pain

pain is is an impermanent sensation that means that pain is a message that you can get, release from within you a reservoir of pain inside your body held there are emotions you have never felt, feelings you have never dealt with and so if you are willing to go there, you can access all this pain and see that it never comes again, but you have to be willing to be honest with yourself and others, sisters and brothers all, we tell each other our truth, we share that pain, we share the joy that arrives in its name and the shame and guilt that we carried all these years can be healed and replaced and faced just like our fears to become dreams and wishes that can come true anyone everyone of you can do this thing, just meditate, breathe, eat well, sleep well, force yourself out of the rut that you've been in, let's do this thing,rambling now, not sure this says what i had hoped it would but cha! who knows if anything we do will really help others, it's helping me that will have to be enough for now, holy cow it's early i'd better spend some time writing my book and get it out this weekend, keep my promises to myself and others, see what we can do to make our lives have meaning just by loving others, being there for them, being good for others, help them release all spiritual, physical, emotional and psychological pain and thank your body for everything it does, carrying you around, like a vessel on a journey to love

help

the hardest part about experiencing something awful, whether a life event, disease, ill health of any kind, stressful situations whatever it is that feels as though it will go on forever and our fear is exactly that, mental illness for instance seems like a curse that will never go away and we hide from it by taking drugs the doctor says will help that are no better than placebo, so stay strong, have some hope, i'll send you a little if you like, ask me, see if there's anything different coming on the horizon, take a chance, ask for help within, literally shout to the universe, i've had enough and when you've had enough, you've had it, it will pass as with all things, and one day you will look back on this time with a wry smile knowing it was for a good reason, even if it doesn't seem like that now, put things into context, would you be the person you are now without those experiences? Are you somehow better for them? eat well sleep well i know some ways to help that are tried and trusted for this, treat yourself with some respect because you are beautiful beings every one

heaven

dwell dwell dwell three holes in the profound
dwelling literally living down the well of truth
dwelling is taken to mean getting stuck on
something dwelling on the past or future
successes that's easy to dream about
'fucking hell loving heaven' is the saying
these things oft get lost in translation
have been deliberately truncated
more than they ought and now
wrought and abroad in the
world new ideas can take form
it's time for the worm to turn
for the sheeps to growl
night night wise owl
good morning fox
yes for tomorrow is a new day
yippee yahoo hoorah hooray
nonsense makes sense of
your life when it's pence
for your thoughts and
they come from a
source of great
peace and serenity
angling down and
up and out and
around then
back once
more to
love
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more or listen

hear less listen more
touch less feel more
eat less taste more
look less see more
smell and breathe
from your bellies,
and sense more
for sure we can
be more loving
by giving away
everything we
have for free
to see what
comes on
back to
us all

pissing

so it's pissing down and i was going to go for a nice walk, if it dries up long enough to make little brown mushrooms turn into a lovely golden fawn colour then im off out to meet them and prepare for tonights whatever but hey if not ill have to go with a mate to yate and get halo 5 guardians and blat each other with guns in the warm and dry but next week i get a fire for my caravan and then well ill be like the pig i am only in shit and hot and toasty stoved otherwise things are great, golden in fact, wisdom comes where knowledge is denied its place in truth, when you know you know nothing you can come to know anything from a place of emptiness and lack of beliefs or dogma or habitual thought processes or ear worms damn you everybodies changing and i dont feel the same but now im smiling because i dont feel the same as you in fact you feel grouchy at times rough round the edges not clearly defined with so many more pixels within my virtual projected light bee holographic kaladaiescopic reality and the colour pink in the clouds since someone happened to mention it was there to me now i can see and i wonder how much more is out there in here capable possible beautiful wonderful amazing pleasing and true? Let's find out when i say these words to all of you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, you +

sat

i sat and saw my energy body and my energy field around me so then i refined it into a thread running through me first as a rope then becoming tighter and tighter spun as it got lighter and lighter like a sun and tighter still and more refined and more divine and strike a light it became tiny like silk or cotton on a reel losing itself within me as it shrank it was in the very heart of me from head to toe and i sat there in a pose, hands upright on my knees, legs crossed upright stance, head facing forward not down or up, eyes closed, relaxed, seeing this happening, loving the connection as it swarmed within and became alive inside every cell and particle as it connected me to everything and everyone and i saw it shooting up in to the sky and down into the earth, saw my death and my rebirth and saw me shining like a beacon firing love out into the world and that is what i will do from now on apart from individual healings i will be thinking of you while i sense the energy of every moment that was, is, or will be  ++++++++

