fraud, a witch, burned at the stake, imprisoned, tortured, killed. Nature gives us all these wonderful experiences and chosen men, those who have ruined our spiritual heritage and turned it into nothing more than a business, constructed a world where business and belief are one, banking and churching their way to destroying other cultures, native cultures, travelling the world converting everyone to their way of seeing the world, concreting over everything from native indians to native aboriginals, bringing with them disease and dis ease, making people ill at ease, creating a world where most people now live in fear, using terrorism as an excuse to lock everyone up tight in their fear of someone from another country coming to harm them, removing our freedoms to choose what we do to our own bodies, how we choose to live our own lives, on the basis that it makes us all safer, turning this planet into a giant prison where no-one is truly free.
Everything based on rules and regulations, the biggest breakers of those rules are the people in charge
As they say power corrupts but absolute power corrupts absolutely
You put someone in a position of power and they are destroyed by it
Look at how quickly our leaders age, even the ones we thought brought hope
Especially those we thought would bring real change, change we could believe in
Obama for instance, poor people brought him to power, now he does what the corporations say
He kills people from thousands of miles away in the name of bringing freedom to them
and safety to his own population, who are now far less safe in their homes because of it
Bin Laden was a u.s. asset, literally the enemy of the united states' enemy The u.s.s.r.
Later like saddam hussein he became an inconvenient ally, he saw the way to go
He created a situation where they could not help themselves, the military industrialists need wars
They need places to go, to send the soldiers, so that they can sell more weapons and it's gone too far
It's imploding, cities in the states are virtually empty, it's turning insane now literally madness
Not the type of thing they like to admit but it's close to imploding and causing a melt down
Across the world, it doesn't look good, this is a finite world, and economic growth can't go anywhere
We can't expect to keep trying to sell more stuff made out of the bones of a dying world (Paraphrasing Terence Mckenna here) to more people who never really wanted it...
For me the way forward involves taking the best of what we had in the first place with us
Technology will be a tool for our salvation, not god, not the church, not business, US
We are the ones who will survive, if we live sustainably, together, recreate our lives
Going back to nature and forward with her at the same time, reconnecting to her intelligence
Look at the way a permaculture system can clean up our toxic waste water, or mycelial mats of fungus can clean up an oil or toxic waste covered area and return it to a life giving environment in mere weeks... Here's a link to just how intelligent nature is and why we need her and her us...
Tempo de mudanca time for change :) at 55 minutes you see how natures intelligence can help not only that but that it's the only way forward, it's natural technology not using computer chips ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qs3b0E8FZFw followed swiftly by mushroom mat solutions
It's been said that if we continue the way we are we've got 50 years left
But that if we were gone in 50 years most issues would be solved by nature
So I'm removing myself from the equation, i'm out as soon as I can be
I'm returning to nature, to provide the skills that have returned to me
As I've reconnected to nature and to myself I've discovered why i'm here and what i'm for
I'm gonna go do that, and give what I can do for free, in service to my fellow creatures
Love
Jon
x
midnight at the oasis
From easter island, to the other examples the world over, if a civilisation, if a society does not live in a sustainable way, the end is nigh, it isn't optional, it's a foregone conclusion.
We are currently living in the midst of the sixth great extinction according to some experts, you only have to look at the number of species losing out to our way of living to agree.
There have been five previous times in the long story of this planet that many forms of life lost their battle to survive, due to climactic change, or events out of our control like comets or asteroids striking the surface of the world and creating climactic changes, today we are the cause.
So it's midnight for us and the oasis? Well no area is completely unaffected, all ecosystems are in decline due to overpopulation, ecological disaster in the form of deforestation, it doesn't look good.
Just like easter island, we are using up the resources of the world to create giant buildings in the name of progress and commerce, I think it was Terence Mckenna who said something along the lines of we patted ourselves on the backs when the soviet union and the eastern block collapsed, thinking we've got the right idea in the west and the capitalists and the free market economy, actually we're next.
You see profit IS a dirty word, it creates more and more rich people, so far removed from reality that it's untrue, the governments of the western world and those around the planet who think we're safe are wrong. Greed has become unsustainable, the desire to rape the earth of it's resources in the name of progress is destroying the very place we all live on, so that we can have ipads and other gadgets.
