if im right having been so wrong

if i'm wrong i may not accomplish anything worthwhile in this life and die
finding that life does not go on afterwards, that it was the end of mine
if i'm right i may discover the truth behind this one life and others
and free myself and others from coming back here again...
so yes i'm scared, yes i hurt, yes i fear the darkness
within not without, i don't fear death or life just
coming back again and again having felt
the weight of all the previous times
i was here, we were here, living
above and beyond the feeling
that this is all there is, was
or can ever be once more
you see i know i reject
am starting to dislike
the world i live in
having lived in
it all my life
only to
go to
love
x