she

she whispers to me in her own voice and it's mine too because our thoughts are one, hers are mine and mine are hers and as our minds combine we love each other all the time and i thank her for each and every new day and experience trying to like the ones that are not pleasant even more, love the people who deserve it the least but need it the most and start over again knowing she's guiding me to the truth and loving this personality trains me shapes me makes we wish for everyone to feel this love see the world that becomes a very real possibility within our mutual imaginations, visions of a better life for you and me and all of us in the future just wait and see so i wondered wandered lonely for a while and finally feel like some company and i told my goddess that and my god did they understand taking my hand making me realise that to love everyone i meet is the way to open my heart to lead me home to where the real journey can start and that's begun the victory, the winning feeling that whatever the destination my yearning is leaving because im being loving and that's leading me to feeling loved for the first time that i can remember and this december is going to be a party time for me as i turn 43 + the answer to the question of life the universe and everything was 42 and it's true i found out this year that i could love you without needing you to love me, that i could love you set you free, i could love you unconditionally i could love you and not hold back, i could love you all and that's not just because you're lovely it's because when it comes to love there is no lack no shortage of it, it's everywhere in everything we're just blinded by our fear our genetic history our heritage having been taking from us, from me and since i was able to see it from a very young age i hid from the truth that i am a plant in this reality, a kind of sage, a guide, a teacher, a student always yes, but it's my role to dare to be different in a world desperate to be normal and not care if that makes it hard to find someone similar enough to me to understand my mental menagerie but i can't let my transformation into who i always was inside, who i really am, for everyone else to see, prevent me from being whatever it is i need to be to fulfill my destiny and i love you now that i'm feeling so much more like the one you knew mother, father, sister, brother, i'm coming home to you one day soon  +

man

so ive felt as though im ready and thats as ready as youll ever be and asked the universe to give to me the opportunity to see and build something and see it grow and learn and sow some seeds for the future deep in the earth and make a place for others to heal have freshwater there and ponds and fields and cottages for the guests who needs a space to be without all the trappings of modernity and then it can also be a herb garden and medicine patch and vegetable supplier and food and energy converter where the plants are grown and sown and harvested in cooperation, relationship and honour and respect so they do their best to be individual and unique we help each other out so to speak cross pollination information going back and forth between them and you and me and us unconforming to the common need for electricity and wireless fog so
this is my hope my dream to build it so they can come and heal +
thankyou universe ill get on my side of the thingy by writing and
asking someone who may say here ya go, here's a field get a
building next summer dream big i say, and be disappointed
a little more but overwhelmed with the way that things like
like minded people are drawn to you when you get out
there and try and try and do and do some more who
knows this time next year i could be settled in a
new built eco home and setting out gardens
trees avenues and lawns and places for
nude sunbathing and such and all
sorts of other lush stuffs to be
included in this sort of plan
wow i never thought to
get here but it feels
fucking amazing
woman and
man
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believe it - naruto

if you can see it
then it can see you
whatever it is be it sky
sea, sun, sand, sexy lady
sexy man, earth, wind and fire
it's all alive, it's all got eyes to see
so where does that leave you and me
it leaves us where we always were right
here in the middle of a great observing now
a massive tiny moment of nowness being done
each and every single one of us living our own life
slap bang in the centre of a big bang creating worlds
each time we blink this one comes into existence and us
with it, here we are again, here we go again, on the merry go
round again, finally the love that lasts is coming to take us away
this poem came to be more or less what i hoped, a dr zeusy soap
a tale to make others pale a tune for the phat lady to sing to as it ends
i feel as though this is what we have to accept and face this time friends
this world is just a shadow of the one we really live in and we're going home
back to where we all belong in the long run back to instant wo-man-ifestation +

afinity

self taught massage from the root of a natural affinity and ability and yearning which became pressure point healing revealing more and more possibilities so that it soon turned into the lightest touch my visualisations are of you completely well, physically resolved evolved and as my hand lays on you i see it all golden energy and light where shadows and emptiness prevailed before whether old or new damage or unease which doctors call disease or injury whatever it is it's all the same to me so as i was going to write this nicely it seems as though everything has to be a riddle otherwise it would be too easy for you to work it out and there would be no sense of achievement, i would be ruining a surprise of cosmic significance which we all want to enjoy discovering at our own pace so i try not to trace the tracks of my tears or yours and just see you as i wish it all to be, lovely, loving, loved, perfectly resonating joyful expressions of pure love and this sounds like nonsense it doesn't come out in the right order like yoda words go the way around they feel right not how they are meant to be said and yes ive held back because i must ive pushed ahead because i must ive set myself apart because i must ive finally felt my heart fixed and bust and bursting at last apart so that it can connect with every bit of energy around i felt my crotch become a whirlpool as i fell into the love that exudes from every pore of the skin of this reality when you finally connect to the good in you and others and love