Whilst all this is going on there is a sensible alternative, growing in small pockets and necessity reclaiming areas of the world in a sane way, working with nature, working together to create community, in a sustainable way for the future. I see there coming a time, very soon when the worlds economy will collapse because the greedy just cannot lose their need to have more and more money and things. Perhaps it will lead to anarchy when it does fall, as it must and surely will do.
It's very hard to look at the situation we are all in and be positive about it, given that we are all connected, what happens in one part of the world does affect the rest, just like a butterfly in Brazil flapping it's wings causing a typhoon in asia, none of us are safe or secure in these crazy times.
On Debt
The abolition of slavery didn't end slavery, modern slavery still goes on, the underprivileged in many countries are taken advantage of by companies in the western world who use the fact that the countries they are now getting access to don't have labour laws, don't protect their own citizens.
Many people today are forced into slavery because of debt, look at a mortgage (mort dead in french)
Any loan the banks give out actually creates the money they lend into existence, it sounds crazy but it's true. They don't lend you physical money that they have been given by investors or savers to lend out, they create new money as debt on a computer every time someone is given a mortgage on a property or a loan.
Then the person who has been given the loan or mortgage has to pay the banks for the privelege.
You have to work your whole life to afford to pay back a loan with the money you earn.
If you can't pay it back, they take your property and sell it to someone else.
They can literally create more money as debt each time this happens.
Only 3% of the economy exists as real hard currency, notes.
The other 97% only exists on their computers.
It's said jesus died for our sins, in actual fact the bankers (money changers in the temples) got the Romans to do their dirty work for them because of his inconvenient truth, that they are immoral.
On Drugs
The argument for and against the laws on drugs are many, often some drugs are seen as gateways to using harder and harder drugs, the reasons for drugs use are many, so called recreational use, but in reality often people use harder drugs to escape a life of drudgery, to escape from the things they've done in the past, to literally drown their sorrows with alcohol, to forget how terrible their life is.
Over the years I have used several different drugs, as crutches, to find some peace, lately as my spiritual life has developed I find myself needing those crutches less and less, and find them less desirable too, I have worked hard on myself, accepted where I went wrong in the past, forgiven myself so that I no longer seek escape from what I see as a miserable existence in those substances.
That is why I find the belief that spiritual experiences are merely chemical effects brought on by drugs so laughable and such a cheap shot, when most spiritual traditions don't focus on drug use, traditional spiritual practise is often far more concerned with repetitive drumming or the use of dance to produce changes in the conciousness of the person who is involved in finding their spiritual heart, or to access altered states, to enter a trance, to find inner peace, to leave their troubles behind.
We have become so inhibited by social norms, what is expected of us as citizens of a defined culture that we are scared to express ourselves honestly, to be who we really are inside in case someone thinks us mad, the church has a lot to blame in this case because they prescribe certain ways of being and comporting oneself, many of which take us further and further from our true nature and nature itself.
On Technology
Technology is a tool, it creates answers and solutions to problems that make our lives easier.
Since I reconnected to nature I have found I need and desire those solutions less and less.
GPS for instance, in my minds eye when I am out and about I can sense which direction I need to go to get where I wish to be, often I get a little lost and learn more about the environment I am in, and I'm never upset because I find something that I would never have experiences or seen in the process.
In the modern world of timescales and bottom lines we have lost our ability to take our time, to learn about ourselves because we have become merely pawns in someone elses agenda, nothing but slaves to create a world that others will enjoy, although from what I've seen of how the other half live, with their air kisses and their deviant behaviour and greed, I'm so glad I'll never be famous or rich.
To move away from instinct, and feeling, to numb ourselves with prescription drugs from the pain we feel, that is caused by the modern lifestyle, that leads us away from our roots since the dawn of HisStory, written by the victors, who use force to get their desires, to literally make of themselves kings and queens over the rest of the populace. The last several thousand years are like a cul de sac that we have gone down and now find ourselves heading towards a dead end, literally our species is on the brink and the rest of the planet too, all life is in danger of becoming extinct except possibly cockroaches ;)
I used this analogy before but it's just so true, in nature the herd are not lead by the stags, the herd itself chooses which direction to go, the herd that knows where the best food sources are, the stags just concern themselves with rutting and eating and hanging out together. If they don't move with the herd they are left behind, out in the cold, to starve.
