and how

so as friday comes around again my energy comes back as i can relax and not work hard and lose all my strength trying to earn money and i can be creative connect eat well sleep well wake up naturally stretch find a position that is uncomfortable and stay there until the reservoir of pain is released and then i can sit still and quiet notice the space between thoughts, see that grow and become a void from where all the solutions to my problems flow and on it goes as i repeat myself and wish i didnt have to but accepting this pain and strain upon my system and the tiredness and the stress less these days feeling healing rays and confidence returning that i am who i am meant to be if only i could see the ways in which this world is being transformed for the better and yet it's going on without my knowledge everywhere whatever the current so called news situation in this nation im thinking of making my own country where we live free, no really, free to be, to love, to grow things and people and push comes to shove this has to happen for me for us for everyone and it is if you look at the trends where the ends don't justify the means and folk are grateful for a few little magic beans or pulses rather than a hulking hanging carcass of a cow those fairy tales and magical myths say more than we allow ourselves to see and gradually as i plateau and reveal the layers that mean i am more than i could imagine if i set myself the course to be the best me i can be and see where that takes me and i have a vivid imagination always have done but that world never overlapped with this one leaving me fraught and distraught at why my dreams never came true, thats because i never got to know even one of you much, in touch, connected, affected, i barely felt emotions i was so numb but thats not a story or a tale to tell anyone lets focus on the good news now that the bad is out of the way, mostly, hey it's been a wild ride and i have some regrets but mostly those i cannot say, for today though i am hopeful, i send love to the four corners of the global village and it's inhabitants inhibited or un, everyone, one day maybe if im lucky i will meet someone, maybe someone new, or old, or young, or someone i knew before that i would treasure knowing now, maybe it wont happen and my life will still be Whoosh! Kaboosh! Kapoww! whatever its better than it ever was and im very grateful for this state of play and how!

nothing and

nothing and no-one to lose and in the past it was my decision to choose to be alone to have no trust and just myself to worry about but there's a whole world out there that feels like it needs to scream and shout and finally go about the tasks that are waiting for us to get creating solutions to our global problems and i'm just one bloke who no longer wants to choke and actually wants to join in get on work hard make friends maybe even have a special connection show affection realise that it might be in my best interest to be loving and grow and i know that what i say seems like it's been spoken before but im a little bit of a whore for the attention of something you dont even believe in necessarily airy fairy scary i try not to be but its going to take each and every one of you to learn the truth before a planet wide transformation can be taken for granted and made true so that's my choice to be one of those saying things that seem mad but it isn't a fad or a trend, some strength i need to lend so that I can highlight where i've been a terrible friend and get better each day, learn to pray and be thankful, give blessings, love, ignore the peer pressure to conform, wear a uniform, buy things i dont need just want, ruin the rest of the planet as it sits on the brink of the sixth great exstinction underway but hey let's go get a takeaway, sit in front of the t.v. that'll do for me, im ok jack, this place is whack and going to the dogs, im just a little frog with big eyes, seeing through the lies, to see more important things than living and dying, getting out there, trying, to do what's right, whether it makes me stand out, makes me see with a second sight, the truth of the world and see that come to fruition, thats my mission, thats why im here, no matter how much time ive wasted, how many times ive got things wrong, im singing a new song, letting go of my fear of trusting others, those who are sisters and brothers of other mothers i love you, let's get together, see what we can do, to make this world a better place and face up to the real reality that is just another aspect of what we think we do and see +

stupid is

stupid is as stupid does and there are a great number of those amongst us but most if not all just know that they would like to live in peace and ease and please dont think this is a rant just because my praise is scant and i say things like you fucking bastards all of you fatherless and motherless and rudderless without the faith that comes with experimentation with your connection to the true affection and love that comes from out of the heavens above and from the ground below as below and so above this aint some kind of shove in the right direction but if you could just see that intelligence is free just stop worrying that you know anything at all or going on about the fact that the sky is about to fall because it may or may not just decide to do that, terrorists, muslims, whoever you want to blame for our lame culture its all the same because it makes you feel less than you are cause you're no rising star and not famous or rich thats a son of a bitch like me thats free to say and do whatever it is i like and yes im a tyke a little rascal and from here i can see the kings and queens of the castle standing tall but the bigger they are, the surer and harder they fall because they must before the planet turns to dust and lust is just another way to say i want something i will take it rather than i need something i will give my time to create or make it or barter or work for it or give of myself so that i may get something in return, that the right way around to make the world go round and as this thingy comes to an end my friend i can say that the goddess, encompassing nature, the universe and beyond, is my muse and to amuse you more we talk daily about everything and everyone and some just maybe i could say mean more to me than i could pray to share with them +

loving you true is loving you even though we'll never be together we're never apart either neither fart ;)

surely Monica Belucci and Leah Seydoux are Bond WOMEN not girls?

When will this dinosaur grow up and get hitched to someone anyway?

These days whenever i think of something to ask someone i ask me.

I ask me first just in case i've already got the answer wasting time.

Trying not to see that i am asking myself the same thing today.

Why didn't I have three kids with different women say or play

around a bit more when all i ever did was look for love in the

wrong places or wrong people and hey it was fun to feel a

strength flowing through you of loving someone truly as

though they loved you and maybe they did but not in

the same way and so that energy is short lived and

turns to dismay as you set yourself up for and fall

over and over in love but not really in romantic

pedestal lust coveting someone not enough

seeing them as someone theyre just not

not even thinking or getting aroused by

them because theyre in your heart

not your head or pants because

its not real no connection so

no gypsy encampment set

up overnight otherwise

known as an inappro-

priate erection and

then finding after

one two and yes

three that this

old learning

curves is

fun when

love is

free

<3

writer

put into context, sorry for inability, praying for rain, hoping for time, to write again, to continue on, spitting it out, sending it out, typing it out, changing it to say what i mean not what it sounds like, making sure to offend where necessary, go on get angry at me, i deserve it probably, always shying away from the things that would make me the man i wished to be, marriage, mortgage, best man duties, not for me, surely, no, god no, goddess yes, help me find the courage to grow and learn, to do what my heart yearns for me to do, to help me out and then you, to heal to be a healer, to be an energy dealer, an arms dealer, hugging it out, sending it out, energising, realising between the two of us that this is magic, magical, amazing, going on without fazing in and out, raising my voice to a whisper maybe one day it'll be a shout, let it out, express, impressing upon myself the need to let go, to say goodbye to the past, to the things i wish had never made me who i am but i cannot wish for that anymore only that i can, that i will, that we may, work rest play see another day, wish it well, thank it for its chance to be another way yay +

anxious

all the anxiety in the world may be the knowledge of what is to come bleeding into today into now because we can feel it already here so i know that for me lately ive become calmer about the mysterious soon only because i can do nothing about it but choose my reaction to it as it unfolds and let the best version come into being by letting go of my need to imagine how it will be or trying work out what will i say when that conversation may never take place and today im in the space of a very great calm about the soon to be now because it's going to be great not worrying about fate but letting destiny say hello mate +