feeling flow

letting go to relax from head to toe
letting energy in to heal and renew
letting myself be free to experience
letting it all hang out and to heal me
all i need to do is to let go once more
all i need is a little time to set my ways
speaking from the heart to really start
speaking freely and giving love easily
feeling my stomach and breath free
no more holding on to the breath
only a beautifully free feeling
is what love is revealing
and showing to me
thankyou love
love me

and the loving is easy

the only energy work you need to do

is to feel the energy all around you

letting go releases all the brakes

and loving is all it really takes

spiritual development

as my friends hit 444 and my healer number ends 444 i have decided to write something about my experiences at meditation & spiritual development classes, in circle with a teacher whose a medium we have been developing by doing, creating sacred space and then going on journeys within the mind and outside to connect to spirit, to work to become a better conduit to make a connection to the other side of life, to the higher realms, the astral plane, whatever you wish to call it, last night and again today, and from now on whenever i wish to do so, I can connect to a portal within me, encompassing my connection to the ether and beyond, allowing me to heal myself and others, because i was told i am a conduit between love and life, love being there and life being here, we are living beings being human right now and when we die we will continue to live on as the love that we came from, there, i've said it, like a car crash on the motorway i've become a spectacle, during the period when my spirituality was looking more like mental illness and it was because, i was addicted to drugs, and bad behaviour to numb what was in me, from coming out, and someone very special said that it is best, in fact necessary for us to find out what is inside and get to know ourselves, i am coming to know myself truly for the first time, to be an empath, to feel others pain but rise above it, go beyond mere sympathy, beyond mere empathy to compassion and that is the truest way of being there for someone, to be able to be there, support them and allow them to heal within themselves, to be able to see the light and go towards it now. When we die? That's another matter, but I was lead by the hand by a guide who is a Franciscan monk to meet a being of pure white light whose outline looked familiar, what the divine is for themselves is something we may never have considered but when we see them they take the form of a human being, because we have made god in our image, not the other way around, i felt a great love and continue to do so, i am healing and continue to do so, and offer this connection to others for free on a donation basis, in order to support myself and free my time to be able to pursue the reason for life, to experience what it has to offer those who choose to connect to nature and see themselves to be a part of it all, the world, the cosmos, indeed the life that exists everywhere but looks like stars and other planets, other galaxies, it is all consciousness in one form or another, as is everything we see, and in fact do, so to be a man at all, to be a better man in the process of becoming and finally to become and evolve into whatever it is we are born to be is the life affirming place i find myself in, thankyou :) +

big ben

be love
the energy
that you are
no pain
just energy
feel it and let go
to be the underlying love
you matter
you are not matter
you in fact are a matter
for joyous concern and rebellion

sleepy head

all fossil fuels are our ancestors and we cremate them in our vehicles to
come and go as we please and so we are literally burning our bridges
and failing to acknowledge what we owe generations of creatures
that came before us so that we are living now and able to ruin
the natural world that is not my point in writing this one no
it's to say something to the living not to the already
dead, to those who may die soon or later isn't
that our only certainty in life truly after all?
The countdown has begun and i hope
that we've started to see the rope
we gave ourselves enough
to hang ourselves all
with and we were
swinging just
gasping
into
it

We don't go to sleep when we're tired and have been yawning
because we know deep down subconsciously that we ought to
we know that sleep is the best thing for us and will bring us to
a better place, of healing, revealing where we are going off
the beaten path, the one the ancestors trod for us all long
long ago, we know, we stay up late, watching screens, to
find something to do instead of sleep to not go straight
we take things, smoke things, drink things and i did it
i ignored the signs, all the times, the ignorance well
it was not bliss, it was, unconsciousness, and it fit
it fit me then because i couldn't see how it could
be any better to try to be understood, be real
to feel something again because the pain it
felt better to be there rather than here so
i know the reasons and the symptoms
and the excuses and the currently
emphatic unsympathetic attitude
i had to my own self be untrue
it's just i think we're all in this
state of post war traumatic
stress disorder generally
a generation which lead
to a disingenuousness
to lie to ourselves not
cope and not see it
because it's easier
to ignore what's in
front of your face
it's our reflection
looking back in
to our contact
lenses within
our eyes so
wide open
refusing
truth to
sleep
on
+
The answer for me was to go outside when i didn't feel like it
and yet i knew it was the right thing to do at the same time.
The answer was to go to sleep as soon as i was yawning
because the natural rhythms tell us what is right for us.
The answer for me was to know that I could do worse
I could choose to keep on doing what i was doing
or i could make the sane choice try something
outside my comfort zone that was so small
choose to accept i can't change the past
i can make a difference in my own life
i can do something with it and see
i can i can i can just change it
change internal statements
from i can't to i can then
check what happens
next like connect
four will i win
or lose all
i cared
again
love
jon
+

