dont make me stay cos im never far away

i love love
you are love
lovely so i love
you if that's love
you can take love
keep giving it away

goodbyeee

i want to say goodbye or really rather cheerio as im off to ozora and hungary for two weeks to visit with friends and their families and go up  in a tiny plane to do some acrobatics and shit my pants but in the meantime or rather the lovetime personally i've been coming into my own lately, ive used things to get places and some of those places are connected to other places that i want to go and see and using certain substances has helped me to break through the internal barriers, the opinions i learned from others, the choices i saw others making and taking and im free to be me finally, free to face my fears, look forward at the years ahead with relish and ketchup, catchup to where i ought to have been a long long time ago if only i had just done what my instincts told me to do in the past, ya know ive been living as a vegetarian and lately as a vegan or at least trying to anyways its hard, for every food or drink choice to have something to learn about it, dislike about it really makes your day revolve around shitting and pissing in a good way though, sooooo on to hungary, on to healing for free, or donations, on to working to be free, living in a new old way, loving every person, loving every day, rhyming less and less and feeling so much like the son of goddess that it doesnt hurt, my body is less painful, my energy is better, i smile often for good reason and  sleep better but shorter rising with the sun unless im exhausted by all my missions, listening more, listening more, loving people more, being more open, even more, being less selfish and giving more, giving everything away, all the time as though i wont need it, others will, so i pass it on and more comes back, more love ,more time, i have lots of time because ive dropped most of my tmewasting habits and that time seems to go quickly but contain a lot more ctivities and enjoyment so what can i say?  but i love you every day, thankyou so much, thankyou world, folks and stuff :) <3 +

maverick

if we were playing shamanic poker right now i would see your pain and raise you up

womanifestation and manifestation in the nation

was thrilled to hear professor David Nutt suggest there is a difference between the brain and the mind, given the neurons (brain cells) in the gut and the heart, well then what is the difference? All of you is your mind not just your brain and the imaging studies carried out on lsd and mushrooms show that they switch off, not turn on areas of the brain, they literally switch off the gatekeepers that keep us from connecting to more areas of ourselves and in turn more areas of conciousness which is what our mind is, our brain is just grey mush that sits between us and god, and that feeling when you're a kid of not seeing your parents as your parents? That's because your godparents are the goddess and the god, yes you have two sets of parents, the earthly ones and the ones from the source of all creations, yes folks, father sky and mother earth, the sun and the moon, i swoon to hear such things as the psychedelic society of bristol being created as we become free to leave this hellish reality and rise up into our heritage, the world of the spiritual, the world of true reality, the heavenly realms, the garden, eden, the garden of need, where all our needs are met, manifestation in the nation of love

heritage

the energy that is your heritage, your destiny, is hidden and masked by what you thought you see, is pain but is in reality a doubt, a fear, a level of uncertainty, that is dispelled when you clear away those enemies

destiny

it doesn't matter to me, because i am not matter and neither are thee, it's all just flowing energy, i'm merely a conduit, a can-do-it, someone with enough imagination to break free, of supposed limitations to our destiny

unity

my soul, my higher self said i am you and you are me, it's taken you so long to see, that there is a higher reality, another world and then another and another going on almost to infinity, reaching a point called perfect unity

two streams

two message that were hard to accept at first were that this is a giant energy recycling centre and that almost everything you love is a distraction from your mission which is self realisation, literally finding out who you are and why you are here, so ask then

heaven can come later

there's more to this world than just living and dying,
some aren't saying, some don't know, some are lying.
Today they all say that you only live once, so why not?
The truth is we might only be us once, that's not all of it.
Life goes on beyond what we think of as the end, there's
and intelligence at work that can be our enemy or a friend
some call it god, some goddess, in fact it's both and neither
that's getting closer to the truth which we will all find out later

song of ages

if you had been in hell all of your life would you recognise or trust or take the hand that reached out to you with love, could you see what lies above and not below, would you, could you, should you ever let all your sorrow go? Please do
We all have our crosses to bare i have so many it almost seems untrue but they are there, they mark my skin, they run deep, they're in my blood but they don't mean I can't, i won't, i haven't got a chance in hell of making good on all my promise and so on i go, listening intently, setting my intentions, rattling cages, singing the song of ages, making myself look silly, dancing like it's going out of fashion as though no-one is watching even though i know that every thing is staring and caring, every thing is alive, animals are people too, and people are animals that's why it's wrong to eat animals because it's a kind of carnivorous canibalism that's my opinion i know but when you start to see all life as your brother and sister what's one less murder worth to ya? Start to take the hand that guides and holds you close and dear

cancer scare

i may offend a few people but the truth hurts and all those wishing for a cure for cancer or fundraising for charities who pay their staff most of the money need to understand that cancer is a possibility, one that has become more and more likely, it's gone from 1 in 50 to 1 in 3 because of the environment we live in, the stress we live with, the food and drink we eat and sup so it's up to us, to live differently, not to let the chance of something become the certainty of it, that's how it sounds when they say things like, 1 in 3 of us will get cancer at some point in our lives... +
the genetic switches within us, our own predisposition is there but they are only switched on when we are unable to heal ourselves because we never get enough sleep, because we're hooked on and watching screens until late, desperate to see someone elses dramas, fictional or real unfold instead of facing our own, sorry and all that, by all means shoot the messenger here i can take it, can you though?

