apocalypse is the revealing of the truth and the truth is... flipping awful look around

It's like a terrible cartoon, i cant even lose myself in fiction anymore, movies and the like, i went to see dr strange, for me a spiritual standpoint, ensuring im fit and healthy, doing meditation to cope with the world as it is and is becoming, to make sure i can be there for my folks at least until theyre gone, who knows if the world will still be here in the next thirty years the tech is going to go ape shit, if the warring doesnt kill the majority, i have to hope upon hope that the new agers are right, that there is some kind of bad things happen for a good reason type of thing going on, that this is the end of the beginning of something good, that the bad ones will stick themselves in shelters and bunkers and pockets of nature will survive, with the ones who live meakly living in harmony with each other, and not some post apocalyptic scenario instead, which looks more and more likely, fuck! we're screwed basically but even so all i can do is do my healing course, and see what the future brings whilst trying not to lose myself in this constant fear mongering and anxious anxiety riddled populace that are ignoring as much as possible and la la laaaaaing their way through the tv shows and other distractions, caught in the we need to spend money to keep the economy (nowhere near the definition of the word by any strecth of the imagination btw) growing, daft idea that growth in a finite world will always er grow anyhoo back to your stuff sorry for venting but theyre not listening and i needed to get this off my chest