Positivitree

old habits die hard or so they say but you can choose to go another way, accept whatever is going on and be positive i know they say that too, but if you're habits are good they'll die hard too, so keep on keeping on and being good, in your words, your deeds, your actions and reactions and weed out the habits that are deemed to be bad, be good more often and those will be your old habits that die hard, a die hard fan of you is what you will become, from there your need will be to love not just you, but everyone, and some will say as they tend to do that this will all end in misery because that's what they are used to, but that's them and you're you, be the change you wish to see in the world to see the change you wish to be in the world and sod them, they're stuck in a negative rut, not their fault, just the way it is for now, but that's not the way you wanna go, so go slow, be good to yourself, realise that self esteem comes from doing what you know to be right, often and soon you will, not might, see the change you wish to be in you :) + <3 

 Go deeper underground inside yourself and it gets darker sometimes but the light gets brighter too, that's the real you and so is all the other stuff but actually the dark bits are what has been shown for you to see and accept but choose to move on from, keep going with a light on, shine it brightly and wear that smile that seemed to have gone, breathe in love into your belly and breathe it out into your heart and beyond to transform any situation or person that you see or come into contact with, keep smiling inside if necessary and see what happens to you and what you happen to, that's the truth we are the process of becoming better or worse, and for worse or better is the option we have and we have both, so learn the lesson in front of you, it's to keep on being you, the real one, not the shadow of a person that you became, that's lame and untrue, remember the first you that you were before all this? It's the one that was pure and true, that's the real you, the spark, the first ring in your living tree, be true, be love, be free with your smile, your positivitree :) + <3

healing

doing what scares me talking on the phone but actually enjoying it, the not being alone, doing what scares me and finding that it's not so bad to become the responsible one, doing what scares me knowing it takes my mind off my mind, doing what scared me, all the good things in life like chatting to a friend, rising early, finding there's more energy, creativity, doing what scared me, being there for others, failing and learning lessons, doing what scared me, being who i am, doing what scared me, being a man, taking a stand :) +

librarians

it must be terrible to be pretty

I'm just so glad that I am not

must be awful to be attractive

they ask do I have a shot?

it feels so good to be plain

or i might think i was hot

or not worry about it at all

'cos it matters not a jot

we seem to be obsessed

about a thing like looks

'cos it only really matters

what's inside the book

sat on the bed doing healing

spirit said to me, you're going on a journey, to meet the world soul so get ready, wrap up nice n warm and gently tap your knee, and so i did it tapped out a lovely regular beat, my eyes closed i felt energy beautifully unique and to my surprise i was there already, we're here i said? and spirit told me, you are the world soul as close to it as anyone has ever been, because you're new and free, that is the world soul, the living being truthfully authentically wonderfilled nature of nature being its loving self and so is every body

first floetry patreon post

when i was three
my sister came to see me
born as she was from my mother's belly
and that was my first ever and most vibrant memory
I don't remember anything much since then i say that truthfully
my life was a waste of time only now has healing come to me
i have promised to give my life in service to others freely
writing on the fly and editing so that it looks pretty
i come up with this stuff because it's so gritty
it takes me out of routine away from pity
i thank anyone reading this ditty
supporting my effort daily
to become a man
to make a plan
understand
my hand
land
free.