Modern day stags, the leaders of business, of government are just like those stags in the deer herd.
They are just like the cricket who played his fiddle and didn't care about winter coming, while he watched the ants busy with their preparations, those rich people are slowly learning, their children are slowly learning, certain things are becoming clear to those who wish to know them, who wish to rejoin nature, to live in harmony with the environment, to prosper in an ever changing world.
This world has been turning for billions of years without money, the recent past is a mistake.
The world will keep turning regardless but soon those connected to nature, using technology as the tools they were meant to be, not the replacements for truly living that they have become will recreate a prosperous life for themselves and for their children and for future generations.
That will happen because it is common sense that nature our mother and her sister necessity are the only ways out of our current crises, it is insane to harm the thing that gives you life, the very environment you live in, to keep going the way we are going will lead to disaster.
This isn't by any means what I had hoped to write, it's not as fluent, or as powerful.
Lately my mind is becoming less rational, I find it harder to gather my thoughts.
I am just being, and if that means my life gets harder until it ends but that it was happier while it lasted, then so be it.
Love
Jon
x
We are currently living in the midst of the sixth great extinction according to some experts, you only have to look at the number of species losing out to our way of living to agree.
There have been five previous times in the long story of this planet that many forms of life lost their battle to survive, due to climactic change, or events out of our control like comets or asteroids striking the surface of the world and creating climactic changes, today we are the cause.
So it's midnight for us and the oasis? Well no area is completely unaffected, all ecosystems are in decline due to overpopulation, ecological disaster in the form of deforestation, it doesn't look good.
Just like easter island, we are using up the resources of the world to create giant buildings in the name of progress and commerce, I think it was Terence Mckenna who said something along the lines of we patted ourselves on the backs when the soviet union and the eastern block collapsed, thinking we've got the right idea in the west and the capitalists and the free market economy, actually we're next.
You see profit IS a dirty word, it creates more and more rich people, so far removed from reality that it's untrue, the governments of the western world and those around the planet who think we're safe are wrong. Greed has become unsustainable, the desire to rape the earth of it's resources in the name of progress is destroying the very place we all live on, so that we can have ipads and other gadgets.
Whilst all this is going on there is a sensible alternative, growing in small pockets and necessity reclaiming areas of the world in a sane way, working with nature, working together to create community, in a sustainable way for the future. I see there coming a time, very soon when the worlds economy will collapse because the greedy just cannot lose their need to have more and more money and things. Perhaps it will lead to anarchy when it does fall, as it must and surely will do.
It's very hard to look at the situation we are all in and be positive about it, given that we are all connected, what happens in one part of the world does affect the rest, just like a butterfly in Brazil flapping it's wings causing a typhoon in asia, none of us are safe or secure in these crazy times.
On Debt
The abolition of slavery didn't end slavery, modern slavery still goes on, the underprivileged in many countries are taken advantage of by companies in the western world who use the fact that the countries they are now getting access to don't have labour laws, don't protect their own citizens.
Many people today are forced into slavery because of debt, look at a mortgage (mort dead in french)
Any loan the banks give out actually creates the money they lend into existence, it sounds crazy but it's true. They don't lend you physical money that they have been given by investors or savers to lend out, they create new money as debt on a computer every time someone is given a mortgage on a property or a loan.
Then the person who has been given the loan or mortgage has to pay the banks for the privelege.
You have to work your whole life to afford to pay back a loan with the money you earn.
If you can't pay it back, they take your property and sell it to someone else.
They can literally create more money as debt each time this happens.
Only 3% of the economy exists as real hard currency, notes.
The other 97% only exists on their computers.
It's said jesus died for our sins, in actual fact the bankers (money changers in the temples) got the Romans to do their dirty work for them because of his inconvenient truth, that they are immoral.
On Drugs
The argument for and against the laws on drugs are many, often some drugs are seen as gateways to using harder and harder drugs, the reasons for drugs use are many, so called recreational use, but in reality often people use harder drugs to escape a life of drudgery, to escape from the things they've done in the past, to literally drown their sorrows with alcohol, to forget how terrible their life is.
