homemade

as i walk, around my wrists from majorc-a, two friendship bracelets whose tassles hang down, stroking my palms, making me comfortable being touched and i've decided to take down the sign saying 'Keep Off' because the grass here isn't greener it's me that is green with envy, with inexperience of all the best things in life, like having someone to do things with, a close friend like i had before and need again, wandering, buying an ice cream, a book, taking a look around the town, going back to tescos on my day off, thinking about winding up the ex squaddie who i relieve of duty when i'm on, telling him that the sas style desert camo sun hat im wearing is from my time in the forces, that is still classified and i can't talk about NOT but it's fun to be having fun again, spending time with a friend again, spending again, lending again, an ear, money, a smile, taking a while to look around at the world, seeing faces, new places, seeing the journey as more important than the destination and feeling elation in the sun, no less or more than anyone, just being, feeling, breathing slow and deep, letting it all seep inside, and then come out, going to make some homemade chocolate later or tomorrow now, having a life is busy, i can see now why everyone finds it hard to get everything done, remember who they told what, as usual i've written a lot not a little bit, but hey it's cool to have this outlet, it's cool to have bought a tent, going to overnight sleep and feel the cool night air, wake naturally, after naturally feeling sleepy nice and early, see what tomorrow brings, wishing everyone everything their hearts desire +