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i can explain but it's simple you have a picture of the world you trust and to let go of that is too painful or you think it will be, the truth is fear of something is far more painful, holding back or resisting change is far more painful, your pain is an illusion, given to you by yourself, you nned to have an open mind going into any situation, and see what happens then deal with it, instead of going in thinking you know what you're going to get, and rarely if ever being disappointed, this is a lesson for us all, ive learned them all the hardest way possible so i can heal everyone else, when my past comes back to haunt me a biut more, the entirety of my childhood will come back to me, it is there in heaven it is there in heaven on earth but we are in hell, hell on earth, another world, and that is why everything feels wrong here, why common sense was going away, we are moving back quite naturally into balance and into the middle realm of the shamanic world, i know i am gods first shaman, first disciple on earth, there may be others who have been told the same story, i feel there are thousands if not millions of simple country folk and others, living a life connected to nature, who are now doing extraordinary things and miracles are taking place evrer day to make this world come into a golden age, the only thing holding us all back is the idea of the old world, the idea of pain and suffering and disease, thats why we cant cure most things cos they dont exist theyre just memories and thats why this place has lots of weird things going on that we can tsolve either, ufos, crop circles, we cant find the reason cos theyre ghosts or us... sorry fort he rant but you really need to accept thatin this case, in your case and forever more until you become the woman i know, the womanthe world needs, the woman you need to be, you will let the old you die, forget your past once you have forgiven yourself all i can say is this is a loving message of hope in a dying world of fear