Over the years I have used several different drugs, as crutches, to find some peace, lately as my spiritual life has developed I find myself needing those crutches less and less, and find them less desirable too, I have worked hard on myself, accepted where I went wrong in the past, forgiven myself so that I no longer seek escape from what I see as a miserable existence in those substances.
That is why I find the belief that spiritual experiences are merely chemical effects brought on by drugs so laughable and such a cheap shot, when most spiritual traditions don't focus on drug use, traditional spiritual practise is often far more concerned with repetitive drumming or the use of dance to produce changes in the conciousness of the person who is involved in finding their spiritual heart, or to access altered states, to enter a trance, to find inner peace, to leave their troubles behind.
We have become so inhibited by social norms, what is expected of us as citizens of a defined culture that we are scared to express ourselves honestly, to be who we really are inside in case someone thinks us mad, the church has a lot to blame in this case because they prescribe certain ways of being and comporting oneself, many of which take us further and further from our true nature and nature itself.
On Technology
Technology is a tool, it creates answers and solutions to problems that make our lives easier.
Since I reconnected to nature I have found I need and desire those solutions less and less.
GPS for instance, in my minds eye when I am out and about I can sense which direction I need to go to get where I wish to be, often I get a little lost and learn more about the environment I am in, and I'm never upset because I find something that I would never have experiences or seen in the process.
In the modern world of timescales and bottom lines we have lost our ability to take our time, to learn about ourselves because we have become merely pawns in someone elses agenda, nothing but slaves to create a world that others will enjoy, although from what I've seen of how the other half live, with their air kisses and their deviant behaviour and greed, I'm so glad I'll never be famous or rich.
To move away from instinct, and feeling, to numb ourselves with prescription drugs from the pain we feel, that is caused by the modern lifestyle, that leads us away from our roots since the dawn of HisStory, written by the victors, who use force to get their desires, to literally make of themselves kings and queens over the rest of the populace. The last several thousand years are like a cul de sac that we have gone down and now find ourselves heading towards a dead end, literally our species is on the brink and the rest of the planet too, all life is in danger of becoming extinct except possibly cockroaches ;)
I used this analogy before but it's just so true, in nature the herd are not lead by the stags, the herd itself chooses which direction to go, the herd that knows where the best food sources are, the stags just concern themselves with rutting and eating and hanging out together. If they don't move with the herd they are left behind, out in the cold, to starve.
Modern day stags, the leaders of business, of government are just like those stags in the deer herd.
They are just like the cricket who played his fiddle and didn't care about winter coming, while he watched the ants busy with their preparations, those rich people are slowly learning, their children are slowly learning, certain things are becoming clear to those who wish to know them, who wish to rejoin nature, to live in harmony with the environment, to prosper in an ever changing world.
This world has been turning for billions of years without money, the recent past is a mistake.
The world will keep turning regardless but soon those connected to nature, using technology as the tools they were meant to be, not the replacements for truly living that they have become will recreate a prosperous life for themselves and for their children and for future generations.
That will happen because it is common sense that nature our mother and her sister necessity are the only ways out of our current crises, it is insane to harm the thing that gives you life, the very environment you live in, to keep going the way we are going will lead to disaster.
This isn't by any means what I had hoped to write, it's not as fluent, or as powerful.
Lately my mind is becoming less rational, I find it harder to gather my thoughts.
I am just being, and if that means my life gets harder until it ends but that it was happier while it lasted, then so be it.
Love
Jon
x
Sunday, 9 February 2014
shadows and light
Tradition relates that after the Buddha's complete enlightenment he uttered the following words :-
'Seeking but not finding the housebuilder,
I have traveled through the round of countless births.
How painful is birth over and over again.
Oh housebuilder! You have now been caught!
You shall not build a house again.
Your rafters have been broken. Your ridgepole demolished.
The unconditioned consciousness has been attained.
And every kind of craving has been uprooted and destroyed.'
