the rough and the smooth

i think feeling everything so deeply as is now thought to be the truth of autism, that rather than not wanting to engage with others, it is actually painful to do so without the barriers that others are born with or create to survive the onslaught of emotion and sensual information, makes a lot of sense of why people on the spectrum go the other way entirely towards more rational pursuits, into their own interests, their own worlds, i know for me connecting to others didn't seem too worthwhile when i only ever seemed to be punished or ridiculed for being who i truly am, maybe we all suffer this in this world because at some point egos became the way forward, whatever the truth, when it finally dawns on you that you can be accepted for who you are, limits and talents, the rough and smooth, life makes more sense finally x