Ooh Gross - Clumsiness is next to goodliness -

You've given me a new skill... I'm not squeamish anymore when it comes to real life situations involving ughy ergy yergy lergy type things ucky yucky mucky things don't bother me now. Still don't like horror films or shocking stuff but hey I'd rather see through the fake conditions pervading the so called real world and be taken in by clever cinematography or a good joke or riddle told by a great storyteller... I want, desperately need to hear yours but only as long as they are interesting so practise them in your head, learn to write them for the perfect audience on the fly every time.

Thankyou in person, thankyou to everyone and everything.

When I stub my toe I laugh it off because I wasn't paying attention. Hey other clumsy people, have you ever noticed that it's often a help rather than a hindenberg? Sure occasionally you may get closer to dying young in a blaize of boredom like randomly electricuting yourself or accidentally taking too many painkillers (no really, shocking story of a young woman). No most of the times in our lives a clumsy action is actually a benefit because it prevents a more serious error from occurring. We tend to berate ourselves and others for not focussing on what we are doing, usually I'd guess that was because you're not into what you're doing and couldn't care less but could far more.

I died the other night... Once more several times... I was stabbed, had my throat cut and was then evicerated like the victim of a horrific murder. So I decided not to go to sleep as riding out this visceral experience was preferable to ignoring or hiding from it in unconciousness.

A microcosm of my life , yours, ours, theirs, everybodies, everythings...

We are dying whilst we are alive, that's a fact every breath uses something up whilst something else is created, comes into existence, we are never the same for more than an instant, a fraction of whatever is the smallest measurement of time oh that's er icy cold frozen moments or hot shiny firey explosions on the point of becoming.

That's how it felt to be in your presence and you doubt that ...
that i can cope or that i care too much but you're my role model and teacher...
I take your lead where I need it and make progress my way when I feel I can without...
Leading to the event of a lfietime, in my case the end of a wonderful friendship because well...
It wasn't meant to be, anything more than a chance for us both to learn something, a short course...

Straight to.
Light&
Love
Jon
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