The meditation course i undertook recently brought into the light thoughtforms within my own mind that create suffering in my life
The process of continuing towards enightenment reveals things known as sankharas, falsehoods, conditioned responses to outside stimuli, emotions
The journey i was on at the retreat revealed deeply held conditioned beliefs
allowed me to see them as impermanent sensations within my own body
to work towards a deeper understanding of why we suffer every day
why we can become elated or depressed by the actions of others
to reveal those deeply held conditioned sankharas is the goal
to see them for what they are and release them to change
the change the way we see the world and ourselves...
to reveal a truth hidden since the day we were born
that we crave pleasant things and are averse to
unpleasant things, literally creating our own
misery because we try to hold on to
things that are impermanent
that change constantly
letting go is the key
not holding on
loving life
more
x
In the first (passive) sense saṅkhāra can refer to any compound form in the universe whether a tree, a cloud, a human being, a thought or a molecule. All these are saṅkhāras. The Buddha taught that all such things are impermanent, arising and passing away, subject to change, and that understanding the significance of this reality is wisdom. Saṅkhāra is often used in this first sense to describe the psychological conditioning (particularly the habit patterns of the unconscious mind) that gives any individual human being his or her unique character and make-up at any given time.
The last words of the Buddha, according to the Mahāparinibbāna Sutta (in English and Pali), were "Disciples, this I declare to you: All conditioned things are subject to disintegration – strive on untiringly for your liberation." (Pali: "handa'dāni bhikkhave āmantayāmi vo, vayadhammā saṅkhārā appamādena sampādethā ti.")
In the second (active) sense, saṅkhāra (or saṅkhāra-khandha) refers to the form-creating faculty of mind, often described as "volitional" or "intentional."[7] States the Buddha:
'And why do you call them 'fabrications'? Because they fabricate fabricated things, thus they are called 'fabrications.' What do they fabricate as a fabricated thing? For the sake of form-ness, they fabricate form as a fabricated thing. For the sake of feeling-ness, they fabricate feeling as a fabricated thing. For the sake of perception-hood... For the sake of fabrication-hood... For the sake of consciousness-hood, they fabricate consciousness as a fabricated thing. Because they fabricate fabricated things, they are called fabrications.'[8]
In the doctrine of conditioned arising or dependent origination (paṭiccasamuppāda), saṅkhāra-khandha is understood to be that which propels human (and other sentient) beings along the process of becoming (bhava) by means of actions of body and speech (kamma).[9] The Buddha stated that all volitional constructs are conditioned by ignorance (avijja) of the reality (sacca) behind appearance.[10] It is this ignorance that ultimately causes human suffering (dukkha). The cessation of all such fabrications (sabba-saṅkhāra-nirodha) is synonymous with Enlightenment (bodhi), the achieving of arahantship.
As ignorance conditions volitional formations, these formations in turn condition consciousness (viññāna). The Buddha elaborated:
'What one intends, what one arranges, and what one obsesses about: This is a support for the stationing of consciousness. There being a support, there is a landing [or: an establishing] of consciousness. When that consciousness lands and grows, there is the production of renewed becoming in the future. When there is the production of renewed becoming in the future, there is future birth, aging & death, sorrow, lamentation, pain, distress, & despair. Such is the origination of this entire mass of suffering & stress.'[11]
'Seeking but not finding the housebuilder,
I have traveled through the round of countless births.
How painful is birth over and over again.
Oh housebuilder! You have now been caught!
You shall not build a house again.
Your rafters have been broken. Your ridgepole demolished.
The unconditioned consciousness has been attained.
And every kind of craving has been uprooted and destroyed.'
The meditation course i undertook recently brought into the light thoughtforms within my own mind that create suffering in my life
The process of continuing towards enightenment reveals things known as sankharas, falsehoods, conditioned responses to outside stimuli, emotions
The journey i was on at the retreat revealed deeply held conditioned beliefs
allowed me to see them as impermanent sensations within my own body
to work towards a deeper understanding of why we suffer every day
why we can become elated or depressed by the actions of others
to reveal those deeply held conditioned sankharas is the goal
to see them for what they are and release them to change
the change the way we see the world and ourselves...
to reveal a truth hidden since the day we were born
that we crave pleasant things and are averse to
unpleasant things, literally creating our own
misery because we try to hold on to
things that are impermanent
that change constantly
letting go is the key
not holding on
loving life
more
x
In the first (passive) sense saṅkhāra can refer to any compound form in the universe whether a tree, a cloud, a human being, a thought or a molecule. All these are saṅkhāras. The Buddha taught that all such things are impermanent, arising and passing away, subject to change, and that understanding the significance of this reality is wisdom. Saṅkhāra is often used in this first sense to describe the psychological conditioning (particularly the habit patterns of the unconscious mind) that gives any individual human being his or her unique character and make-up at any given time.
