today

Evolving away from writing blog posts? yah boo! not good enough Jon, don't talk to yourself in the third person that's not good, not all the time or even now.  So I have been going from the sort of person in love with my own image, even though i was never all that sure that i was anything but a pretty picture, but even so i craved to see any pictures that had been taken of me, and pick which ones i thought presented me in a good way and then share them, on social media that would mean a constantly changing profile picture, and lots of tagged photos of me usually half naked at a dance party or festival because I don't really like to wear clothes and dance with a sweat full tshirt on.

Now i've got to the point where i'm not going to those parties, they don't interest me in the same way, drinking makes me feel sorry for those who don't even know what's going on let alone remember any of it, like i used to, blacking out and finding myself having been sick, gotten home unconsciously or whatever, gloss over all that, it's childish behaviour and i find it just not nice to be around that atmosphere any more, drugs the same, now i see people off their faces and glad i'm on my face, or my face is on my head, so I'm happy not to care about sharing pictures of my face and don't take many.

I'm creating a lot of poems, floems, poetry, floetry, whatever you want to call them and those are going on my Patreon account, basically an online museum  for patrons to visit to see my works and if they choose support me regularly with a monthly donation of any amount and at regular levels they can receive some kind of reward for that support, whilst I provide spiritual healing for free as always.

So that is good and my life has become more like other peoples, so busy with chores and daily stuff, that even without a full time job, i find myself with little time for anything other than creating, sharing, caring, supporting others, visiting friends, having them visit here, it's all very exciting and i'm not scared as much as i used to be, not as stuck in patterns as though i can work through lessons to get passed the layers of the onion that were holding me back, no fear, calm dawning over the land of me and me working as hard only smarter and with my time feeling more like a life lived well.

Going back to basics, being there for others, maintaining relationships, creating new ones, getting people coming to me for help, healing, reassurance, being myself openly, without that fear there, whatever comes will be, feeling better every day, healing chronic wounds, painful injuries, physical, emotional maybe, deep hurts i caused that i can't take back that i live with and have to carry around.

Whatever, at least this isn't rhyming, seeing people occasionally, bumping into others, really experiencing moments, of pure joy, mostly in nature, freedom to be, to choose, the live, to feel, to connect with  nature, meet trees, barefoot on the ground, it's harder but more fun and better for me.

So my creative side is blossoming and i get to share that, i can't remember what i said to who so that's a good sign and something i wasn't experiencing before, i now speak to so many people it gets me passed all sorts of problems so much so living in the moment takes you right through whatever thoughts you might have had, no time to think, just get on with it, being dared to do things that i might have talked myself out of before, call this person, speak to that person, stop and talk to that person, beep your horn and wave, connect, smile, don't be afraid, get involved in life, live more.

That's it for now as i regularly do a live broadcast on facebook at 9pm for a group healing meditation for anyone to join in with wherever they are, shared into groups online, sit or lay down with the intention of receiving healing energy, whatever you need it for, take it in, it's coming to you, my intention is to become a conduit for it to flow through me to you, whoever you are wherever you are.

www.patreon.com/MedicineManWildWalks my patreon for e patrons of my online museum of writen and video artworks, often with pictures and words added that come through me for anyone to enjoy

facebook.com/FreeEnergyRevolution for the Free Energy Healing Page, regular group healing meditations on a monday at 6pm, every evening live on facebook at 9pm for anyone to join in

So that's the bottom line and i'm off to Spain for some Holy Days for the first time since I last went on a pilgrimage in 2009 and before that my last package holiday in 2008/9 christmas and new year.

This time its free form, no plans, just meet a friend in the area, explore a lot, hiking into the national park, live in a cave maybe, see what happens and what i can happen to, live cheaply, and free. Swim.

So without all the need to take pictures and the freedom to just live in the moment it becomes a less stressful idea, in fact there are no ideas, no thoughts, only experiences to be had and enjoyed more.

Less thinking more doing, I shall see you when I get back and now that this is a blog again i hope to have a very small number of photos to share possibly, but a lot of stories to tell and i wish you well.

In the meantime, today I went hunting for an invasive species to help a friend heal from a pest species, I gave away a load of herbs dried and growing that I've been aching to share and give to a good home, we sat and had tea and just chatted and i can tell you it's been ages since I just did that.

The party seen is so shallow, lots of hugs which are great but so little real interaction, just going from one to the next was amazing don't get me wrong, i don't wish to insult any drinkers or druggers, get on with your life the way you choose, i just don't feel that anymore, it's not for me, i dip in occasionally, I miss the faces and the smiles but there just wasn't anything long term in it for me.

This feels better, special and real time, quality time with a few people, those who wish to better themselves, not that there's anything wrong with the way others choose to live their lives, but i feel as though i'm on the right side, the pendulum has relaxed into the middle from two extremes, so it's a happy medium where i generally just live a gentle happy life, full of healthy experiences and magical times, where time is not an issue, just allowing things to flow, feelings to grow and everything to expand naturally until i feel complete, growing, expanding into space, and full of life, healing too.

My personal space, the body, the energy i am, the way i feel, all says that it's on a positive note and i love the song that it's singing, facing the habits that still aren't good, but they are less damaging than those that were there before, deeper layers of the onion, smaller loops, uncovering truths, being.

As for anything else to say we'll see what happens in Spain and I hope I've made enough lavender pillow case enhancers because i've spent an awfully long time sewing them to give away as gifts.