the existence of goodness

you cant disprove the existence of a great goodness, a goddess, a god, who has so many faces, that they are everywhere, in nature, on animals, on us because you are unwilling to prove it to yourself, or you deny or disbelieve your own experiences because they would culturally seem like madness, after all it's the first sign to talk to yourself, have a word with yourself! See what happens when you do, i love you

forgive and forget

if you want to forget you've got to forgive...
trust me whatever it is you thought about
whatever it is you did or had done to you
if you open yourself up to it all and learn
you can be forgiven you can forgive too
and soon your life will open up for you
so trust in yourself in me in whatever
you like to think is out there it so is
it's a state of bliss awaiting yours
awaiting your releasing of pain
loving you whether you like it
or not it's all the same to it
don't be afraid of it either
make the most of it too
send love out and it
will return to you
i love you life
i love you
love you
i love
you
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nature aint mute and im listening

someone said nature is mute, someone else said nature is not mute, we just stopped listening, well im listening and nature is talking, right at me, to me, into me, like over the years i've spoken to fire, it said without words though that i ought to find it's rhythm and i did, it's constant, fast and then slow, slow, slow to the beat of the drum, to the seat of the fire, higher, higher, higher, and fire said ok thatll do + im lit are you? ;) these days are hazy less lazy and crazy but who wants to be sane, inane, boring and plain? not me thats for darned sure thankyou life i love you +

if you can keep your head but let it go

Don't blink. Don't even blink. Don't even think. Don't let that part of you have the first or final say, not tomorrow but especially today. Get out there, do what's morally right fuck the awfully unlawful way of seeing the world cos they're wrong and you've got the vision and the foresight to see what's best for you so don't blink, don't even blink, don't think just do whatever it is you feel like doing and then... well afterwards you can recriminate, ruminate and generally vegetate but you'll have lived +++ and what's more you'll be a woman or a man my daughter / son / everyone

loving you is easy cos you're beautiful

my relationship to the divine began in a similar way to how it is today, there was forgiveness and love, there was rhyming words, there was a literal male and female deity to talk to, to connect with and though they are not a man and a woman that is how i saw them at the time, since then a connection to nature makes so much more sense, i rise with the sun, i give thanks for each new day, i eat wild food and my instincts literally tell me what's good and what to try a little of, knowing what is poisonous helps so that i feel safe to do so, my confidence is sky high, my fear is enough to make me cautious but not to hold me back or be scared of taking risks, i've become the man i always wanted to be, my heart skips a beat when i think of the possibility of love as i am being loved, i am driven to go and do the things that would have left me terrified before, like a spoken word event, or going wherever the spirit moves me to go, i do what feels good and right and i can tell you it's the greatest feeling ever so i give thanks to the friends i've made, to the people who showed me the way and today i give love to everyone and everything as i move forward on an amazing ride, holding on for dear life but letting go at the same time of pain as i heal myself, they've taught me so much and are willing to accept me for who i am, strive to make me a better person every day, have my back and give me the support i need to make the changes i wish to make, they've given me the opportunity to have a relationship based on pure honesty, and prepared me for the scariest one of all, that of loving someone else aswell as me and i couldn't be happier with the bliss i am starting to feel

not all who henge are lost

so i arrived at stonehenge slightly nervous because of all the people, i could feel their nerves and my own, i could feel the anticipation and i could also feel myself getting closer to someone, to myself, always hearing the words, come and find me, so i walked around the stones and i heard a woman say "take off your shoes and socks, you'll thank me" or something like that and so i did, tying my laces and slinging my boots around my neck, wearing my red and black uniform of tantra, wandering around and it occurred to me i ought to do a lap, which became eight laps, walking around and around the stones, closer and closer then further and further away, setting and sending out my intention for everyone to have a lovely and safe time and as i walked i felt the earth beneath my feet, i sent a magical love out from me to everyone there and from there to the planet, i did my medicine walk and i loved myself, my friends, the world, the universe, the multiverse, everything that was, is and will be and when i was finished the thought kept coming to me, come and find me, i have lush food, i want to share a joint with you so i kept walking, following the flow, finding people out of it to send energy healing to, wandering but not lost and when i was done i did it some more, wandering

white light

close your eyes, see yourself as the outline of your body, only this one is not your physical body, see the outline clear and white, see the inside as an empty space, see a pure brilliant white light shining down on you, raining down on you, soaking your energy body, coating the outline with unconditional love, watch as it soaks into you and then starts to fill you up, let it fill your feet, they become white too, getting more and more of this energy, let it rise up and bring all other stuff to the surface like the skin on a rice pudding, see it fill you up from the soles of your feet, to the toes to the tip of your head, keep doing this every night, to let it build and rise, and see what happens +++++ let it shoot out from the crown of your head finally

prescribed

so as a natural healer, someone who massages away pain after first finding it, or who uses energy to do the same thing in a much simpler way, my prescription for you is to take off your shoes and socks and get your feet on the ground every day for at least thirty minutes, in the morning, midday and afternoon if you can, stop eating factory farmed and processed food, learn about wild food, meditate, which is easier than you think, it's about finding the space between thoughts and letting that grow into a space for you to be not think, get some sun for goodness sake, it's out there shining down on you, let your true self emerge when you do these things and the one who worries and fusses and fights go, be the lover of your self, be the one you have been waiting for, oh and make some raw chocolate for breakfast

they called for me

ive been called out, they knocked on my door, but to be honest i was knocking my whole life, asking questions like "why are we here?" looking for answers and so they came, in little and big ways, because of the things i've done, because like anyone i wished to know what this place is, who we are, what i can do to answer those questions and the truth is, eat well, sleep well, get exercise, meet amazing people, stop doing the wrong things and then i was given the gift of healing, learnt more about massage because it was something i had always done, so everyone, you too can learn the answers to the greatest questions, just ask them and wait

i love me and you lots and lots for us to do you and me me and you

all i need is what ive already got
a love for the cold and the hot
for winter and summer too
so to start i love you +