The last words of the Buddha, according to the Mahāparinibbāna Sutta (in English and Pali), were "Disciples, this I declare to you: All conditioned things are subject to disintegration – strive on untiringly for your liberation." (Pali: "handa'dāni bhikkhave āmantayāmi vo, vayadhammā saṅkhārā appamādena sampādethā ti.")
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| Name & Form |
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'And why do you call them 'fabrications'? Because they fabricate fabricated things, thus they are called 'fabrications.' What do they fabricate as a fabricated thing? For the sake of form-ness, they fabricate form as a fabricated thing. For the sake of feeling-ness, they fabricate feeling as a fabricated thing. For the sake of perception-hood... For the sake of fabrication-hood... For the sake of consciousness-hood, they fabricate consciousness as a fabricated thing. Because they fabricate fabricated things, they are called fabrications.'[8]
In the doctrine of conditioned arising or dependent origination (paṭiccasamuppāda), saṅkhāra-khandha is understood to be that which propels human (and other sentient) beings along the process of becoming (bhava) by means of actions of body and speech (kamma).[9] The Buddha stated that all volitional constructs are conditioned by ignorance (avijja) of the reality (sacca) behind appearance.[10] It is this ignorance that ultimately causes human suffering (dukkha). The cessation of all such fabrications (sabba-saṅkhāra-nirodha) is synonymous with Enlightenment (bodhi), the achieving of arahantship.
As ignorance conditions volitional formations, these formations in turn condition consciousness (viññāna). The Buddha elaborated:
'What one intends, what one arranges, and what one obsesses about: This is a support for the stationing of consciousness. There being a support, there is a landing [or: an establishing] of consciousness. When that consciousness lands and grows, there is the production of renewed becoming in the future. When there is the production of renewed becoming in the future, there is future birth, aging & death, sorrow, lamentation, pain, distress, & despair. Such is the origination of this entire mass of suffering & stress.'[11]
Friday, 7 February 2014
robin hood hearts
being weaned off so many things, bad habits, routes, ways
of dealing with a life day to day minute to minute moment
to moment... Seeing everything anew, every instant a
chance to experience something few in any ever do
not because they dont want to, know that nope
they do, so much in their eyes when they see
it in us, those who feel more, express more
cry more laugh more daft more and alas
it comes to those of us who live every
day as if it was our last or at da least
go out into the world knowing we
happen to it not the other way
of looking at it and we love a
lot more than you do yes
everything we can and
that includes all of
you too grand
as it sounds
i love you
much
x
of dealing with a life day to day minute to minute moment
to moment... Seeing everything anew, every instant a
chance to experience something few in any ever do
not because they dont want to, know that nope
they do, so much in their eyes when they see
it in us, those who feel more, express more
cry more laugh more daft more and alas
it comes to those of us who live every
day as if it was our last or at da least
go out into the world knowing we
happen to it not the other way
of looking at it and we love a
lot more than you do yes
everything we can and
that includes all of
you too grand
as it sounds
i love you
much
x
tinkerbells
dealing with your shadow fao:- peter pan and wendy
everyone can fly once they've woken the sleeping
giant of their shadow side, the enemy within so
in dealing with it i've had thoughts that were
so vile, experiences re-lived and forgiven
now slowly forgotten that's how it
goes when you become less
unconcious and dive into
the abyss inside the
ocean of your
fertile mind
in loving
ways
x
everyone can fly once they've woken the sleeping
giant of their shadow side, the enemy within so
in dealing with it i've had thoughts that were
so vile, experiences re-lived and forgiven
now slowly forgotten that's how it
goes when you become less
unconcious and dive into
the abyss inside the
ocean of your
fertile mind
in loving
ways
x
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