and how

so as friday comes around again my energy comes back as i can relax and not work hard and lose all my strength trying to earn money and i can be creative connect eat well sleep well wake up naturally stretch find a position that is uncomfortable and stay there until the reservoir of pain is released and then i can sit still and quiet notice the space between thoughts, see that grow and become a void from where all the solutions to my problems flow and on it goes as i repeat myself and wish i didnt have to but accepting this pain and strain upon my system and the tiredness and the stress less these days feeling healing rays and confidence returning that i am who i am meant to be if only i could see the ways in which this world is being transformed for the better and yet it's going on without my knowledge everywhere whatever the current so called news situation in this nation im thinking of making my own country where we live free, no really, free to be, to love, to grow things and people and push comes to shove this has to happen for me for us for everyone and it is if you look at the trends where the ends don't justify the means and folk are grateful for a few little magic beans or pulses rather than a hulking hanging carcass of a cow those fairy tales and magical myths say more than we allow ourselves to see and gradually as i plateau and reveal the layers that mean i am more than i could imagine if i set myself the course to be the best me i can be and see where that takes me and i have a vivid imagination always have done but that world never overlapped with this one leaving me fraught and distraught at why my dreams never came true, thats because i never got to know even one of you much, in touch, connected, affected, i barely felt emotions i was so numb but thats not a story or a tale to tell anyone lets focus on the good news now that the bad is out of the way, mostly, hey it's been a wild ride and i have some regrets but mostly those i cannot say, for today though i am hopeful, i send love to the four corners of the global village and it's inhabitants inhibited or un, everyone, one day maybe if im lucky i will meet someone, maybe someone new, or old, or young, or someone i knew before that i would treasure knowing now, maybe it wont happen and my life will still be Whoosh! Kaboosh! Kapoww! whatever its better than it ever was and im very grateful for this state of play and how!